Hi everybody! So I've gotten great responses from a lot of you and I already have 7 favs and 10 follows! Wow! Maybe that isn't a lot, but for me, sh*t, never thought this would happen! So thank you! And keep sending me reviews, I've gotten two so far and YAY! THANK YOU!

So, now I know how to edit and stuff so my first chapter was a bit hard to read, I know. Sorry about that. I will try to fix it as soon as I understand how! Hehe...

I come from Sweden which means that I originally don't speak english. Hopefully my english writing skills are good enough for you to read. If you do think that my grammar or spelling is bad, please tell me and I'm going to start looking for a beta as soon as I can!

Background information about the story: Most of it the first chapter already told you, but some things you don't know yet. Kurt has his own store where he sells his own designed clothes, so yes, he is a designer. Blaine and Kurt are around 23 and 24 years old. Oh and Dean has blonde hair and blue eyes. Kind of a "typical swede haha! If you have any questions or suggestions, just tell me! Either on here, my instagram KlaineIG, my twitter (also KlaineIG), my tumblr Lovewillalwaysbelove (not on there much tho) or my kik Pjutt.

I guess I should write something like "all rights on Fox and Ryan Murphy"? Well, you already knew that, Dean is mine tho! And a couple of characters you'll meet in this chapter! Have a great reading! Oh and the song I put in the beginning of all chapters, you can find the name in the end of the chapter!


I don't want hold you if you want to go,

I'm not going to make you feel love if you don't

I would rather learn what it feels like to burn

than feel nothing at all


"I don't know how to say this..." Kurt looks up from the diner menu, concern in his eyes.

"What's wrong baby?" he says and puts the menu down on the table.

"I just-" Blaine looks up from his glass filled with water and directly into Kurt's eyes. "I just love you so damn much sometimes that I can hardly stand it. I know that we're young and dumb and stupid and all of those words that Burt uses when he talks about us, but you know what? I don't care. I love you and I want you, forever. I want to wake up beside you everyday, look at you when you sleep even how creepy that sounds. I know I already do that, but I wanna do that until we're 87, sitting on our front porch listening to the birds singing, with our grandchildren running around. I wanna be yours forever, and I want you to be mine." Blaine looks down at their linked hands "I had planned this to be something completely different, a fancy restaurant with flowers and Champaign with the ring lying in the bottom of the glass and I would stand on one knee and I would-"

"No, just no Blaine-" Kurt suddenly stands up from his chair " I had planned a perfect proposal and now you've ruined it. Couldn't you just let me be the romantic one? Just for once?" Kurt looks like he's close to tears. "I had planned to propose to you Blaine, I had planned to propose to you with flowers, a fancy restaurant and a romantic speech and you would cry, and I would cry. And the ring would lie in a small box with a bowtie on and-"

"Yes"

"Yes what?"

"I'll marry you."


Blaine wakes up with a jolt. The memory burning inside of his head like an open fire. His bedspread is tangled around his body like a sleeping bag. "Why do I have to remember that, why?" He sits up in the bed and puts his head in his hands. He sits like that, trying to get the memory out of his head until the alarm goes off and he almost falls out of bed.

"Well good morning Blaine" he says while he turns the alarm off. "No new text messages", the display on his Blackberry sighs and gets up from bed, "nothing's changed...". He gets dressed quickly, already a little late for work and eats a quick breakfast.


His red T-shirt is soaked with sweat when Blaine arrives to the small school in New York city. Callwest Preschool is a tiny building with only about 400 students and 7 teachers. Blaine is the only English teacher at the school which means that he has a couple of classes each day. The building is old built from bricks and looks really boring if you think about it. From outside, the school almost looks like a prison, but on the inside you get a completely different feeling. The principal has done all in her power to make the inside feel welcoming and warm, and she has really succeeded. The walls are covered with drawings the children have made, most of them pictures Blaine with various children. Blaine smiles to himself. The children really does like him, and he likes them. He really loves his job, not only because he can teach, he can also spend time with kids which he loves.

