A/N Still just trying to find my bearings on this one...So bare with me. Reviews/ideas/alerts etc are still greatly accepted.

Chapter 2 How the obsession began

Randy's POV

You don't realise how much you miss something until it was gone, in this case travelling to the next show with John and Raven. As always John was in the back trying to sleep and Raven was driving. Neither of us liked her driving for the simple reason, she was the worlds worst driver. Raven gave a sharp turn causing John to smack his head, he sat up annoyed.

"If you do that again I'll..."

"You'll what? Adjust my attitude?"

"I'll get my new boss to introduce you to the wasteland" John smirked lying down again.

"I'm sure he would really like that" Raven muttered fiddling with a can of coke. "You've been really quiet Randy."

"Have I?"

"Yes you have and you know you have. Are you alright?"

"I'm fine" I shrugged it off. I was anything but fine, she was driving me insane.

"I think he's upset because he ain't heard from Sam in ages" John cut in from the back.

"I thought you guys were getting along?"

"We are."

"Lucky you. The one ex I get along with I hardly see which is a shame because he was awesome"

"It's still creepy that you used to date Sting. He's like fifty years older than you" John shuddered "You must really like old wrinkly cock Raven"

"Firstly Johnny-boy he was only ten years older than me and secondly believe me there was no part of him that was wrinkly"

"That is just so wrong"

"There was nothing wrong with it" Raven laughed turning another corner, they kept having that weird conversation while I drifted.

*Flashback*

"Randy I can't do this anymore" Sam looked at me sadly. When I came home that night I thought it would be just like all the other times but she had been distant all weekend, finally I got it out of her.

"Sam, please don't do this" The sad thing was I wasn't even sure I meant it. Our marriage had been rocky as of late.

"I have to, for both of us because eventually we will end up hating each other and I can't let it come to that"

I grabbed her hand gently "Can we work this out?"

"No" She slid her hand from mine.

"What about Alana?" I got angry for a moment at the thought of losing my daughter as well.

"What about her?"

"I still want to see her"

Sam caressed my face gently "You have acess to her whenever you want it, I'm not taking her away from you either Randy"

I just looked at her for a moment "Is there someone else?"

She gave me that sad smile "You know there isn't but if this is easier to handle if you hate me then sure, we'll call him Billy"

"I hate Billy, and I hate you"

Sam laughed gently "I know that's not true Randy. I'm sorry if it helps at all one day you will find someone to be happy with but that someone isn't me"

With that she just left, I had no clue what to do now. My six year marriage had just ended and I had no control over it.

I found myself on her front porch just staring at the black door with it's gargoyle like ringer. Since Sam left I had a few drinks, anything to stop reality in it's tracks. If anyone could help me right now it was Raven. I banged on the door hoping she was still awake, I had the feeling she would be, Raven had always been a night owl.

"Randy" She instantly could tell something was wrong. I had no sadness, no anger, no anything.

"My marriage just broke up"

"Aww sweetie, come here" She hugged me the best she could given the height difference. Holding her never felt so good. Raven helped me the couch, she handed me a hot drink before sitting beside me.

"Wanna talk about it?"

I just shook my head, I was just happy to be there with her.

"I'm sorry Randy" Raven said quietly. She knew how much I loved Sam at least I thought I loved Sam. Now I wasn't so sure.

"Your not gonna tell me you know how I feel?"

"I have no idea how you feel so why would I say it?"

I just looked at those shining silver eyes, taking in all her beautiful features. Her long hair was pulled up into a loose bun, stray silver curls fell down her face. "You are so beautiful" I swept her curls back behind her ear. "Why can't they all be like you?"

"Because two psychos are enough" Raven laughed pushing my hand away.

"I wish I could be with you" I looked at her again, "I wish you would love me the way I love you"

"You don't mean that Randy, your drunk" Raven whispered at me. I was so sure I saw those eyes flicker with sadness.

"I do mean it, I have loved you from day one"

Raven didn't say anything and without giving it another thought I pulled her towards and kissed her softly...

*End flashback*

"Earth to viper! Hello?" Raven cut through my thoughts. We had stopped moving.

"What?"

"We're there so anytime you feel like getting out would be great" Raven laughed.

"Sorry I was"

"Daydreaming" Raven finished for me. "Well John has gone to inform his boss that I was being mean to him"

"I'm sure Wade would love to spank you for being naughty" I joked at her.

"Ok I will give you anything you want to never say that again"

I bit my tongue trying to resist the urge to say what I was thinking.

Raven walked with me into the building, "This is where I leave you, I have to go and see Vince about something"

"So you want me to be ready with the bourbon when your done?" I called as she went down the opposite corrider.

"Could you?" Raven called back as she disappeared around the corner.

I made my way to the gym, all the way there my mind on that drunken kiss, since that day I had done the cliched yet highly acceptable, fallen in love with my best friend.