2186 September 10

I was dying in the wasteland. I was dehydrated and bleeding out. I lay a few miles from camp hungry and bleeding out under the shade of a piece of rubble. The pain in my arm was almost unbearable and suddenly I saw her. Mina was walking up to me with assault rifle and commando armor on. I was surely hallucinating she was a doctor. I reached up weakly and whispered I love you. Then I blacked out. When I woke I saw the pitiful excuse of a Krogan hospital and I saw Mina talking with a Krogan doctor. She saw me awake and ran over and kissed me. I had never been so happy to see anybody in my life, but I was almost crying being able to see and feel her again. They had gotten the pictures from my Omni-Tool and Wrex was more than pissed. He told me they were going to use the shroud to cure the Genophage. I was happy for him and the Krogan. I have asked Mina to come with me to the Citadel while I try to heal. She said she needs to think about it. God tonight is going take forever to go by.

Ivan Azarov signing out.

2186 September 12

Mina is coming with me! She wants to help me through rehabilitation when we get to the Citadel. I thank God every day for meeting her. We are right now on a ship traveling to the Citadel. Mina is asleep with her head on my shoulder so typing is hard to do without waking her up. She is so beautiful even when she sleeps. The Krogan gave me a new Locust and Black widow sniper rifle with armor piercing modifications. Wrex personally thanked me before going on the mission to the Shroud. Commander Shepard looked like a person in charge. It's inspirational to see the Commander standing there radiating leadership and power. I can't wait to get back in the fight. Mina wants me to quit completely but I just can't. If the Reapers win we all die. No more anything. I entertained the thought of us moving to a desolate planet and raising a family on a farm. But alas we would not survive. Neither of us are farmers nor do we know anything about farming. The Captain got word that I was a soldier with the Krogan military and asked me if I would lend a hand in case of pirates. I did not refuse. Desperate times call for desperate measures. Mina is stirring beside me and I am probably waking her.

Ivan Azarov signing out.

2186 September 15

We found a nice apartment on the Citadel near the Apollo Café. Mina is helping me with rehab in Huerta memorial. I met a nice Drell there named Thane. He has Kepral Syndrome. I feel so sorry for him. Apparently he used to be an assassin of some reputation but the sickness made his life harder. Finally Shepard offered him a suicide mission but he survived. Not that he wanted to die, but I would rather die in battle rather than rotting away in some hospital. He is still very fit though and is teaching me how to fight like a trained Drell. It is amazing how he moves. It is like a dance of death. Every move has a purpose and lands a blow that is fatal. My arm is healing well and I am able to lift like I used to. This will be my last entry for a while. I am going to ask Mina to marry me. Time in war is to short to take it slow. I want to be as close to her as possible.

Ivan Azarov signing out.

2186 September 24

I am only writing this because my psychologist is insisting it will help. Where do I start? Two days after my last entry Mina and I were having a small wedding in the Apollo Café just to satisfy both our traditional senses. I was saying my vows when I heard a gunshot fire. Panic erupted and Mina was separated from me. I saw Cerberus shuttles landing and I was terrified. I reached in my coat pocket and got my Locust when I saw Mina. She was running at me terrified. I ran up to her when she fell in my arms. I looked down as I caught her and she looked at me. The last thing she said to me was "I love you." She lay there dying in my arms as I saw Cerberus troops coming towards me. I looked down at Mina's body and a rage filled me that I cannot explain as I slowly rose after I lay Mina down lightly and applying medi-gel I pointed my Locust SMG at the troops and unloaded as much as I could into every troop that was in my sights. A shot hit me in the side and it didn't even phase me. I kept walking forward and was face to face with an Atlas mech. It pointed its cannon right at me when Thane came out of nowhere and shot through the glass killing the driver. Thane came up beside me and told me to take care of Mina. I looked down at her and she was barely breathing. I was overcome with grief and I slowly picked her up and carried her to the elevator to Huerta Memorial Hospital. I hate this. She is in a coma and I am waiting for her to wake in a psych ward because they think I am unstable. I will get revenge on Cerberus if it is the last thing I ever do.

Ivan Azarov signing off.

2186 September 28

Mina is awake! She woke last night in a screaming fit. I walked up to her and she started crying. Saying she thought she had lost me. I was crying the entire time so happy she was ok. She is starting rehab today and I asked her to be put in a room with Thane. Unfortunately he was killed in the Cerberus attack. Rest in peace friend. He died from a stab wound in the chest protecting a Salarian councilor. He died a hero and I respect that. I am now helping Mina learn to walk again. Every time she stumbles or winces I get angry at Cerberus. When she can walk I'm enlisting with the Alliance and am going to a Cerberus battle front. They will know and fear me. Mina is begging me to stay and I am thinking of staying. There is whispers that the Crucible is almost finished. Some super weapon that will wipe out the Reapers. I hope it will. I want to stay with her but. This is wrong. I need to help.

Ivan Azarov signing out.