HEY EVERYBODY
I get home and boy do I just want to die 30 minutes of walking in this heat should have killed me It's 110 degrees right now
"damn it's hot" I say to myself I unlock the door and walk inside and go to the kitchen I make myself a snack and grab 2 water bottles then run upstairs to my room. I put one of the water bottles in my mini fridge and start on my homework . I text my mom
hey mom hows work ? Keep calm and fight ongood how was school sweetie?
Okay keep calm and fight on
no fights?
Almost but no keep calm and fight on
with who?
Aline keep calm and fight on
last name?
Penhollow I think keep calm and fight on
I know her mom and if she is anything like her mom I'm surprised you didn't get into a fight
is her mom a major bitch who thinks she owns everything? Keep calm and fight on
yes so you are starting off good look sorry sweetie but I have to go we will talk when I get home
okay bye mom love you keep calm and fight on
I finish my homework and start playing call of duty black ops 2 live with the headset I like talking to people I get the most kills with no deaths easily and wait for the next round to start
"dude how did you do that?" some guy asks me he sounds familiar
"easy" I say
"dude he's a she" he says
"yes I am a girl"
"what's you're name?"
"Clary yours?"
"kyle"
"sweetie I'm home!" my mom calls
"well see ya" I say to kyle and log off I run downstairs "hey mom" I say hugging her
"hey sweetie" she says as I let go "what do you want for dinner?"
"anything?"
"anything like I promised if you were good"
"yes! I want spaghetti"
"okay"
"but not just any spaghetti"
"okay we I will make spaghetti"
"yes! Thank you thank you thank you!" I hug her
"okay go finish your homework"
"already did"
"go take a shower"
"but mom I'm going to take one after dinner"
" I'm going to make my meatballs"
"okay see ya I'm taking a shower" I run upstairs and grab a towel when I'm done I go back down and eat dinner with my mom I finished
"night mom love you" I say getting up
"night I will drop you off again today oh and I'm picking you up but if I'm not there bye 3:00 just walk home" she said
"okay" I ran upstairs and got into my pajamas and went to bed. I woke up at 4:00 no reason to go back to bed so I took a shower and went to my walk in closet which is weird because it's not all pink and girly like in the movies I grab a pair of skinny jeans and my favorite Sweeney Todd t-shirt I changed then went downstairs bare foot. I walk into the living room and turn the news on. I walk back upstairs and brush my hair. I put on my black converse and walk back downstairs. I look at the stove clock 5:00. I walk into the kitchen and start making breakfast eggs pancakes and bacon. I set the table which is easy because all I have to do is poor some orange juice into 2 cups and place them on a table. mom comes into the kitchen ready for work.
"hey sweetie did you sleep well?" mom asks
"yes and how about you?" I ask
"yes breakfast smells good"
"thanks want some"
"no" she says sarcastically
"okay fine more for me" I make 2 plates of breakfast and put them on the table we finish eating. I turn off the news and run to my room I brush my teeth put on my favorite pair of faded black converse I grab my bag and run downstairs. I get to school the day is very uneventful until lunch. I walk into the cafeteria and sit with Izzy,Simon,Kyle,Jordan and Maia
"hey guy's" I say
"hey" they all say in unison I take a step back
"are you guys possessed or something?"
"no why?" asks Simon
"oh nothing"
"hey um Clary right?" Kyle asks
"yes" I say
"how did you do it?"
"do what?" I sit down
"not die" he looks at me like I'm crazy earning the same look from everybody else
"what?"
"you know on call of duty"
"oh that..., ya I don't know" I hold out the that
"seriously?"