Blaine easies the black bowtie around his neck and walks into the staffroom. Mrs Acker is reading today's newspaper and looks up when she hears Blaine approach the room.

"Hi Blaine! You've been running I can tell" She gives him a half smile and looks down on the newspaper again.

"Hi mrs Acker. I missed the bus...again" he sits down on the chair right in front of her with a groan. "I don't understand how I seem to always oversleep" Mrs Acker starts laughing and says without looking up from the news paper:

"If you stopped pinning over that boy you always talk about maybe you would get up in the mornings" Blaine gives out a puff and she looks up, blinking with one eye. "Am I right or am I right?" she says.

"Okay, I gotta go now" Blaine mutters and starts walking towards the door.

"Hey! I brought you coffee!" Mrs Acker says and holds a mug of coffee towards Blaine. "In case you didn't have time to make some this morning"

"Thanks" Blaine says with gratitude. He takes the coffee and waves to her and then walks to his first class


When he arrives, he's all alone. There are ten minutes until the class starts so Blaine takes off his jacket and puts his brown briefcase on the floor beside the teacher's chair. The memory is still burning inside of his head and he can't seem to get it out of his head.

"Yes"

"Yes what?"

"I'll marry you"

He shakes his head as to get the memory out, but it's still there. What pains him so much about this memory is that they were so happy back then. They were so young and so in love, not that that has changed... What Blaine hates most about the whole situation is not that Kurt can't be with Blaine, that he is keeping Blaine a secret. No, it's the memories of how perfect everything was and how perfect their life still can be. But Kurt is too stubborn to do anything about it...

Blaine opens his briefcase and takes out a couple of papers. The children should arrive any minute now. He reeds them trough to make sure that he has control of what's supposed to happen during the lesson. He's almost done when he hears the familiar clapper from the children's shoes and looks up.

"Hi mr. Anderson!" Sandra calls out and gives Blaine a bright smile.

"Good morning Sandra! Was mr. Thomson's class fun today?"

"No it sucked" Ed said. A small boy with a huge personality that always makes sure to be heard. Ed is the "popular" kid that every kid looks up to, mostly because he's brave enough to say things like that. All of the children takes their places except for Nathalie that runs up to Blaine and hugs his legs instead. She really is a small girl.

"Well hello there Nathie, everything okay?" He asks and pats her head

"Yes mr. Anderson. I brought you a flower, I found it outside on the playground" She says and gives him the flower and then runs off towards her seat and sits down, eager to learn.

"Why thank you! It's-" really ugly and smells really bad "-beautiful! I'll put it right here, on my desk!" he says and puts it firmly down beside his computer and papers. He receives a almost toothless smile from the girl. She really is cute.

"Today's class we are going to start reading a book called Little Mermaid. I'm sure you've heard of it?" He holds up a book with a mermaid with red hair and a blue and yellow fish as the cover. The children screams is delight, expect for Ed but Blaine can see that even Ed has a hard time covering his smile. "Well we can start now, shall we? Those who wants help with reading can just tell me and I'll help you. Take your books!" The children screams and runs toward his desk to get to the books. Blaine laughs and takes a book himself.

After about 10 minutes his phone starts buzzing. All of the children says "Shhh mr. Anderson, we're trying to read!" which Nathalie and some other girls giggles. Blaine laughs and leaves the room, opening the text message.

"Dean is working late, wanna come over? xx -Kurt" Blaine locks his phone and gives out a loud sigh, the memories all coming back again.

"Yes"

"Yes what?"

"I'll marry you"

He collapses into the floor, his head in his hands and tries to breath through the pain that's burning inside of him. The phone is burning inside of his pocket, urges him to answer. But what should he answer? "I'll be there" as he always does? Or should he for once just let Kurt hanging, let Kurt feel the pain that Blaine always feels? Well, Blaine knows that Kurt feels bad about it. Blaine knows that Kurt is suffering just as much as he does, of course he knows. They've known each other long enough, and Blaine knows his soulmate inside out which even pains him even more. His soulmate, the love of his life. Of course he feels the pain Kurt feels, of course they share each others suffering. But he just wants to feel sorry for himself, just once.

