'seize the day or die regretting the time you lost, it's empty and cold without you here...too many people to ache over'
Alexis couldn't help but jump slightly as she felt a hand on her shoulder, though she knew who it was without even looking. Was it possible that somehow it had all been a lie? Why else would he have come back? 'Maybe to kill me too, he can't risk me telling that I saw him here... Or he just wants to finish the job of killing his closest friends.' She pushed the thought away, before looking up at him. As soon as she looked up she felt all of her anger, and uncertainty disappear. "Oh, Sirius!" She muttered, pushing herself to her feet. "How-Why?" She didn't even know what she wanted to ask, or how to ask it. Her mind was racing, hundreds of different scenarios were rushing through her head. "Is this even possible?" She asked, moreso to herself then him. She finally couldn't resist the urge anymore, and ignored every screaming voice in her head that he was the reason she was standing on her friends' grave, and wrapped her arms around him.
i see my vision burn, i feel my memories fade with time.. but i'm too young to worry. the streets we travel on, will undergo our same lost past
Sirius's eyes widened as Hayley wrapped her arms around him. He certainly wasn't expecting it. Was it possible that she was going to hear him out? Truely? He had been convinced she wouldn't turn him in, or kill him, not that she would actually be happy to see him! He let inevitable tears fall as he hugged her tightly, his face buried in her neck. "It wasn't me," he mumbled. "You have to believe me." There was a pleading tone to his voice. He had to explain himself. He had to let her know that it was not him that had killed their best friends. It hurt him so badly that anyone would think that of him, especially Alexis. But somehow he knew that she would hear him out, no matter how much it hurt her. He had no inclination of this happening, he assumed he wouldn't be able to tell anyone his side of the story until after he got to Peter... He had forced himself to believe that it didn't matter if anyone believed him, or would listen to him.. As long as he got to Peter, none of it would matter. He couldn't believe how wrong he had been, he felt as though he could stand here forever with Alexis's arms wrapped around him. "I could never do this to them, please Lex, you know me!" He continued, becoming a little bit more desperate as his thoughts ran wild.
i found you here, now please just stay for awhile.. i can move on with you around. i hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever? i'd do anything for a smile, holding you till our time is done.. we both know the day will come, but i don't want to leave you.
Alexis couldn't help but let her own tears fall, though once he stated it wasn't his fault she felt the familar rush of anger that always ran through her when she thought about what had happened. She wanted badly to yell at him, tell him she didn't want to hear any of it, something-anything other then what she did, but she couldn't help herself. She tried to convince herself James and Lily would've wanted her to hear Sirius out, to make sure that he was the one to blame before condemning him to hell. "I-Sirius, there was witnesses.." She said, though not pulling out of the hug. "B-but, I'll hear you out." She then paused, and pulled herself away from him, though she had to force herself to. "Here isn't safe, at least not for you... the Ministry ordered the -" She swallowed thickly as she continued "the kiss upon finding you, I live a few minutes away if you want to .." She trailed off, wiping the tears from her face as she did so. She watched Sirius's face fall, though he nodded and quickly transformed into a dog again. Had she lost her mind? She was inviting Sirius Black into her house to /talk/! What the hell was wrong with her? "Be a good dog." She said, teasing slightly, and not being able to contain the small smile that threatened to show. She hadn't realized how much she had truely missed him - she had been overcome with anger. Why is he so trusting of me? Is he going to kill me just to get out of this and get Harry? No-NO. Just hear him out, anything is possible... No one thought anyone could survive the killing curse and Harry is proof that anything is possible. She quickly took a few shortcuts through others' yards, and made her way to her own small home. She hadn't moved from her place, so close to Lily and James' old home... So close to all of the memories. She unlocked her back door - the muggle way of course muttering a "stupid keys" as the door opened. "Alright, you, you have a lot of explaining to do. If anyone knew what I did - that I didn't kill you on sight, I don't know what they'd think" She then gestured to the kitchen table, where four black chairs sat. "And, I have to force you to eat something." She added, offering a small smile.
i see my vision burn, i feel my memories fade with time, but i'm too young to worry.. a melody, a memory or just one picture.. seize the day or die regretting the time you lost, it's empty and cold without you here ; too many people to ache over
Sirius rolled his eyes as much as a dog could, and followed her to her home. He was extremely happy and relieved that she was at least going to hear him out. He followed her into the house, chuckling internally at her key problem. Sirius transformed into himself again, and tried to manage a small smile back, but failed. "I understand. I'm glad you're just going to hear me out. I know this is dangerous for you." He told her, his voice cracking from not using it in almost 12 years. He pulled out one of the kitchen chairs and sat in it, his mind perking up a little at the thought of food. "But I don't really have a lot of time. I have to get to Hogwarts." He watched her carefully, judging her reactions to what he was saying. He had to keep himself some what on alert, no matter how much he wanted to put his trust completely in her. Last he knew, she was going for a ministry job - if she still worked there it would be entirely too easy to trick him into a comfortable position and turn him in. He forced his mind to stop thinking in terms of escape, he had already done that - besides Alexis was his /friend/, or at least she had been. On the plus side, she hadn't murdered him on sight. That had to be a plus - right?
newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in.. no longer needed here, so where do we go? will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death? but girl-what if there is no eternal life?
