Two Kinds of Love
I thought I loved Fireheart. The truth was I loved the idea of Fireheart. The idea of being a warrior, a mate, a mother. I now notice that I like him as a friend. But back when Sandstorm and him first got together, I was jealous. Sandstorm had everything I wanted. Why did she get it and I didn't? Over time, I stopped thinking I loved Fireheart and being jealous of Sandstorm. This happened soon after I meet Littlecloud actually...
I truly love Littlecloud. My heart races whenever I see him. I tried to ignore it at first. Now I know it's there, but what can I do about it? Not only am I a medicene cat, but we're from different clans. It was forbidden love, and nothing really came from it. I knew he loved me, and he knew I loved him, but we didn't do anything about it. I like to think it was because we loved our clans , which we do, but sometimes I wonder if I was just to scared to do it. To break the rules.
Once I relized I loved Littlecloud I felt jealous again. Jealous of the cats who fell in love with cats from their own clan and could actually become mates, and mothers. I've always wanted to be a mother. Another thing that the accident took from me.
I wonder how my life would have turned out with the accident never would have happened. Would I have mated with Fireheart? Doubtfull, I don't think he ever loved me, or that I ever truly loved him. Would I have mated with Littlecloud? Also Doutfull. There' steal the whole being from other clans thing.Plus, we wouldn't know each other as well if I wasn't a medicene cat.