"Put that box over there. No, not there, THERE!" Kurt screams when Blaine carries the last box of his and Kurt's stuff into their new apartment.

"Yeah it's easy for me to know what you mean when you have your back against me" Blaine mutters and puts the box down.

"Yeah, well bedroom stuff is supposed to be in the bedroom and not in the living room. Even a baby would get that."

"Well we only have one room Kurt so- OH!" Blaine screams and holds his hands to his back

"What happened? Blaine, OH GOD WHAT HAPPENED?" Kurt says running to his boyfriend's side and helps him to stand

"My- My back, oh god" he says when his back gives away a rather loud crack

"We have to take you to the hospital now" Kurt says and gets his phone out of his pocket

"No baby, I'm fine- OH!"

"Yeah, hospital, now."

They had spend that whole night in the hospital, Kurt always by his boyfriend's side, making sure to yell at the doctors for not being good enough because his "-boyfriend is NOT supposed to be in pain! You hear that? My boyfriend is in pain and you are NOT doing your job correctly-" Kurt had worried about Blaine all night and was still worried three weeks after Blaine's recovery, while Blaine worried about Kurt because "-this wasn't supposed to happen. You don't have to be here honey, you weren't supposed to spend your first day of our new apartment in a hospital and you were so excited to make it look homely-" and he had never once, felt sorry for himself. It was the time to feel that now.

"Mr. Anderson, are you okay?"

"Wh- What?" Blaine looks up to see Nathie standing in the doorway looking concerned

"Ed and Ruben started to fight over Amy and it's hard to read. Can you come in now?"

"Yeah, yeah of course" he says and stands up. When he gets into the classroom it's all chaos. The two boys are wrestling on the floor while Amy is standing in a corner crying. Everyone else is standing in a circle around Ruben and Ed, cheering.

"Okay walk away. Boys, walk away NOW" The boys stops immediately when they hear Blaine. "I don't care who's fault it is or why you did it. Just go back to the book. And you two,-" he says and points at the two boys, "-will I have a talk with later."

"Yes mr. Anderson" they say and goes back to their seats and Blaine takes his seat behind his desk.

"Mr. Anderson?" a cute, chubby girl with black hair says.

"Yes Elsa, what is it?" he asks and looks up from his desk.

"Who texted you?" she says and the whole class starts to giggle

"Was it your boyfriend?" Ruben asks and makes a high five with Ed. Apparently they're already back to being friends, Blaine thinks.

"He's not my boyfriend" he says tiredly, knowing that the normal discussion will come up, like every other lesson.

"But you wish he was, right?"

"I-" Blaine looks at all of the 17 faces smiling at him and decides to be honest. "Yes, I do"

"Then why aren't you?" a small girl named Tina says, actually not so different from Tina Cohen-Chang.

"Because he has already a boyfriend. And we were together before, but we broke up" Blaine says sadly

"But you like him?"

"I like him very very much"

"Awwwwwe" the whole class says in union

"What did he say, what did he say?" Patrick says jumping in his seat

"He wants to meet me tonight, but I'm not sure what to answer him" Blaine says and looks down in his lap

"What do you want to answer him?" a quiet and shy girl named Lisa says and looks almost scared of Blaine's reaction. He looks at her and gives her a small smile saying:

"I don't know"


Later that day Blaine pulls his phone out of his pocket and reads the message again.

"Dean is working late, wanna come over? xx -Kurt" And he finally decides what to answer him. He types quickly and sends it right away, too fast to be able to regret. And the lump in his throat finally eases a bit.

"I'll be there"


One Grain Of Sand - Ron Pope