Alexis felt her hand involuntarily go towards her pocket for her wand, though dropped her keys in there, trying to cover the movement as he mentioned Hogwarts. "And, that, that right there is why I'm not sure if i can believe you." She said, watching him as she opened her cabinets, gesturing at the food inside. "Your choice." She said, before lifting her weight onto the counter, and sitting on it. "I'm not worried about what the Ministry would do to me Sirius, I'm worried about what happened that night. And if you have a good reason for going to Hogwarts, and if you are telling me the truth that.." She paused, only to stop herself from letting anymore tears fall, "That you aren't responsible for what happened, I'll help you if I can." She said slowly, not believing her own words. Had she lost her mind? Or was she so desperate to believe his innocence? "Start at the beginning, if this wasn't you, who was it?" She asked hesitantly, almost afraid of what he was going to tell her.
i see my vision burn, i feel my memories fade with time, but i'm too young to worry.. a melody, a memory or just one picture.. seize the day or die regretting the time you lost, it's empty and cold without you here ; too many people to ache over
Sirius nodded as she motioned at the food. He wanted some, but he wanted to tell his story even more, so he stayed where he was. He sighed heavily. "Peter. It was Peter. I'm going to Hogwarts because he's there. Right where Harry is." He told her tonelessly, looking right into her eyes, willing her to believe him. He felt the cold stare he recieved upon stating it was Peter. "As in Peter Pettigrew, Peter, who worshipped the ground you and James walked on? Sirius you do realize the official story is that you killed Peter when you killed all of those muggles?" Her voice was cold, and accusing. Sirius practically felt Alexis's confidence in him wavering. The words started tumbling out to him in a rush. He had to make her believe him somehow. "I know the story, and it's wrong. I was scared that the Death Eaters would know that it was me who was Lily and James' secret keeper. I knew that I was the obvious choice. So I convinced them to switch to Peter at the last moment! Who would suspect him? No one! That's why I was convinced of the plans brilliance. Peter was the spy all along Lex! Didn't you wonder how Voldemort was picking us off one by one? It's because he had a spy. Peter." Sirius told her furiously and passionately. He took out a newspaper clipping with the Weasley's picture on it and slammed it on the table. "He's at Hogwarts. Look at the rat!"
trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here.. please tell me what we have is real.. so what if i never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again? so i never want to leave you, and the memories of us to see i beg don't leave me
Alexis hesitantly stood from the counter, and made her way over to the table, looking down at the picture. She had already seen this - it was in the Daily Prophet. Ron Weasley was Harry's friend, Dumbledore had told her about it. Wait a minute, Ron is Harry's friend! If this is Peter, he has a direct link to Harry! Any doubt in Sirius's story disappeared as she looked closer. "S-You're not kidding.." She said softly, looking over at him, and back to the picture. All they found was his finger. She remember hearing that, remembered breaking down at the thought of Sirius doing something so horrible, she felt the rush of anger, though this time it was at Peter, at the Ministry, anyone but Sirius. How had they not given him a trial? They hadn't even listened to him... "That bastard.." She whispered, the echo of the words she had spoken when she had first seen Sirius. "I-I'm sorry, I never, I, the Ministry, everyone said.." She trailed off, not being able to form the sentences she wanted to, she was completely blown away. She look over at him, tears threatening to fall once again. Countless years in Azkaban, for a murder he didn't even commit. How could this be the truth? How had Peter Pettigrew outsmarted every single one of them, including Sirius's best friends.. We all should've known better! Everyone was so desperate for someone to blame, it was the easy way out.
seize the day or die regretting the time you lost, it's empty and cold without you here too many people to ache over.. trials in life questions of us existing here.. don't wanna die along without you here, please tell me what we have is real
Sirius shook his head. She was the last person that should be saying sorry. "All the evidence pointed against me. You couldn't have known." He told her understandingly. "I have to get to Hogwarts. If Peter is planning on hurting Harry, I have to stop him. I can't let that rat get away twice." He paused, then moved on, feeling the need to explain more. "When I found out what had happened to Lily and James, I went after Peter. I cornered him in the street, but he cut off his own finger and blew up half the street, and that's when I was cornered by the Magical Law Enforcement." He told her, trying to keep the bitterness out of his voice. "Crouch was so manic with catching Death Eaters that he didn't bother giving me a trial." He sighed and shook his head again. He allowed her to take his hand, and he held hers tightly, rubbing the back of it with his thumb. "It's okay. Really. It's neither your or Remus' fault. We had all just lost Lily and James and all the evidence... I don't blame either of you in the least. Honestly." He heaved another sigh of relief. "Thank you so much for hearing me out... for trusting me enough to listen."
silence, you lost me.. no chance for one more day.
