Well, I'm finally back, and so are my stories! I begin college soon, I'm a tenth std passed girl now! This is the next chapter of Amnesia… it's an Ukyo/ Heroine pair... I was listening to the radio and this song by Ed Sheeran started playing while I was shuffling through stations… it inspired me to write this new chapter…. It's called Photograph, and I'm listening to it while writing, for inspiration! Hope you like it! listen to it as you read, it'll enhance the experience. Also, I'll warn you that this is a mess, so please be kind!
Chapter 10- Restless existence, waiting heart
Ukyo POV
What is the meaning of love? Is it just the physical touch they show these days? No, it can't be. For me love is getting hurt. Love is not being bound by strings, yet wanting to be bound by them. These strings can hurt you, oh , and they do. But love makes the wound's pain easy to bear.
You don't need to have the person by you at all times, but they always are. In that necklace/earring/cap/shirt or whatever you have been given by them, that you never forget. In your heartbeat. In your every breath. But, most importantly, they are in your thoughts.
You need not feel jealous if you know this real meaning of love. Of commitment. Committing to someone is to stay, even if they yell at you to go, because you know you'd want them to stay for you.
Committing doesn't mean you are there on every birthday along with everyone else. It means being there even when nobody comes. It's not feeling obliged, it's like a habit. One you can never cure.
And I loved her. Still do. And will always do. When she dies, it was nearly like the world no longer cared for me, because it had stopped caring for her.
She was to come with me on that fateful day she died. We were to go out on that day, and I was waiting for her at my home. The last thing she ever said to me was, "Wait for me to come home, we'll go out somewhere."
But she never did come home. She did go somewhere though. But it was so far away from me, for a second I couldn't stand it. So I wished to see a world where she was alive. But then I realized, a world where both of us were alive was impossible, and my wish was not fulfilled. She was never mine. Even if I got to see her live, I had to die. Somewhere in this endless cycle, a part of me that began to hate her was born. I almost gave in to him.
But then I remembered the true meaning of love. She was away in a world where she did not know even her name or how she got there. But her heart was somehow still with me.
I look across the street, I see her workplace. Even as she traverses worlds, Meido no Hitsuji remains her workplace. She's there as usual, and she seems to be with Ikki in this world. She's stumbling around, trying to remember who she is and what happened to her. I wish I could help.
But even if she's there, I'm sure her heart is here. With me. In our true, original world. And even if we may never be able to make it back there together, I will always wish for her to live. To be happy. To see her live was my last wish. I hope it will be fulfilled. I won't give in to my insecurity, my hatred. I won't lose.
Wellllll, I KNOW it's a bit complicated, but I guess I am in a bit of angsty mood….. hehe *bows* GOMENASAI! The general idea was to show the true meaning of love, of commitment, that people today seem to have forgotten. This song inspired me to do this piece, so thank Ed Sheeran for this mess.
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Love,
Anika
