Chapter 1
It's been 5 day's.
Five day's and I feel even worse then I did the day it happened.
I keep torturing myself with I should have's and what if's.
Maybe I should have put up a fight when Dimitri left me. What if I hadn't congratulated him and pretended I was happy for them. Maybe I should have outright had a Rose fit and make him see he had hurt me. What if I hadn't waited to go back to my dorm room and cry. Maybe I should have cried in front of him. Would the outcome be different if I had?
More importantly would he still be here, if I had?
No, I wasn't over him.
Yeah, I hurt.
No, I don't think I'll ever be over him.
Yeah, this was one heart brake I would never get over.
Five days and the pain in my chest had only gotten worse, I was still pretending to be the old bitch Rose instead of the new broken Rose, but people saw the difference when I didn't snap a Stan, or punch people when they said something I didn't approve of. So pretty much I only pretended around Lissa and my friends.
Lissa.
She didn't know. When she saw me running to my dorm crying after Dimitri had told me, she thought it was that I was crying over Mason. And she was partly right. I was crying over Mason. Just not only him. I was crying about him, Dimitri and I added sheepishly I was sorry for myself. I had learned to pull on my guardian mask, a faked smile or my trade mark man-eater smile. It was faked obviously. I couldn't manage anything happier then a grimace.
Before He left he had apparently asked Alberta to find me a new mentor since I apparently had a lot to learn. When Alberta told me this I had my guardian mask on and nodded. After a worried glance she'd told me she'd find me one by the end of the week and to train by myself or with Eddie until he or she got here. That was 4 days ago.
So every morning Eddie and I ran 10 laps then an hour of weight lifting. Then we would spare till we needed to get ready for school. After school I would run another 10 laps then work on staking or working of my anger, hurt and frustrations out on the punching bag. I did these after school ones alone since I didn't want to inconvenience him but mainly I did it to make sure that he didn't see how I took out so much emotion on the punching bags or the tears that ended up falling down my face by the end of it.
I pulled myself from these depressing thought and started on my homework. I ended up finishing my homework early and decided to check in on Lissa.
She was excited about something and was waiting for Christian to put down his homework. He wasn't even done closing his text book when she blurted out
''AlbertajusttolledmethatRose'smentorjustarived!'' He sighed before placing all his book's into his back pack on the floor then he said
''Lissa slow down what did you say?'' She sighed then repeated slowly
''Alberta. Just. Tolled. Me. That. Rose's. Mentor. Just. Arrived.''
''Okay... Why are you so excited?'' she rolled her eyes and said
''Because it might get her out of her funk. And the fact that her new mentor brought along her son that's are age who is apparently a nice hunk of Dhampir'' She wiggled her eyebrows. Christian frowned she hurried on to add that Christian was her favorite and proved it by leaning in and...
I pulled myself out of her head in time then headed down to Alberta's office hopping that whoever this new mentor was she was good. I was also more then 'happy' to know that my mentor was a women I didn't want to deal with another heart brake. I had learned my lesson this time.
