Chapter 2
Forcing myself to my feet I head back towards the bedroom taking one last glance at the billiard table. It's okay Ana, deep breaths you can do this, you have to do this, and you have to do this now before he comes back. Oh god if I see him I will never be able to leave my fifty. He's not your fifty anymore! He's hers! He was always hers!
And that is why I must do this. I can free Christian from this life that he thought he wanted. He's proven that he doesn't want a life with me and Blip by running to her. I gently place my hand over my abdomen. What if he asks me to abort you? Would I ever be able to forgive him if he asked this of me? I will not give him the opportunity to ask.
He doesn't want the life that our little Blip has planned for us…he ran to her…then I realise he misses his old lifestyle. So I will bow my head in defeat. She was right, I wasn't enough for him, he has needs that I cannot fulfil. My mind wonders back to his birthday party…she did warn you.
You never thought you were enough to hold him and you were right. Now let him go.
Mrs Robinson has won.
Ok so I have to leave, but how to leave Mr Overbearing Megalomaniac with ex FBI and god knows what else at his disposal. Before going back to the bedroom I enter Christians study. I know he keeps obscene amounts of cash here for emergencies, and if I am really going to get somewhere without him finding me I am going to need money. I decide to borrow some. Crap! What's the safe combination? He told me he changed it recently. I try our wedding anniversary…there's a small click as it unlocks. Keep it together Steele. Holy crap! How much has he got in here? And how much do I need? One hundred… two hundred…three hundred thousand? That should be more than enough to last us.
I hurry back to the bedroom and change into jeans and t-shirt with my converse. Putting the money in my backpack, along with a few toiletries, a change of clothes and the wedding picture of us from my bedside table I am ready to go. Taking a deep breath I make my way back into the great room. Looking at the view for the last time, I can't help but stare at the piano, suddenly there is a deep ache in my stomach which spreads to my chest, my breath is knocked out of me and a loud sob escapes as the realisation hits me. I am running. You said you would never run…but I am running for him, to give him a chance at the life he needs. I walk over to the piano and take off my wedding and engagement rings and leave them on top of the piano. There is no need to leave a note, this will give him the message.
