As Lovers Go
Tonks
1
"You like him. " Sirius says one night as just she and him are in the drawing room, their drinking coffee and talking about the Order among various other things.
Tonks blushes red at the thought and laughs.
"I honestly think you need to find yourself a girlfriend before you start messing in my personal life." She says drinking from her cup and shaking her head.
"And I honestly think that if you do like Remus you would be best not to let him slip through your fingers." He murmurs softly.
There is a pause at which Tonks looked at Sirius, his black hair was longer then it had been, his eyes shining in a way she knew to mean he was reminiscing.
"You don't want that heart break Tonks, I've been there and it's not a place you want to be."
He drinks deeply at that as he stares into the fire going to a place she knows she can't be, but she asks anyways.
"Who was she Sirius? "
Sirius stares at her for a few moments and sighs. "A girl I met in my sixth year at Hogwarts, she was an exchange student from France. Jude-Anna Price the one girl who literally had my heart in her hand."
"What happened?"
He laughed bitterly. "One day toward the end of last term after her Herbology exam she went back to France I guess. I never saw her again; she never said goodbye and Remus,"
Remus's name drew her attention more. "Was the only one who could have ever got me through that. I was devastated to say the least."
Sirius grew quiet admiring the fire. But Tonks knew the truth; he didn't have to tell her. She knew he spent months after Jude had gone writing her in everyway possible, sending his owls out to find her, even sending muggle post when owls weren't working. He had joined the Order in his youth so that he had a better chance to travel and maybe run into her, Sirius had been deeply in love with a girl he could have never had.
Jude-Anna Price, whereever she was now had slipped through his fingers. And Tonks would not allow Remus to slip through hers.
2
She was in love and indeed the world was different. Her mother had once said that one day she would look at the world with a whole new perspective. Tonks decided that today was that day. She was fresh from his bed and alive in ways she knew not, her very soul pulsed with a new light.
If anyone had told her that she would have ever found herself in Remus Lupin's bed she would have laughed. But today, last night changed everything for her. She would marry him someday because today the world was brighter.
3
They started out so happy, throwing lovers banter at one another constantly, spending practically every moment together, they kissed, they touched, and they felt. And that was enough because Tonks could just be with him and know that she was home, that she had found a place to call her own. It was perfect, it was true, and it was everything she wanted and then some.
So if this is love why did she feel like something was missing?
4
He started to grow distant from her and she couldn't handle that and then one day he announced that he was leaving. She begged and pleaded him not to leave, she said she was sorry and still he went on, out the door of her life just as unexpectedly as he had come.
So as she lay broken on the floor of her apartment she knew she never wanted to feel hurt like this again. Tonks cried and she cried hard because everything that had once been good was now gone. The lovers banter, the nights they had shared, the days they have spent together, the precious moments he had held her in his embrace.
Remus was gone and it was all her fault.
5
A few months later she came home from Grimmauld place, full of Molly's hardy cooking to find him there on the new settee she had brought just days ago at a Muggle furniture store. She liked the bold purple background with bright orange polka dots splattered across the thing.
Remus was curled upon it clutching what looked like one of her shirts to his face, immediately all the anger and heartbreak she had build up against him in the 3 months he had been gone (which felt like a lifetime) subsided. She softened as she dropped down to his side and stared at his tear stricken face.
"I'm so sorry, Dora". Was all she needed.
6
They had this argument every night. "I'm to old," he would say to which Tonks replied, "I don't care." And then they tumbled down onto her bed indulging each other with kisses that turned into caresses, which eventually turned into something much more.
She didn't care that he was years older then her or that he was a were-wolf or that he could be a complete idiot. But she did care about him and nothing he said could make her ever give him up. She would marry him and that was that.
7
She remembers the first time he said those three words, they had been caught in a thunderstorm while walking down one of London's many streets. The umbrella she had broke (just her luck) so they were stuck in the rain. Though Tonks couldn't say she minded so much as she enjoyed feeling the cold droplets upon her skin.
