Ahhh thanks for the comments love them in response to your comments
CBloom2 ~ Yes! so glad you got that there always has to be Jamie Whump! and I also HATE how Nicki acts towards Erin and how no episodes have address the appreciate what you have concept.
CAT217 - I so wish this is was an episode, I wanna talk to blue blood's writers and tell them this!
so you know I know NOTHING about medical things so if none of this makes sense sorryyyyy.
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Nicki was out of it, the guilt was eating at her and she was slowly losing control, she saw her mother there but she was so empty, being shot twice had drained her of a lot of blood. The smallest thought of losing her was just too much, her mother really was the only one she had, her father was always away, work was more important to him than his own daughter, she had found this new found hatred toward him. How could he not be there, comforting her and telling her that everything would be okay, but instead it was her Uncle Jamie, not that she didn't appreciate it but this just gave her a fear of how she would end up if her mother past away and her dad received custody.
"Uncle Jamie, are awake?" He was curled up on a hospital chair, he looked so uncomfortable.
"Yeah I am, can't sleep either?" He pulled himself up into a sitting position, stretching out his kinks.
"I keep playing through the last few days, the last thing I said to mom was I hate her, and if I lose her that's all she will ever know, but I don't hate her I love her and she just can't die."
Jamie stood up and walked to the side of Erin's bed and put his arm around Nicki, "She knows Nicki trust me. She flashed him a smile but it only last a moment as it was soon was replaced but fear as Erin's heart monitor started screaming a high pitch beep, Nicki looked to her Uncle who ran to the door,
"WE NEED HELP!" panic evident in his tone, he ran back to Nicki who had began to hyperventilate and sob uncontrollably, "You have to save her, please" she begged as she clutched onto her Uncle. Soon Nurses began to shoo them room much to their protest. They fell to the floor on the outside of the door out of the way. Jamie rocked his hysterical niece while he prayed.
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"What the hell happened!" Danny demanded, Jamie was bewildered at what had just happened un able to put it together.
"They told us that a blood clot had traveled to her lung and I mean she was okay one minute and the next I don't know I just don't know, they took her to umm surgery, I haven't heard anything yet" his hands shook with fear.
"Where is Nicki?"
"In there," he pointed to the waiting room, "I had to have her in there in case.." he stopped at even the thought of finishing the sentence. HIs eyes were red and puffy but Danny saw that he was trying to stay strong but he was failing. Danny roped him into hug holding on to his shaking form.
"She is going to be okay you just have to be thinking like that,"
"I do but it so hard, after seeing her like this and watching her almost die twice, the fear in consuming me Danny and I can't do this, with Nicki being so scared I need to be strong for her and.."
"Kid, it's only natural to cry , I'm scared to all last night Linda had to comfort me I am worried too and I know how serious this is, but I have to stay optimistic thinking only good outcomes because I can't lose another sibling." Danny started to tear up as he clutched on to his brother.
"Jamie," one of Erin's doctor's called to him, he tensed with fear.
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Danny and Jamie walked into the waiting room slowly looking at a sleeping Nicki, she had completely worn herself out and had cried herself to sleep. Jamie looked at her and didn't want to wake her up , didn't want do give her the news of her mother. He looked to Danny who also looked at Nicki and from the look on his face he was thinking what Jamie was.
At this point Danny looked away and back at Jamie and was about to give him a small nod, and that's when he noticed it. He notice how much Jamie had aged in the past day and a half, the circles under his eyes that were there from not only sleep deprivation but worry, his hair was a mess and looked as though it had sprang some gray hairs, and his whole body just seemed like it was beaten to hell and back.
"Nicki," Jamie shook her shoulder. She slowly stirred but as soon remembered where she was she shot up, "How is she is she okay !?"
Jamie sat her down and sat next to her and placed a hand on her back and exhaled a heavy breathe. "Nicki your mom had a blood clot in her lung it travelled there from her leg, from the surgery from that bullet. The surgery was a tough one, and there were complication.."
"She's not Dead is she !"
