A/N: Alright guys! Dragon here for another round! Ok, I know my last chapter was really short and lame sooooo i swear this one will be a lot better! OH YEAH and HOLY COW GUYS! I got three followers! SPECIAL VIRTUAL COOKIES FOR: lady-norie, ladyyoko00, and dragoneellover! THANKS GUYS LOOOOVE YOU ALL! this is going to be lot easier for me because I told my mum that I was doing a science project which was not completely untrue because technically I did start out doing a science project... Dragoneellover knows the one I am talking about. Any who that was a private rant between me and dragonee so back on track here! GUYS YOU CAN SKIP THE REST IF YOU WANT BUT PLEASE READ THIS! All basic warnings for this and any other story I may post in the future are on my profile! I will include additional warnings if they apply.
Any way let get down to BUSINESS!
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN HETALIA! T^T
Canada
I cant believe he did that! As if my brother did not feel bad enough! Given, Alfred can be irritating and thick but he means well and Arthur knows that! Ugh, my hand really hurts from hitting England... Must have hit him a lot harder than I thought... I will apologise as soon as soon as he apologizes to Alfred! what he said was completely cruel and uncalled for!
I still can't find Alfred either. He must have taken of to his apartment. I had forgotten how fast he was! Maybe he will cheer up if I make him some chocolate chip pancakes, I know how much he loves them... I made my way to his apartment after a little bit of trouble remembering the number. "Alfred?" I said knocking on the door. At first I got no response but then I faintly heard, "Go away!" and I could tell by how he sounded how upset he was.
"Come on Alfred its Canada! Let me in please?" I said a bit pleadingly. Again his answer was a bit delayed, "M-Mattie?" he asked tentatively.
"Yes Alfred its me. I want to help you." I said.
"... Door is open..." he said so quietly I almost didn't hear him. I walked in to the messy apartment he used for meetings. As messy as usual. Shocker. I rounded the corner and walked into Alfred's room. He was huddled in a corner hugging his knees and crying. "Alfred..." I said quietly as I walked over to him, "are you ok?" "N-no." He choked out. I frowned and opened my arms to hug him. The American almost instantly crushed me in a hug.
"Hey don't cry Alfred... its ok... He was just being an ass... It is his fault not yours..." I said as I rubbed his back.
"M-Mattie, wh-what did I do?" he said hiccuping and stuttering from his tears.
"Nothing Alfred... Like I said already it was his fault for yelling at you not yours..." I said softly.
America hugged me even closer forgetting that he is ten times stronger than I am and i was sure he was going to strangle me. "Th-then why doesn't he love me anymore?" He said sobs increasing with each word. He sounded so hurt, he reminded me of a puppy that had been kicked to many times.
"Al... I am sure he didn't mean it..." I said slowly.
He just cried until he finally fell asleep...
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America- A few weeks later...
I don't know exactly how long it had been because quite frankly, I really didn't care. The pain was to much for me to bear. I just couldn't stand it, the man who raised me, who I have looked up to since forever, the man I loved, hated me. He didn't want me anymore, and it hurt so much because I had been trying for so long to make up for that war but it wasn't enough. He hated me. I never wanted to believe that he meant all those things he said to me but now it started to dawn on me that he really did think that I was just some stupid, lazy, irritating nuisance. Every breath made the molten knives in my chest go deeper, every heart beat felt like broken glass was being driven into my chest from the inside out.
Had Mattie left? I didn't know but he hasn't come to try and make eat yet so I guessed that he had. He probably was tired of me too. The thought sent another wave of pain through me. I just didn't understand why the pain wouldn't go away. I wanted that agonizing beat to stop. I dug around for a bit before finally finding a piece of crumbled paper and beginning to write...
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Canada
I had been called back to my country by my boss despite me telling him that Alfred seriously needed me right now. Sometimes being a nation was a real pain in the neck.
When I walked into Alfred's house the first thing I noticed that was odd was the completely neat home still spotless from when I had cleaned a week ago. Not a thing had been moved not even the video games were moved. The second thing was that Alfred was not in his bed but instead a piece of slightly crumpled paper was in his place.
I picked up the paper and saw i note on it in America's sloppy hand writing: To whoever finds this letter my name is Alfred F. Jones. I would appreciate for this letter to be given to my brother, Matthew Williams.
Mattie: I am sorry. I know you will probably hate me for this if you don't already. I just couldn't take it any more. I tried to accept it and move on. I tried to act like it didn't hurt so much... But I couldn't... I was weak... And I know you will probably never forgive me for that. I only wanted for England to be proud of me. I just wanted for him to love me again like he used to... But I guess I failed there to... He thinks I am a joke. In the end I wasn't good enough. I know this is selfish of me to ask of you but please tell England that I am so sorry for hurting him? And for the war... I know that it was my fault that happened... I do love you bro. You have stood by me for a long time even when I acted like an idiot. Thanks for that by the way you did not have to put up with me but you did anyway. I love you Mattie...
-Alfred/America
What in the name of sanity was this?!
"ALFRED?!" I screamed an overwhelming sense of dread taking over my mind...
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A/N: Yaaay I finished a new chapie and I found the line button! And it was over a thousand words! VICTORY IS MINE! XDDDD Any way I hope it was better than the first one but I won't know unless you guys review for me! I am serious! Negative or positive I don't care just tell me what what you think ok?
Dragon, out!
