Hello! I'm finally updating. ; It's has been a busy school week for me, so please forgive me if these chapters take a while to update. ;.; Oh, and thank you for the reviews! I was for a moment thinking I didn't have enough character depth::Shakes fist:: Anywho, next chapter!
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Rin's Choice
Rin sat at the river's edge; her tears slipped from her cheeks to be yet another droplet in the great stream. She wanted nothing more to disappear. To be nothing but another figment in her lord's imagination. Oh, she wanted him horribly, but she could not face him. She wanted to hold him, beg his attention. She could not though. When it came to her lord, she was the most obedient, docile servant there was. She knew that if she disobeyed him in any way, she would regret it. Her heart would hurt only more.
Another tear fell to the river's roar.
"Rin!" the sound of Jaken's voice resonated in her ears. "I caught three fish without using a hook and line. You see child, I do not have to use such ignorant human ways!"
"That is nice Master Jaken." Rin scrubbed her tears away with her knuckles. She noticed they were red from cold, and she felt the chills of the winter in her bones. She did not notice until then there was so much frost about. It made her tremble. Winter, indeed was not her favorite season. She could not wait for the Spring Thaw to arrive. It would be so beautiful and not so damned cold!
"Rin, are you alright?" Jaken asked, his large yellow optics regarded her with little concern. He was Sesshoumaru's most loyal vassal, and tried to show no feeling towards the human child who joined them years ago. As she grew older though, Jaken had taken a liking to the girl. He still tried to show his indifference toward her but could never help but be worried for her. He was never one to share the love of his lord, but with Rin, it was an exception.
Rin replied softly, "Lord Sesshoumaru hates me."
Jaken wondered what brought this on. He knew for certain Sesshoumaru cared for the girl above any other. When she was younger, he grudgingly admitted to himself that the orphan was something completely different to Sesshoumaru than he was to him. Sesshoumaru took care of her like something that belonged to him, rather than served him. Jaken was a bit envious of the hold Rin had on Sesshoumaru. He got over it when she proved herself a little useful to their services.
But, why now the thought of hate?
Rin must have taken something the wrong way. He guessed she misinterpreted a gesture, or a word, or possibly just the way their lord was. He was quiet, stern, and at times cold, but he really was never capable of hate. Well… yes he was. He hated humans. Most humans. Rin once again being the exception.
Jaken sighed, "What did he say Rin?"
"Nothing," Rin could not reveal those cold, cold words. Such harshness was in his silence. She did not want the memory to come back.
Jaken pressed, "What did he say Rin?"
Oh how could she not tell him? Master Jaken was her only friend, the only confidant she had. If Kagome was there she could probably confide in her, but at the moment she only had Jaken. So, with a sigh she answered, "He said if I touched him, he would kill me." Her voice began to break from the tears, "Did he mean true, Master Jaken? Is that what I am to him? Just another human? I know he hates them… I hate them too. I just never thought…"
"Rin!" Jaken raised his hand to her temple and swatted her lightly, "Hush you insolent girl! Lord Sesshoumaru just wishes the best for you. Why, I know he would not say such things without a purpose. Did you do something to upset him?"
Rin became sheepish, "I kissed him."
"You what?! Rin, you, you kissed our Lord Sesshoumaru! You foolish girl, foolish, foolish, foolish!" Jaken swatted her again. Rin slapped his grubby hand away.
"Stop hitting me! I didn't mean to, it just happened! Something was wrong; the tree he was sitting against was eating him!"
"Now you are being delusional, Rin. Lord Sesshoumaru would never let that happen to himself! He is powerful enough to destroy many! A mere tree would not over take him."
"Well, it almost did, so there!" Rin crossed her arms and turned away. Frustrated tears poured from her eyes. She found herself once again crying.
"Fine, I will go speak to him."
"Don't!" Rin suddenly cried out. A foreboding feeling caught her heart and squeezed like before. She did not want Jaken to do anything. "Please, Master Jaken. Just don't."
Jaken who thought himself right most of the time, took her plead into consideration. He closed his oversized eyes and croaked, "Fine. But it is your problem now." He dropped three large trout in front of Rin's form. He hobbled away, "Make a fire or else you will die of chill. Eat the fish if you want, I can catch some more."
Rin nodded solemnly, murmured a thank you, and said nothing more. She just watched as the small toad demon disappeared into the small woods near the river. She expected he would watch over her or leave her to her peace. He did that a lot, leave her. Why was it, every time he did, something bad always happened to her? It made her a bit wary of the things around her.
This day though, Rin would not even have cared if a demon came flying from the heavens to take her away. She would likely be threatened; most definitely. She would not have cared at all. In her thoughts, if she was taken away, her lord would come for her. He would always come.
Even when he hated her, would he come for her?
There was little doubt that he would come.
But, maybe that was the reason why he hated her. Perhaps, he was tired of always saving a human. Always having to jump in and protect her with his almighty Tokijin. He probably contemplated her death this whole time. Maybe he wanted her dead.
She didn't blame him. She would kill herself to, if she was some burden with no usefulness at all. She was but a demon's whore, so she heard from other people they had passed along the way. The way she was dressed and hung to Sesshoumaru, many thought she was indeed a slut who lowered herself to levels far beyond decency. Sesshoumaru must think that of her. A whore. Yes, a whore.
'Are you cold Rin?' Her lord's voice sounded in her ear. It was so quiet, but she knew the concern hidden in the tone. He was worried about her. He might think of her as plenty of things, but if he truly thought her to be so useless, a woman with no pride at all, he would not show such minor concern.
Rin bit back another sob. How could she think such things? How could she assume such horrible thoughts from her dear, beloved lord? No, she could not stand it.
She made a decision then. A decision that made the tears disappear and a new determination alight her face into a beautiful glow. She would show him. She would show him how much she loved him, how loyal she was. She would be the most useful, loyal servant to him, equal to Jaken's loyalty. She would show her lord she was indeed something to cherish.
She would not be a rumored whore since she was still very much a virgin. She would be good to him. She would be all that she could be. She would show him her heart, her soul….
And some day when she knew he returned her feelings, her body.
"I'm always here for you, My Lord Sesshoumaru."
Done! Yay! Phew. I'm sorry it took so long. I hope you enjoy. Read and review! Then, you'll see what happens to Sesshoumaru and dear little Rin:
Oh, and I think Jaken has been a poor, misjudged character on Inuyasha so I gave him a bit more of a role on here. I think he is a good character, loyal but a little obsessive and possessive. Done.