Like children they jumped in the puddles, laughing and trying to see which one of them could make a bigger splash. It was only when Tonks didn't hear Remus's footsteps that she turned to see him standing behind her.
At that he took her waist pulling her to him, and then he said it. Three words, eight letters.
"I love you. "
8
When Sirius dies at the Ministry Remus is devastated, another friend gone to Voldemort, another comrade has fallen. It pains her to watch him cry so heavily, it breaks her hear to see him whisper it was his fault over and over again.
Tonks holds Remus close to her; cradling his head in her lap like a baby she strokes his hair and whispers comfort in his ears; Tonks knew Remus was more protective of Sirius then he led on, with James and Lily gone Sirius was the only other best friend he had left.
She is sorry that he has lost his only best friend to another one of Voldemort's plans; she is so sorry that Sirius is gone from this world. And she is even more sorry when Remus whispers ever so softly that he wishes to join James, Lily, and now Sirius
9
They are married and it is a quiet ceremony. Just the way she wanted, she is in a lilac colored dress and her hair is a royal purple and shines beautifully in the setting sun. She only has eyes for him as her father walks her down the aisle and then she trips before the alter and Remus is there to catch her bringing her back up to stand across from him.
It is just like her to do so and as her parents and him laugh she feels her heart quicken because she knows that she has waited all her life for this moment. This was it Remus Lupin would be hers forever and ever and then some.
Remus says his vows and Tonks says hers and then they are pronounced man and wife. They kiss deeply and Tonks finally understands what it is like to be complete.
10
When Tonks gets pregnant she is alive, just like the day she had first come from his bed so bright with a new light that made everything clear to her. She cannot believe that this was happening to her that she would have someone grow inside her, that she would be the ultimate caretaker to this new stranger in her body. But most of all she cannot wait to tell Remus her news, they had never spoke about children before so Tonks thought he would ravish in the idea of something that made her so happy.
How wrong was she.
Tonks tells Remus about it that night as she surprises him with a homemade dinner and his favorite Honeydukes special dark chocolate. As soon as the words come out of her mouth his smile vanishes and he stands angrily walking out of her apartment and out of her life once more.
11
He doesn't come back for weeks and she is broken and she doesn't know what to do or how to handle herself. So she turns to Molly for help and Molly complies without a word, Molly makes her dinner, Molly cleans her house, Molly listens to her cry as she baths every night.
It is Molly on who she leans, Molly who has become her support system and in all honestly Tonks is glad for it.
12
He comes back as he always does and he kisses away all her pain and Tonks knows that he will never leave her again. He reminds her about the day they first met in the kitchen of Grimmauld place where Sirius had almost revealed her real name which he now teased her for because he knew it bothered her so.
And she hates it! But she loves him and so she knows that she will let him have that as long as he promises that he will never leave again.
13
When their son is born Tonks knows that she cannot find a more perfect baby then he. Teddy Lupin is absolutely the most precious thing that had ever been brought onto this earth. He has tuffs of hair a strange blue color like his mum but his eyes are all his dads.
Tonks cries because he is theirs, Teddy is the creation of their love, and Tonks knows that though Teddy so unexpectedly came into her life just like his father, he is also here to stay forever just like his father.
14
And then the war at Hogwarts happens and as Tonks watch's her husband go to fight along side his friends she knows that he will not make it. So she kisses her baby boy good-bye and tells him that she will always love him no matter what happens.
Tonks rushes to Remus's side and they fight together as they always have, as life always permitted. They were complete together they were whole. And like so many nights where her worst nightmares plagued her they died together, her grabbing his hand crying out madly as she watched him fall and her falling next to him, their hands still intertwined.
A/N: I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing this. I have to say Remus/Tonks is one of my favorite pairings. The format for this one was inspired and stolen from (Ellie) s i l v e r a u r u a, who is absolutely fantastic thank you love! Please R&R and tell me what you think I would love to know, R&R and thank you so much!
