Olivia's POV~~~~

Oh the night makes you a star

And it holds you cold in its arms You're the one to whom nobody verses I love you

Unless you say it first So you lie there holding your breath

And its strange how soon you forget That you're like stars

They only show up when it's dark

Cause they don't know their worth

Olivia sat in her apartment on the couch with a guy latched onto her neck. Jeremy was his name, and he was an old flame she hadn't seen in a while. She needed him, but only as a distraction.

"You're so beautiful, and unique. My own personal Hailey's Comet." he whispered against her collarbone. He worked at a planetarium so naturally he loved using star metaphors.

Olivia tried not to laugh. It was all bullshit. He wanted sex. Time for the test, "Jeremy, I really missed you."

"I missed you too." he muttered.

"I love you." She told him after raising his head to hers, so they were even.

"Yeah." He acknowledged going to work on her lips.

She gently pushed him away. "DO you love me?" Here comes the lie!

"Yeah, of course." he said breathlessly as he repositioned himself over her and hike the skirt of her dress up.

Olivia let out a breath she was unaware she was holding when he started to drill into her.

She didn't move, she just stared out the window at the stars thinking. Elliot had once compared her to the stars, and when he said it, she had believed him.

MEMORY~

The car was cold as they sat clutching coffees waiting for their perp to rear his ugly head.

Elliot was gazing at the stars when he said, "You know what Liv, you're like stars."

"How so?" she asked interested.

"Well, they are bright, different and you can only see them clearly every so often. They have this mystery, no one can solve um."

END MEMORY~

And I think you need to stop following misery's lead

Shine away shine away shine away

Isn't it time you got over how fragile you are We're all waiting Waiting on your supernova

Cause that's who you are

And you've only begun to shine

They soon finished with Olivia thinking what the hell was she doing? Trying to be sad? Make herself hurt more?

He left, big surprise.

She took a nice hot shower and gave herself a pep talk, "You're not gonna shatter, Elliot and the job are not your whole life." she needed to get over him. Why did he mean so much?

"Brush you teeth, comb your hair and sparkle!" Was her knew motivation.

There are times when the poets and porn stars align and You won't know who to believe in Well that's a good time to be leaving` And the past knocks on your door And throws stones at your window at 4 in the morning Well maybe he thinks it's romantic He's crazy but you knew that before

She laid in her bed thinking about her job. It was a good idea to leave, right? Things had been shaky lately. She figured when what you would do and what you should do become different things, you should leave and reprioritize.

A know at the door echoes through the apartment. At this time, there were only 3 possibilities; intruder, landlord, or Elliot. She grabbed her off-duty weapon from the bedside-table drawer and heade3d out to the living room.

She looked through the peep hole sighing as she opened it to Elliot and angrily shoving the barrel into his chest. "What are you doing here?"

"I need to talk to you, Olivia" he said nervously.

"This isn't some teen T.V. special. You cant come here at four in to talk and expect me to forgive you. Especially after what you said! You're a psychotic bastard if you think I wanna talk to you. Other than that, you're just a bastard." She felt accomplished, "Now leave before I shoot you and have Melinda help me clean up the evidence."

He nodded sadly and turned walking back down the hall. She walked into her apartment smiling. She caught a glance at herself in the mirror and her smiled widened even farther if that was possible. She was glowing from pride. This was a new beginning for Olivia Benson.

And I think you need to stop following misery's lead

Shine away Shine away Shine away

Isn't it time you got over how fragile you are

We're all waiting

Waiting on your supernova

Cause that's who you are

And you've only begun to shine

Yeah you've only begun to shine

Won`t you shine shine shine shine over shadow

Shine shine shine shine over shadow

Shine shine shine shine over

And I think you need to stop following misery's lead

Shine away Shine away Shine away

Isn't it time you got over how fragile you are

We're all waiting

Waiting on your supernova

Cause that's who you are

And you've only begun to shine

Yeah you've only begun to shine

Yeah you've only begun to shine

Yeah you've only begun to shine


Okay so this isnt what i thought it would be, and im not sure if im happy with this part but please review i need the help!!! Sonh was Shine by Anna Naylick. She is amazing