CAMP JAHA

Chapter 2 - Let it Go

Bellamy woke up and wasn't sure where he was. His head was pounding and and he felt achy. He turned and saw Wick sitting at a small metal table.

"Good morning, or really its afternoon". Wick said

"What?" said Bellamy "How long was I out?"

"Almost 12 hours" said Wick, "you were pretty tired so I thought you could use the rest"

"Thanks, I think I needed that" Bellamy said, he swung his legs off the side of the bed and put his head in his hands.

"Yea, well Marcus has been waiting to talk to you, he's been by twice already." Said Wick

Bellamy groaned.

"Thanks for last night" Bellamy said," I don't think I've ever been so tired, and I think I had a too much moonshine."

"How's Raven doing? I wanted to go see her but I just couldn't handle Abby .She started jumping down my throat blaming me for Clarke leaving" continued Bellamy

"yea, she's freaking out over Clarke, and I think down deep she knows if Clarke wanted to leave she would leave and no one could stop her,"said Wick." Anyway, I'm headed to the maintenance bay, their sending out teams to deal with the bodies in Mt weather. And they need some radios. but Marcus is waiting to talk to you when you're ready so you may as well get it over with. Oh yea and he's found you a room, 428. its just a single cot, but at least you will have some privacy."

"Thanks Wick," Bellamy felt relieved to have a private room." let me clean up, and I'll head over to see him' oh and thanks again for last night", "Bellamy said

Bellamy felt like he should be at Mt Weather and help. He was the most responsible. But he was afraid to go there, seeing the bodies that were there because of him, it would put him over the edge and he was afraid he wouldn't be able to come back from that.

Marcus was meeting with the group of men and women. He was sending to clean up Mt Weather. The Arkers had no intention of using the Mt Weather facilities, but they would give proper burial to the people killed there.

"Remember to respect the dead"' he told the group. "After the remains are taken care of, I need you to check for any weapons, ammo and food supplies. Any medicines, Jackson has given you a list of things to look for" said Marcus.

The large team set out for Mt Weather.

"Chancellor Kane". Marcus turned to see Jasper calling him.

"Mr. Jordan" Marcus answered" Is there a problem?"

"Yea," are they going to MT Weather? Why didn't you tell me ?" he asked

"Mr. Jordan, I didn't think it would be a good idea to ask the kids to go back there, I think they've been through enough"

"I have to be there, I want to give Maya a proper burial" Jasper said.

"Alright", Marcus said. "I understand, go then."

As Jasper was going out the gate, Bellamy saw Marcus standing there and decided he'd rather speak to him there than in Medical, that way he could avoid Abby.

Bellamy walked up to Marcus watching Jasper go out the gate. he stood next to Marcus and also watched Jasper and spoke without looking away."You think he'll ever forgive me ?" asked Bellamy

I think he'll realize you and Clarke did what you had to do, you weren't given a choice" Marcus said "They would have never stopped, I tried to tell them we could donate the marrow, they wouldn't listen, such a waste." Marcus shook his head.

"I should go to Mt Weather."said Bellamy."I pulled the lever. I'm why they're all dead." His expression was like he was in a trance, deep in thought, yet trying not to focus on anything, trying to block out the visions in his head.

Marcus could see the look in his eyes, he put his hand on Bellamy's shoulder to get him to look at him. "No Bellamy, they made the choice, not you. "Said Marcus.

To change Bellamy's focus, Marcus said,"Abby wants to know what exactly Clarke said; did she tell you where she was going?"

"No I tried to convince her to stay, asked her where she was going, she said she didn't know. She said she couldn't look at everyone without being reminded of what she did to get them here." Bellamy said, his voice had an edge to it, almost an aggravated tone. "I told her we were in it together, she still left. It wasn't good enough. So she left. She'll come back when she's ready. Abby wants us to go find her, I'm not going. She knows where we are. She can come back when she's ready." Bellamy's voice was starting to get sharp, talking about Clarke.

Marcus looked at Bellamy, "Your right. Abby has to understand, I don't blame you, Bellamy. No one here blames you for anything, you did good in there. We would be dead, if not for you. Going into MT Weather, like you did, that took courage. After the grounders left, you were the reason we got out."

Bellamy looked down," Maya, is the reason we got out of there. She saved my life and she died for it. "

He looked at Marcus. Then quickly looked away. His jaw clinching, trying to hold back his emotions.

" I'll talk to Abby, tell her what Clarke said, she'll have to understand that Clarke needs time, just like all of you do."

"Yea, said Bellamy," so what's the plan moving forward? have we heard from any other ark survivors ?

"No said Marcus "but that doesn't mean there aren't any out there."

Actually I was thinking if you're up to it you can might take a small squad out, check the area and maybe hunt for some meat. We're going to need to build up a supply and get ready for winter, were so far behind, If that's okay with you" Marcus said.

"Yes that sounds like a plan. "Said Bellamy. He needed something to do. He would rather go alone, but he knew he had to take a team.

"Octavia and Lincoln went out already they took two others. They said they were heading northeast, you can gather a team and head out" said Marcus

Bellamy just nodded, turned and left. Marcus watched him leave and thought how much he had gone through, yet he knew he had a long struggle ahead of him. He hoped he could get past everything.

Bellamy went inside to find a team to put together, he found Monroe, and she was sitting next to a kid named Wilson. They were eager to head out. As they were leaving he saw Miller and Miller decided to join them also.

The four left and went south west into the forest.

Marcus went into Medical where Abby was waiting for him, she was sitting up and Jackson was trying to convince her to lie back down. She looked up and saw Marcus walk in.

"Where's Bellamy," she asked. "Has he told you were Clarke was?"

"Abby, I talked to Bellamy. He doesn't know where Clarke went. You need to give this a rest" Marcus said.

"No Marcus, its Clarke, we need to send someone out to look for her. How could he let her just leave?" She asked.

Raven had had enough and finally spoke up from across the room, "Abby, you need to back off. If Clarke wanted to leave, no one could stop her. You know Bellamy tried to get her to stay. If you keep blaming him for her leaving, he'll leave too."

"Abby", Marcus said, "Raven is right, you need to let it go. I talked to him, he tried to get her to stay, he almost sounded like he was angry she left, like she abandoned him .You need to give Clarke the time to heal on her own. Bellamy was right, she knows where her people are, and she'll come home when she's ready. "

"I just want her here so I know she's safe, I don't like her out there hurting."said Abby

"Clarke is strong" said Marcus," she has already proven that. I'm sure we will see her again soon."

Marcus looked at Abby and smiled." We have worked to do here and I'm going to need your help. These kids are going to need our to help to deal with all they went through, and winter is coming, were not ready."he said. "I'm going to need you help me with this. "

Marcus gave Abby a hug. She surprised herself by leaning into his embrace.

Raven just closed her eyes and wondered where Clarke had gone to, and if they would ever see her again, or if she was already dead.