Lorelai wakes up at 5am Sunday morning. Her face is swollen and crusted with dried up tears. Her first thought is what have I done, will I ever be able to fix this? Last night was the worst night she has had in a long time. The look on luke's face pains her to no end. The angry words exchanged make the tears start flowing again. As she lies in her bed she replays everything that happened and everything she wishes she could change.
Flashback
Luke walks in the front door, loaded down with bags from doose's market. As he walks through to the kitchen he calls out "anyone home, I come bearing gifts" as he steps into the kitchen he sees the girls at the kitchen table immersed in text books with notepads and wads of paper all over the floor. "what's going on here?" he askes, "hey Luke, mom and I are just doing some homework, you know if I didn't make her she would never sit down and actually do any" came Rory's reply. "HaHa very funny, I was working before you this time" " yeah like 5 whole seconds". Luke decided it was time to step in " I thought we should make dinner easy tonight just some pasta and garlic bread" "Sounds good babe, want us to move and get out of your way?" "na, id like the company tonight" he replied
They chatted back and forth all throughout dinner and after some desert of apple pie and ice cream Rory headed of to bed. "Night kid ill see ya in the morning" Lorelai said as she leaned in to kiss Rory's forehead. "Night rory, see ya for breakfast" Luke leaned in and did the same as he winked at her.
While luke and Lorelai were doing the dishes Lorelai seemed distracted. Luke asked "hey, what's wrong you seem kinda off tonight?" "Nothing, just a lot of things on my mind, actually I wanted to talk to you about something" "okay, shoot" "lets go and sit". As they walked to the living room Lorelai was dreading what was about to happen. She wanted nothing more than to forget about the whole thing, take luke upstairs and just fall into his arms. They sat on the couch facing each other. After what seemed like hours luke asked "So what did you have on your mind" " Well I have been thinking about these last few months and im not sure if this is going to work" "If what is going to work?" "This you and me and dating, I just feel like we arent on the same page, sometimes even in the same book" she was trying with everything inside of her not to let him see the tears in her eyes or hear the pain in her voice. All she wanted to do was take it back and forget that she was breaking his heart. " what do you mean we arent on the same page, I thought that things were going really well, we have a routine and rory is adjusting to everything, she seems like it isn't bothering her" "I thought so too, but its not and this isn't working for me anymore" she lied .
Luke sat there with his head down trying to take in what she had just said. It didn't make sense. Ever since Rory's birthday when they finally had there moment, things had been great, Rory was adjusting to this new dynamic, she seemed to really enjoy spending time with him, and she didn't feel weird when he would come over. He kept replaying everything over in his head trying to figure out where this uncertainty was coming from. As he looked up into her eyes and saw the tears forming he knew that this wasn't what she wanted.
"You need to look me in the eyes and tell me that this is what you want" He calmly said. She looked up, looked him square In the eye and said it "It is luke I've made up my mind its over, it isn't working and we should end it now before anyone get hurt anymore" "hurt anymore that's rich, the only way you could hurt me anymore is if you ripped my heart out and stomped on it, although it already feels like you did". She knew she was hurting him more than anyone ever had. It was killing her to know that he opened his heart to her and she was stomping on it because of stupid Christopher.
" I cant believe your doing this, lying to me, right to my face, why? Why are you doing this? I think that I deserve at least an honest answer" his voice rose with every word. "Im doing this because it isn't working for me anymore and I cant chance Rory getting hurt when you finally realize it too" It angered him even more knowing that she was continuing to lie to him, he could see it in her eyes and hear it in her voice. " When you decide that you screwed up, when you realize that What we have is really want you want, don't expect me to be there waiting with open arms. I need someone who is going to be honest with me and not get freaked out and bolt whenever things arent in their control. I would have given you everything In my power. You and Rory are my life and I would have done anything for you. I never gave you any reason to doubt me or feel like this wouldn't work. But it seems like you have made up your mind so I say Goodbye Lorelai" With that he got up and walked to the door slamming it behind him.
Lorelai sat there with tears streaming down her face because she knew that the only true thing aside from rory in her life just walk out her door and would probably never look at her again. Than she heard it, the heart wrenching cries of her baby. She turned to the kitchen to see rory standing there with tears flowing. "I cant believe you, after everything he has ever done for us you treat him like that. Just because your scared doesn't mean you walk away. I love luke and I wanted him here, why did you make him leave?" She couldn't understand why her mother was doing this. Everything was going great they were happy, at least she thought they were happy. Rory felt like she had a real family. She finally felt like she had a dad.
All Lorelai could do was sit there knowing that possibly forever the two most important people in her world were going to hate her.
End Flashback
Lorelai rolled over and look up at the ceiling, trying to find a way to fix all the damage she was causing. She started to put a plan together, First she was going to try and talk to rory, She was going to make her not hate her. She didn't want rory to know what Christopher was doing, he was still her father and she didn't need to know what a jerk he was. After he talk with rory she was going to go and see her parents, explain the situation to them and hope that they would help her. They never liked Luke, not from the minute they met him, she highly doubted that they would willingly help her especially since Christopher was involved. They loved the idea of her and Christopher. They never realized what a crappy father her was, or how much pain he caused them. They only saw what was proper and right. They say the parents of their grandchild together and married. They saw society's view not what was right for their daughter or granddaughter.
With her plan mapped out and that restless feeling in her body she got up and headed to the shower.
