My Payson,

I know that you really aren't mine, yet… after London, if you still feel the same about me, I will pursue this relationship, I will.

I have never written a letter before but, I will write you 12 letters. Can you believe that in 12 months you will be in London, fulfilling your dream? You, Payson Keeler, are amazing. I have no words to describe you to anyone. You are so full of life and you are so strong. I've told you before, that my mother would have loved you. I wish she could have met you. She would have been so happy that I found someone who really loved me. When I introduced her to MJ, she was disappointed. She knew MJ, was a horrible woman and I didn't really love her. She knew I deserved better. Mum was so happy when I broke it off with MJ. I know that if she would have met you that she would be happy. She would see that I finally found someone who really loves me. And I could be as happy as she was with dad.

My father and mum really did love each other. I know that my father has never loved anything more than he loved her. She was his every dream. I remember when mum was diagnosed with cancer, she asked my father to give up gymnastics and spend the last few months of her life, living in their love for a few more moments. He quit. Just like that the coach that everyone wanted to be was retired. My father was devoted to my mother's well-being. He wanted her to be happy and savor the last few months of their love. I think she knew that once she had passed he would never be the same. He changed so much. I was 15 when my mother died. Before my mother died, my father was full of life and love. My father used to embrace life and love. He once told a gymnast to quit because she wasn't devoted anymore and wasn't happy doing gymnastics. Her parents were outraged. They tried to get my father fired. The gym fully embraced my father. The girl quit and is now a kindergarten teacher and completely happy with her life and credits my father for her success out of the gym. Once she quit, she didn't think that she would be able to afford a college education because she no longer had endorsements. He paid for her to go to Oxford. She had a daughter a couple of years ago and named her Eliza, after my mother.

I love you Payson Keeler. You are my every dream and I cannot wait to kiss you and call you mine.

Good luck in the next couple of weeks. You will make the United States Olympic Team.

I Love You,

Sasha