Stunning Toilets
Sirius's tears slowly came to a stop as he realised that what was the point in crying when you couldn't even comfort yourself? And why was the sun shining bright, why was the train filled with the sounds of laughter when the world had come to a crashing halt? When the world had taken a spiral downward, playing a dark, cruel game with the hand of fate.
Sirius stood up. He was no coward. He was a Black, so he would not give up. He would not give in. He was a survivor.
He stood up once more, a purpose in his mind. He knew what course of action to take. First, he would find out what Remus's sexual preferences were. He'd never been with anyone before but sourcing out his…pleasure material should be fairly easy with a simple summoning charm once he reached Hogwarts. Next, if he was a homosexual, he would woo him. He knew Remus better than anyone. Simple two step plan. But if he wasn't gay, Sirius didn't know what he'd do. He walked into the compartment and sat down next to a sleeping Remus.
"Sirius, mate…" James trailed off as Sirius glared at him. Peter stayed silent, supposedly confused at what was happening when in actual fact, he'd heard Sirius sleep talk during an erotic dream once.
Sirius closed his eyes and escaped into a dream world for the rest of the train ride. He dreamt that Remus loved him. He and Remus were holding each other. Simply holding each other. And Remus was whispering in his ear his name. Sirius.
"Sirius!" James shouted at him, trying to wake him up.
Sirius woke with a start. Well, someone had been saying his name, though it wasn't who he wished it to be. Remus had already left their compartment, gone up to castle in one of the carriages. How they were going to cope when they had to sit next to each other in every subject, Sirius did not know.
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Why couldn't he have shouted? Why did he have to look at Sirius in disgust when it was his reflection that disgusted him more? He, Remus Lupin, the werewolf that got bitten at a young age. The werewolf that disgusted his parents, the werewolf that disgusted his goddamned self. Surely, a curse such as his would condemn him to the fiery depths of Hell, after journeying into a dark abyss and suddenly being surrounded by flames in the blazing pits of Hell. A dance with Devil would be practically a thing for werewolves. And yet, everyone else believed a kinder fate for the respectable Remus Lupin. His friends thought the best of him saying that if one of them was to go to Heaven it would be Remus.
How Remus had hated himself for rejecting Sirius. He had been so sure that he could remain calm and rational under any circumstance that Sirius put him through.
Granted, this one had been something of a shock.
Sirius had done nothing wrong. Sure, he loved Remus. So what? But the demon voice whispered in the back of Remus's head.
"You're a werewolf. You're a monster. No one can ever love you. Especially when they find out you are WORSE than a werewolf!"
But Remus tried reasoning with the demon, saying that only his close friends knew of his furry little problem. And they still cared. But the demon always won. He had betrayed his very best friend, and if he was honest with himself, the only person who truly understood him. Sirius.
Riding in the same carriage as Lily Evans was annoying. She was complaining about James Potter again when it was so obvious that she liked him.
"Oh my god, he like always ruffles his hair up to look cool, he always plays with that snitch and he's got those friends of his too…" Lily criticized, a slight rosy colour appearing on her cheeks.
"You mean Sirius? Oh, he's so gorgeous!" All the girls in the carriage went on to describe his hot looks and, especially, his body.
"Have you seen his biceps? Oh, they look rock hard!" One girl mentioned.
"Has anyone seen if he has abs? Remus! You're in the same dorm, tell us!" A particular girl said and stared at him.
"Yes he does." Remus murmured quietly and all the girls swooned.
"Have you seen his thing? How big is it?" One girl plucked up the courage to ask. Every girl held their breath for his response, even Lily.
"Yes I have. It's way above average." Remus admitted to them, ignoring the memory of accidently walking in on Sirius in the shower.
"OMG! He must look so good naked!" The same girl spoke up while all the girls practically drooled at this new discovery. You could see exactly where their thoughts were travelling at 100 miles per hour.
"Yes he really does." Remus spoke without thinking. All the girls stared at him before he realised his mistake.
"If you like that kind of thing I mean." Remus attempted to cover up his mistake. No one fell for it.
"Are you gay Remus?" Lily asked him, all serious-like.
Remus shook his head and refused to speak another word for the duration of the carriage ride.
