so there i stood starring at Jasper Hale.
what washe doing standing on my door step? what did he want? was he here to finish what he started on my birthday? was he here alone? or was the rest of the family here too? and if so .. why was he the one sent to my house? but befor i could continue with my internal twenty questions he spoke again.
"i know you must have a lot of questions, do you mind if i come in so we can talk?" he asked with a small smile. i thought about it for a moment. then i decided .. what the hell why not? even if he was here to finish me off, its not like i could stop him. and if he was here for that why would he have knocked on the door and asked to come in? so i sucked in a deep breath and forced a smile as i said "i'm sorry , jasper please come in" . he stepped inside and i lead him into the kitchen.
we both sat at the table and stared at each other for a moment befor he spoke. "first of all, i want to appologize for my actions the last time i saw you. i know nothing i can say or do can make up for what i have done" and i had to stop him right there. he had to know that i didnt blame him, not even for a second. he had to know that i saw everything that happened. he had to know that i knew his gift had really been his curse that night. i saw it in his eyes, it wasnt his own blood lust that had caused him to attack. it was his gift that had caused it. he felt hisown blood lust but also Rosalie's and Emmett's , Carlisle's and Esme's , Alice's and Edward's. Edward's of course had been the worst sincei am his singer. with the blood lust of seven vampires running through him - there wasn't a vampire on this planet who could have resisted that temptation.
"stop right there jasper!" i said. the look on his face was priceless. he looked confused and scared, now that was funny - i made a vampire confused and scared.
"bella please" but i interrupted him again. " i told you to stop because i forgive you... i had already forgiven you the moment it happened. i know what really happened that night. jasper its not your fault, it never was"
he stared at me in awe. the fear had left his eyes but i could tell he was still very confused. then jasper looked away from me and said "what do you mean , you know it wasn't my fault?" so i told him my - your gift was your curse - theory. he was silent for a minute and then a cool smile slowly played across his lips as he spoke. " you saw it? and you figured it out while i was trying to drain you" he let out a small laugh. " while all six of the vampires in the room still don't understand!" the he shock his head and let out another perfect laugh. i let a small giggle excape then said "so are they all back too?"
he got a distant look in his eyes, then shock his head again as he said " no darlin , i am afriad its just me" . now it was my turn to look confused. "but why? what happened? where's alice? whay are you here alone? where is everyone else? is it my fault?" with another small smile on his face he said " ok slow down darlin on question at a time.. why dont i start at the beginning?" he ran his hands through his golden locks and brought them to rest at the back of his neck befor he spoke again.
"after you horrid birthday party, edward told us all we needed to leave because thats what was best for your well being. the only one who truely agreed with him was rose. alice and emmett tried to argue that we couldnt just dissapear from your life but edward wouldnt listen to any of us. some how he convinced carlisle that his decision was in your best intrest and when carlisle told us all to leave and put a no contact order in place, we had no choice but to listen to our coven leader" as he spoke i could feel the compassion and regret radiating from him. "we were forced to leave that night. we went to alaska, we have a house there . shortly after we arrived Emmett and rose departed for yet another honeymoon in africa. edward left saying he needed to be alone and he couldn't handle everyone else's thoughts. he would check in with carlisle every now and then. a few weeks later alice told me she had a vision of her true mate and she must go away to europe to find him. i was devistated even though i knew this day would come, i never thought it would be so soon."
i had to stop him there , he had lost me completely. "what do you mean her true mate? how did you know this would happen?" when his eyes met mine i could see the realization. "edward never told you much about the rest of us i see. well when alice found me she told me she knew we were not true mates but she had seen that we would love each other very much and that once we found the cullens we would enjoy many happy years together but then we would go seperate ways and we would each find our true mate"
"so after alice left, carlisle and esme tried to convince me to stay and i tried to but their emotions of sadness and pity were too much for me to handle. so the day i got the divorce paper, i signed them quickly and said my goodbyes. i took only a small bag and i ran . i ran for three months. i tried not to concentrate on a destination. i ran all over the continent, only stopping to hunt. as i ran i kept feeling this pulling in my chest. it was something i had never experienced befor in my extremely long existance and that frightened me so i fought against it , tried to out run it. but when it became obvious that it would not go away, i decided to do the only thing left to do. i gave in to it, i let it pull me for days and when it finally stopped , i was standing in a familiar yard staring up at your window. that was last night."
i gasped, i was in shock. i realized two things right then.
first - jasper had been pulled to me for some unknown reason
second - jasper was the reason i had slept peacefully for the first time in four months.
i opened my mouth to speak but he beat me to it. "so to answer your question... i have no idea why i am here , but there must be a reason and i have a feeling its something big."
then i looked into him stormy eyes as i said "ok i have only one more did you use your gift on me last night?" he got a strange look as he said " no . i only stood under the cover of the forest and watched your window. you were in my thoughts all night."
a/n: soo what do you think ? thoughts or suggestions? leave me a comment please!
