.I stood over her bloody body, it was drenched.
"APRIL!!!" I screamed! "No! This isn't happening!" I felt tears in my eyes. I clenched my jaw and held her body close.
"April! You were suppose to stay with my forever! You promised me! Why did you do this to me!" Tears came faster and faster. My vision blurred, but I kept hold her close, holding my April close.
"WHY!?" I grieved.
"April ever since that visit to the doctor you haven't been yourself." I looked at her. I could tell she was forcing a smile.
"What are you talking about?" She pretended. I knew she was trying to cover it up. I walked over to her and put my hand on her shoulder. She backed away. She was hurting, I was hurting.
"Just go--"She
commanded.
"What? April I love you."
"If you loved me you would leave, and NEVER come back! I can't have you love me! STOP IT! If you get to attached and I, I.....I don't want to hurt you! LEAVE!" She shouted.
"April..." I whispered, "Your hurting me, this isn't like you."My eyes stung with tears...
I thought about our conversation that morning and cried again. If I had stay I could have stopped her! What kind of idiot would do what I had done! THIS IS ALL MY FAULT!
On the table I spotted a purple note. April wrote with purple notes. I slowly laid her body down, like a baby in a crib. I kissed her once more and made my way towards the paper. I picked it up, it had red lipstick on it. April kissed it. I opened and began to read:
Dear Roger,
You are the love of my life. I'm sorry for what I said but truth is, I needed to die. By the time you read this I will be dead. I also had a secret I didn't tell you. I was afraid of what you would say. I was afraid you would dump me. Because, I'm pregnant. I couldn't have you throw away your whole life for me. I am not worth it. I'm not worth you. You are the love of my life, but alas I will not be the love of yours. I'm sorry I was a waste of time. Just forget about me.
Love, and I mean LOVE,
April
I read the note over and over again. So many things raced in my mind. She wasn't worth me? What was she talking about? I'm not worth her! And she was pregnant?!? WHY DIDN'T SHE TELL ME??!!! I put the piece of paper in my pocket. I picked up the knife.
"If you won't be with me April, then I will be with you!" I yelled at no one in particular. And thrust the knife into my stomach!