"No, but this is a major setback though and the way her lungs are from the bullet nicking it this has made them worse, this has made her survival rate.. its umm well it's not at a desirable place."
"What is it ?"Silence filled the room
"What is it!"
"It's 40% now"
"Well there is still that much she can bet those odds right you've telling me she is so strong that means she will make it!"
"Yes we did say that and we believe it but we just need you to know that right now she is in a danger zone," Danny clarified. Nicki had terror written all over her face, her nightmare was a possibility now only ," can I see her?"
"Yeah she is in room 308 want us to come with you?"
"No, I need some time alone." As she walked down the corridor, she began to cry, she never turned back because she didn't want her uncle's to see , for now she wanted to see strong.
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Nicki cautiously entered the room, as if she were going to wake her mother up, she remembered all the times when she was scared. Those night she would sneak into her mother's room, and in the process she would wake her but her mother always pulled back to the covers and cuddle with her. Her mother would always brush her finger's though her hair and lull her to sleep, telling her that everything was okay, but not this time. Nicki crept to her mother's side, Erin was so pale, and it scared Nicki, she looked so sick so tired and so frail. Her stomach churned as she held onto her mother's hand, it was so cold and clammy, "Mom, it's Nicki, you can open your eyes now." but Erin just laid motionless only the rise and fall of her chest as artificial breaths were taken.
"Mom, I'm sorry, okay I know I'm a pain, I'm always causing you grief and I'm sorry for that, I love you so much mom, and if die whose going to be there for me, to get after me for being a snot, or yell at me when I wear clothes inappropriate for public. I need you mom, I need you so much it hurts to even think about losing you." Tears flowed down her face as she talked to her unresponsive mother.
"Mom, you are the only parent whose there for me, I love dad but he isn't you. Dad doesn't take me in and let me sleep in his room when I'm scared, he doesn't soothe me when I'm scared or tell me everything is going to be okay, heck he didn't even say it when I called him to tell him about you!" she sighed with frustration at even the thought of her failing at parenting father.
"Mom, he hasn't been there through it all. When I was sick you gave me the awful medicine and helped me fall asleep, remember you sang to me. And your hugs, there is nothing in this world that could take the place of a mother's hugs, they make me feel safe. I almost lost you to that serial killer mom, don't let me lose you to this, or at all for that matter. I'm sorry, that I'm a pain in the butt, that I fight with you, I hope you know that I love you, I never hate you, no matter what I love you."
Nicki gave her mother's hand a squeeze and climbed into the bed next to her and placed her head on her chest listening to her mom's heart beat, it was the only thing giving her hope, giving her confirmation that Erin was alive.
"Nicki" Jamie lightly knocked before entered and he stopped at the sight that he saw. Nicki was asleep curled up next to her mother holding Erin's hand to her heart. He knew that he couldn't break it up so he grabbed a blanket from the other bed covered Nick and kissed her forehead. He leaned to Erin's ear and whispered, "You are to lucky to die Erin, you can't give this up" and he gently kissed her forehead before taking a chair and seating it at Erin's bed side and holding her other hand.
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The next morning Danny and Linda made their way up to the third floor, " Do you think it was a good idea to let the boys go with a babysitter?" Danny asked as the elevator dinged and the doors opened.
"They would just be sitting ducks like we are going to be, besides yesterday before you came home they made Erin these card." Linda pulled out a blue and yellow construction paper get well soon card. "You know they must be fazed by this they wouldn't leave my side at all last night, they don't want the same thing to happen to me, and Jack especially after the scare with Sean." she gave a sad smile.
"Yeah well I won't let this happen to you."Danny said in confidence A nurse rushed to them as the neared the room.
"Hang on, when you enter be quiet your brother and niece fell asleep and they are still like that, they had a long night so we have been maneuvering around them all morning." a nurse whispered to them. Both Linda and Danny were confused, Jamie and Nicki never went home? They looked at each other before rounding the corner to the room.