"ya seriously"
"okay well Clary this is your second time willingly sitting at this table give me your phone number" Izzy says
"okay" I pull out my phone and go to my contacts "phone please" I say to her she hands me hers I put my phone number in and give it back
"now text me just making sure it's not fake" I roll my eyes
hey Iz it's me is this real enough for you? Keep calm and fight on"yep" she says popping the p
"here everybody give me your phone" I say I enter my number in all their phones I text all of them
hey everybody what's up? Keep calm and fight on
"hey um Clary what's with the signature?" Izzy asks
I look at the table my smile faded I look back up
"come on Iz I'm not that violent" I say my voice cracking
"what?" she sounded concerned
"it's for my aunt she died of cancer years ago but when she was alive that's always been my signature since we found out she had it because when I talked to her I would say 'keep calm and fight on aunty I love you' she was my best friend" my voice cracked a lot. I ran to the bathroom I noticed all the girls
"GET THE HELL OUT BEFORE I RIP YOU IN HALF AND FEED YOU TO THE WHOLE SCHOOL FOR LUNCH TOMORROW!" I scream they all run out of the bathroom looking terrified I shut the door. I didn't cry no I hadn't cried since the day she died I promised myself not too
FLASHBACK "aunty I want you to be as comfortable as you can don't do anything for me" I said "darling I'm your aunt I'm going to do whatever I can to make you happy" she said "you know what would make me happy you not being sick what would make you happy?" "seeing you happy" "i wish there was a faster way to make you feel better" "me too darling me too" "i can't wait 'til we can do everything again without you being hurt" "there will be in the very far future" "okay" later that night she called the hospital but I fell asleep right after she said 'hi my name is-' and I fell asleep a month later we went to Disneyland I remember everybody staring at us like we were crazy and aunty told me to ignore it we had the best time of our life we went on every ride aunty bought me a lot of stuff like a giant stuffed pooh bear it was twice my size after that I didn't see her for months every time I asked I was told to go do something so I would an comeback asking a slightly different question the answer remaining no until one day mommy got a call "we will be right there" then mommy pulled me into the car and drove to the hospital "aunty?" I asked entering the room "yes Clary?" she asked "what's wrong I thought you took medicine?" I was standing at the edge of her bed "no sweetie I was" "why did you stop?" "i want to go" "no you can't" "i want to see you happy and I will be a lot more happy myself" "it makes you happy?" "yes sweetie" "you know what I'm most scared of aunty?" "no what?" "death" "me too" "you know who I'm scared for?" "who?" "you" "me too" "why are you scared for me?" "because your crying" "no I'm n- o" "see what I mean" "yes" "no more crying" "i can't promise" "no more crying for me" "i will try" she smiled up at me and hugged me "bye I love you" "bye I love you" then I realized what she said "wait no don't leave me I-!" to late she relaxed and the machine beeped a long irritating beep "love you" I cried I stood above her now covered grave and cried "why did you leave me?" I asked her grave mommy came up behind me "why aren't you crying?" I asked "because even though I want to she doesn't want me to" she said handing me a piece of paper I unfolded it
me aunty and mommy were sitting at the kitchen table 'they gave aunty medicine to make her feel better' mommy had told me but I knew exactly what was going on I pretended to be so unaware in front of mommy but when it was just me and aunty I wouldn't calm down all of a sudden she got up and ran to the bathroom I knew it started again months later while we were hanging out
at the funeral
no more tears for me okay I love both of you
because I'm watching you and don't want to see you hurt
I especially don't want you hurt because of me I love you too much
goodbye I love you love,
peanut butter also known as big sis and aunty
it was sad I lost my best friend and my aunt on the same day my mom lost her sister. But I never ever cried again I wasn't even crying now while looking back because she wouldn't want me to. I didn't cry when I broke my arm.
"-Clary" Izzy said drop kicking me out of my thoughts
"what?" I asked
"you ran to the bathroom but your not crying why?"
"because I'm not a baby I came in here to think"
it looked like she was going to say something but thought better of it the bell rang
"let's go" I walked out of the bathroom to be met by as I call them the gang
"hey are you okay?" Kyle asked
"why wouldn't I be?"
"because you-"
I was glaring
" never mind" he finished
"not a single word" I said french was a normal class
then I walked into hand to hand combat I was going against some guy I think his name is John or something he looked pretty tough we got onto the fighting mats
"FIGHT!" Mr. Lightwood yelled when we were ready
John swung I dodged then ducked and proceeded dodging 'til I got bored he was getting a little tired I could tell years of fighting taught me how to I punched him in the jaw and heard a crack I smiled a devious smile. He came at me I stepped to the side he fell I laughed. He glared at me got up and kicked under my feet I did a back flip everybody seemed shocked. His friend pushed me into him and he punched me
"cheap shot" I mumbled
"what?"he asked
"nothing" I pinned him on the floor
"get off"
"Clarissa wins" Mr. Lightwood says "anybody else want to fight her?"
"me!" Johnathon friend said
"okay"
he was a pretty good fighter took lots of cheap shot but I finally won he had a bloody nose a black eye and a big bruise on his jaw. I had a black eye a bloody nose and a bruise on my Jaw almost identical to his except it was lighter he didn't hit me as hard I wait for my mom after school I check my phone 3:20 I start to walk home I text my mom
hey keep calm and fight on
no respond. I take my phone out turning onto my street nothing I noticed the crowd around my house what's going on I see my mom and run to her
"mom what happened?" I asked
"somebody obviously doesn't like us" she said
"who?"
"i don't know"
"hello ma'am is there anything that they might want from your house" a police asked
"paintings...um...computers...um...-"
"my x box mom"
"oh yeah and that new x box that came out last week"
I run into my room and see it's there but all my pictures are broken the glass in the frames shattered. I walk back outside all the frames are broken. hours later everybody leaves I sit in my room thinking about school and my crazy messed up life I have nobody gets it, they say I'm rich so I should be happy and I am for the money and the roof over my head and everything but nobody gets that my mom is usually never home. Nobody gets that my best friend and aunt died when I was in elementary school. That's the last thought I have before I fall into a dreamless sleep.
PLEASE REVIEW SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG STUPID SCHOOL NEXT CHAPTER WILL START AT SCHOOL AND DEPENDING ON IF I'M GOING SOMEWHERE OR NOT MORE THAN LIKELY IT WILL BE UP NEXT WEEKEND AND YES AND DID MAKE JOCELYN AND THE AUNT PEANUT-BUTTER AND JELLY
