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I dropped the phone on the ground. I heard her saying my name through the phone but I dared not pick it up. I grabbed my chest because I felt the air escaping my body rapidly.
Pregnant! Pregnant! She can't be pregnant. I'm not ready for a kid. Oh God, what am I'm going to do.
I looked around me, everything was in a daze. How can Lizzie be pregnant! She was on birth control pills. This can't be happening to me!
I heard her hang the phone up. I just starred at the phone on the ground as if it had just betrayed me. God, how could I have let this happen? What about school? Oh God, what about Miranda?
I stood there for what seemed like hours but actually it was only ten minutes. I picked up my phone off the ground and did what I really didn't want to.
I made my way to the place I had become so familiar with over my whole life. As I was walking all the past memories of Lizzie and I came flooding to my head. I knew for the past year and a half that me and Lizzie's relationship was over but for some reason we both kept it alive. I guess it was because everybody assumed that me and Lizzie were meant to be. I think she knew it was over too, but I guess she was just comfortable with us being together.
Before long I was in front of the McGuire's doorstep. I rang the bell. I heard footsteps coming down the steps and looking through the peephole. She opened the door solemnly. It was obvious that she had been crying.
I didn't say anything I just walked in, she closed the door behind me and stood against the wall.
"My parents and Matt are gone for the evening, so we can hang out down here without interruption" she said softly.
"Okay".
"I....I guess we can go in the family room" she said.
"Okay".
She left her stance at the wall and went into the family room and sat on the couch. I followed her and sat next to her on the couch. We sat in silence for a long time.
"Are you sure your pregnant" I asked breaking the silence.
She looked at me with hurt in her eyes. "Of course I'm sure" she said.
"I mean how do you really know" I asked hurriedly.
"Gordo I took 5 pregnancy tests! I'm not lying to you; all of them said that I was pregnant! And since when did you become so damn insensitive" she yelled with streams of tears falling down her face.
I wanted to say to her that I became insesitive the day she claimed that I was being insensitive when I really wasn't. But I didn't want to make matters worse than what they already were.
"Look Lizzie, I'm sorry. I don't mean to be insensitive, this just comes as a shock to me. I mean one day we break up, then the next day you call me talking about your pregnant. Excuse me if I seem a little rude Lizzie, I....I'm just shocked is all" I said.
She turned away from me. I knew I had upset her and I needed to do serious damage control.
"Have you told your parents" I asked more kindly.
"No. Gordo they are going to kill me when they find this out. I'm supposed to be going to USC in the fall. This is going to kill them" she said still crying.
"I know" I said. I grabbed her into my arms and she started to cry even harder on my shoulder. "Listen Lizzie, I know things look cloudy know but I'm going to be a man and take care of my child. That is my responsibility now, I have to take care of you and the baby. Our parents are going to be disappointed but they will learn how to deal with the fact that we are going to be parents. Okay" I said.
She shook her head yes and continued to cry. "Gordo what if I get an abortion" she said through her tears.
"That's not an option Lizzie!" I yelled while lifting her face to look at me. "We will get through this I promise". "You know I don't believe in abortion and neither do you if I recall correctly" I said.
"No I don't belive in abortion, I was just putting it out there as a suggestion" she said.
"Well that's definitely a suggestion that we are not going to take" I said.
"You know for a person that says he's in shock, you are handling this better than I expected" she chuckled a little.
Little did she know that I was a wreck inside. I wasn't ready for a baby. I don't have a job, I don't even have a high school diploma, I was suppose to be going to film school in L.A., and what's worse is that I have to tell Miranda this, which I know is going to hurt her more than anything in this world.
"Gordo" she said snapping me out of my own thoughts. "Were going to have to tell our parents soon" she said.
"We might as well tell them today and get the yelling and screaming over with" I suggested.
"I guess your right" she said.
The fates must have been testing us because the McGuire's along with Matt walked through the front door.
Ms. McGuire was the first to notice that Lizzie had been crying and she was inquiring on what was going on. It was now or never.
"Mom, Dad, we need to talk" she said.
3 HOURS LATER
Everything happened like I thought it would. Lizzie parents immediately started yelling. More like Mr. McGuire started yelling at me on how I could be this irresponsible. Mrs. McGuire started crying and saying that our lives were forever ruined.
Lizzie just clung to my side and held my hand tight while they were screaming to the top of their lungs. At some point Mrs. McGuire called my parents and before I knew it they were their yelling, crying, and screaming just like Lizzie's parents.
Through all of it Lizzie and I remained quite. She stayed next to me and held my hand like she was a scared child. In reality I guess she was a scared child. We both were.
I blocked out everything, all I could think about was how I was going to tell Miranda this news. Lizzie didn't even know that the person I moved on to was her best friend.
Finally our parents stopped yelling. My parents were ready to go home to think about what to do. Lizzie's mom went upstairs to lie down. I could still hear her crying from inside of her room. I walked Lizzie up to her room, I felt Mr. McGuire's eyes burning a hole through the back of my skull as I walked up the stairs.
When we got in Lizzie's room she went straight to the bed to lie down. I laid her blankets on top of her and told her to get some rest. I was walking to the door when she stopped me.
"Gordo"?
"Yeah".
"Um, on the phone earlier you said you moved on with somebody. Who was that person" she asked. "I hope it wasn't anything serious because Gordo you know that I still love you and I don't want you to be mad at me because I was acting stupid" she said.
"That's not important now. All I want you to worry about is getting some rest because tomorrow is going to be a busy day. I love you too" I said.
The problem is that I'm not in love with you. I haven't been in love with Lizzie for quite sometime now, I thought to myself.
"Okay" she said yawning. "Gordo, thank you for sticking with me even after I treated you like a jerk when we broke up" she said.
"No problem" I said closing the door.
While walking to my parent's car I felt a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. Telling Lizzie that Miranda was not important almost killed me. I was lying to her right in her face by telling her that I still loved her. I mean I do still love her but as a friend. I got in the back of my parents car and they drove off.
My dad and mom were clearly upset but I really didn't care. All I was worried about was Miranda. When we reached home I jumped out of the car and ran straight to my room. There were three messages on my answering machine. I already knew they were from her.
I picked up my cordless phone and dialed her number. The phone rang three times before she answered.
"Hello" her angelic voice rang into the receiver.
"Hey Miranda" I said slowly.
"Gordo where have you been all day. I have been calling you and calling you all day. I thought you stood me up but then I realized your Gordo not Ethan. I know you have a good reason for not meeting up with me. At least I hope you do for your sake if you want to make it through the night" she said. I could hear her smiling through the phone.
God, the sound of her voice makes me so happy. I really don't want to tell her this but I know I have too.
"Gordo are ya there" she said.
"Yeah Miranda, I'm here. Listen baby we need to talk".