"Oh" Linda exhaled, she placed her hand to her mouth, the sight was heart wrenching. Jamie had his head laid on the edge of the bed facing the door his hand holding Erin's, and Nicki was still curled in the same position that Jamie had found her in the night before. Danny was filled with a melancholy, as he viewed his brother and niece laying with his ailing sister.
"Oh Danny," Linda clung to her husband's arm. He kissed the top of her head and lead her from the room.
"Let's go get some coffee and let them sleep" he gave her a half smile and she nodded in agreement. As they mad.
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Jamie woke with the sound of his sister's heart monitor beeping t a steady rate, giving him satisfaction that she was still there still living. He slowly got up careful not to disrupt Nicki. He un kinked his neck and stretched while walking to the door.
"Morning sleepy head" one nurse greeted him creating a smile on his face.
"What time is it?" His voice still a little groggy.
" about 10:30" the nurse looked at her watch to confirm.
"wow I slept late," he let out a short laugh.
"I'd say, well your brother is here with Linda, they went to go get coffee but they should be back shortly," She smiled and tended t her other patients.
Jamie began to make his way down the hallway, and that's when he bumped into the man he least expected to see. "Hello Jamie."
"Jack?, what are you doing here."
"My daughter, Nicki called saying Erin was here and that she needed me here" He never once looked up from his phone and that pissed Jamie off.
"Where where you two days ago when she called you crying that her mother was in critical condition!?" Jamie yelled, but Jack seemed to be un fazed.
"I was in a meeting" he said almost for a moment prying his eyes from his blackberry. Jamie was growing more furious, he slapped the phone from Jack's hand, instantly getting his ex brother-in- in laws attention.
"What gives!?"
"Pay attention for one second will you, your daughter has been in hysterics over the thought of losing her mother only the fear is becoming more and more close to being a reality =, she needed you and you had a meeting, you blew off your own daughter for a meeting!"
"Jamie, chill out Nicki understands."
"The hell she does she is in there clinging to a prayer and the shear hope that her mother isn't going to die, and I've comforted her trying to tell her that everything is going to be okay only I'm not so sure if it is or not. She is so terrified and needed you and you ditch her for a meeting, while my sister is dying!"
"Erin is not mine to care for anymore, she isn't of my concern." that sent Jamie to fly over the edge he shoved Jack back and yelled at him telling I'm to leave but in turn Jack right hooked Jamie knocking him to the ground. Luckily, Linda and Danny arrived as the two men fought.
"HEY!" Danny pulled Jack off of Jamie as Linda held Jamie back, "What the hell is going on here!"Danny demanded.
"I don't need to explain myself where is my daughter?" Jack wiped the blood from his nose.
"In there but she is sleeping Jack," Linda began, but Jack had already began his trek to the hospital room with the Reagan's at toe. Jack walked to Nicki and gently shook her awake.
"Dad?" she said with a groggy voice.
"Let's go sweet, I'm going to take you to my hotel you can sleep there."
"No, I want to stay with mom, I don't want to go with you"
"Honey, I think you should, I don't want you to be with them."
"Them!, I need to be here with mom here like this, Dad just leave I was fine without you two days ago I'm fine without you now!"
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Five days had gone by they took out the intubation but Erin was still unconscious, Norman had stopped by the day he was discharged and he wished Erin well. For the Reagan's this was the most grueling moments ever. Although no other codes or medical problems came up the family had been through hell.
"I have work tomorrow, captain said take your time to come back but I can't just sit here anymore," Danny told Jamie. Both men had taken a leave of absence but waiting was only driving Danny up a wall. For Jamie he decided he would continue to take the days off, he was told the same thing as Danny but unlike Danny, Jamie wanted to stay, to be there with Nick.
"Yeah well sometimes work helps you cope and I know that's how you function, when Joe died you were back at work a week and a half later."
"That's how I am." Danny laughed.
" stubborn," the voice was low and grovel but it was there and the boy's where surprised.
"Erin!, hey sis!" Danny placed his hand on her head as Jamie called for a doctor.
"Hey yourself, Jamie you look rough," Jamie let a chuckle out through his tears of joy.
"Yeah, wait until Nick see's you Erin, you scared us to death!"
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