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SUMMARY: I never wanted to be sick, I never asked for death to be knocking on my door, I never thought I'd be a witch and I never expected him; the one I hated most; to be the only one who cared.

Recap end of last cpt : I couldn't tell anyone my secret. People didn't need to know, I didn't need pity. There was something about that night, something off I couldn't explain. Why did I survive, even now when I'm on the verge of death, the Death Eaters aren't known for their mistakes.

Chapter 2: Purple Haze

Coward. It was the perfect word to describe me. Standing there looking at Isabel was worse then being with the marauders. She knew something was up, Izzy knew me better most of the time then I knew myself.

Dumbledore must have talked with her. I didn't know what he said and it worried me, how much was he willing to give away? Izzy and I had plans for August; she spent most of July at my house then I was to spend August with her before school. Dumbledore must have let her family know or Isabel would have been on a rampage about me bailing on her.

Avoiding her gaze I heard Izzy step towards me "Lily. God. I'm so sorry" She wrapped her arms around me and it felt strange, I couldn't remember the last time anyone touched me.

"I've been going mad trying to get a hold of you but Dumbledore said you needed time" Her intense gaze I knew was trying to read mine. Trying to keep a passive face, I didn't know it would be this hard seeing her. It was almost a relief having her here, but I knew there was only so much she could know. I wasn't ready to explain and open up a new door of lies. After a month I still couldn't get my mind straight, and the flashes out of my head.

" I have to go talk to the head boy" I heard myself mumble; he would be easier to face then her. I could lye to him, hate him as he does me but when faced with Izzy I knew I would crumble. Looking back I saw her distraught face, she was worried. Hesitating towards me I could tell Iz was planning to go with me but I needed to go alone.

Turning into the shadows I whispered "Ill meet up with you later" Before heading back to the heads Compartment. This was definitely going to be a long couple months. Finally reaching the compartment door I didn't want to go in yet and leaned against the cool wood finish. My headache hadn't gotten much worse but the constant pounding was a nuisance.

Hearing laughter within I didn't want to ruin their fun as immature as it may be, but I had nowhere else to go. Hearing a massive bang I decided to see what I'd gotten myself into. Sliding the door open purple smoke flowed into and through the corridor. Looking around nothing could be seen, the window drapes were pulled shut and purple haze filled the room and it suddenly became unnaturally quite.

Attempting to be stealth like I quietly made my way around the compartment, looking around for any sign of the boys. "Argarrhh get of my foot Peter" I heard the deranged strangle from Sirius towards my left. Sharply turning I felt myself collide with a solid figure and tumble to the ground.

"Prongs you alright? hey mate where are ya?". The worried voice of Remus was shouting through the Heads Compartment, it was only a little larger then the other compartments but that moment it seemed the size of Hogwarts. Finally the fog began to clear, what on earth were they doing anyway my mind screamed.

Feeling dizzy from the fall and guessing it was Potter beneath me I tried to stand. His grunts of pain almost made me smile realizing my elbow fell on a certain body part of his. Thankful he couldn't see my blush, I noticed his glasses must have fallen off when he fell too. Blindly reaching around me and felt the peg of a table and tried to lift myself up.

Potters sudden need to stand left me pulling the peg harder then I intended sending it crashing down on us. "Are you trying to kill me Woman!" He shouted, "I'm blind as a bat here and I can already tell it's you Evans" It was a major relief realizing he couldn't see me.

It took me a moment to realize blood on my arm was actually myne. The Hogwarts snow globe must have shattered when the table tipped. The cool glass burned in my arm, a large sliver was stuck in my right shoulder. "Clenartis" I heard Remus pronounce and all the purple evaporated into thin air.

The Compartment looked as if a tornado had blown in. Three gawking Marauders looked around appearing to be just as surprised as I was. Guess the spell didn't turn out quite like they expected.

"Evans as much as I love your new self proclaimed love for me, GET THE BLOODY HELL UP" Was the muffled cry beneath me. I instantly jumped up moving forwards towards the curtains to let some light in. Being alone in a dark room with the marauders was not at the top of my to do list.

Remus with his gorgeous blue eyes and dark shaggy blonde hair pulled me over to him. He was my favorite; even with his little furry problem his kindness always had me raptured. Studying my arm, I felt him try to pull the glass shard out.

Jumping back as if he struck me I felt all the marauders eyes on me. That definitely stung more then stung! It felt as if someone grabbed a butcher's knife and tried to decapitate my arm. The glass must have hit one of my bruises when it hit me, that's why it hurt so bad. "Lily we have to get the glass out, are you all right" Remus was trying to be rational I could deal with rational couldn't I.

Slowly moving towards him I sat on the cushion next to him as blood seeped through my blue jumper. Looking me in the eye he said "I'm going to do this quick"… which he did, and I screamed. Good god! That hurt a lot more then I thought it would.

In an instant Potter was next to me holding his handkerchief up to my arm. Why was he helping? Eyeing him carefully I noticed he didn't come out completely unmarked with a small scratch down his forehead, some pair we'd make.

Black watched, his intense look was a little unnerving but quirked to a grin when Potter said to me "take off your jumper".

"What!?!" I was a little astounded and shocked, and was about to slap the living daylights out of him when he said "You have to stop the bleeding and it's soaking right through your jumper"

Ok. So that explained it. When had he suddenly grown a conscious? "Unless you want to get an infection and save us from all that joy killing you normally do and we could live a few days in peace." There we go, that's the Potter I knew and hated.

He moved from my side of the compartment over to where Black and Pettigrew were watching us. Remus did the same thing asking if I could remove my jumper.

I couldn't, they would know. The Poleton was for my sickness but because of it I couldn't take any other medications. My arms were still lined with bruises and unhealed cuts from that night. It had almost been a month, but the healing slowed due to my medicine, dark blues and blacks still lined my arms.

Standing up the blood rushed to my head, telling Remus I'd bandage it in the bathroom I grabbed another Hogwarts jumper and shirt before rushing out. Once in the bathroom I peeled of my shirt and Sweater.

Looking in the mirror it was isn't myself looking back at me, but the ghost of who I once was. In my skirt and bra I looked in the full-length mirror at the scars and marks covering my body. A new dark red slash covered my right shoulder and was still oozing out blood. How did it come to this, why did everything have to change?

I wouldn't let anymore any more tears be shed on my behalf, I refused to cry. I wouldn't let myself but tears already started glistening in my green eyes. My mind was screaming, it felt like a thousand needles were being pushed into my skull. It was happening again, I couldn't breath, sinking to my knees gasping for air I was drowning with no water.

"EVANS! Remus told me to bring you these" Vaguely I could hear some words before the door was pushed open. Looking up the last thing I saw was Potters deep gray eyes before darkness once again took me.

End of Chapter 2!!

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