One time, at a certain place
Not associated with this world
Two unlucky people connect in the world
With a single paper airplane
Buttercup was happy she visited the jail. She threw that paper plane high, high enough to land in the cell she wishes it to be. She missed him. She wants him. Though, she knew they were Different, they were different.
Every day I escape the hospital
At the place where my Papa works
I meet with you; you're everything to me
Buttercup was diagnosed with cancer, a cancer never known in the world. She hadn't exactly been happy about this, but she never fled from knowing so. She couldn't care less what Townsville said, she just wanted him. Him with her. Was that bad?
"Buttercup we have some terrible news." The doctor put a hand on her shoulder. She felt slightly uncomfortable. She still does.
"You have a cancer we never seen before.." Buttercup stiffened at the sound of it but said nothing. Warily, the doctors left, leaving a sorrow filled flower behind.
Buttercup kept on disobeying the doctors, no matter how bad this was. She was starting to lose connections towards the world, but she never cared. As long as he's there, where her papa now works, she was happy.
When I read your letters, my heart
Becomes warm
My cheeks are colored; is this love?
Buttercup never felt this feeling before. She never felt so...so...weak yet so...so...in love. Was this what it was like to be in love? If so, she wants more of it. She kept writing and the flame of love kept growing with in her breaking body. Her cheeks would become a beautiful shade of red, no one knew why she blushed, but she had. She truly had loved everything about that. Loved.
But
Why does Papa say
With a scary face
"That that child
Is no good to see? "
I didn't understand
The Professor quickly grabbed the note from his daughter and read it. His once kind face distorted in anger.
"Buttercup Utonium! This child isn't good to see!" Her heart broke. She didn't understand. She never understood. Why wasn't he good enough?
"Dad he IS good enough! Why can't you see that?" Buttercup argued back at her father. Professor Crumpled the note and tossed it aside. He never answered, he had work to do. He passed by Blossom and Bubbles as he stormed out, so mad, he left Buttercup again in tears. Everyone had this year.
If I have you, then that is enough
You give my life meaning
In this room where light doesn't shine
The future was shining
Buttercup, seeing her sisters gone, still pondered what her father said.
"This child is not good enough to see!"
Buttercup shook her head. He was good enough to see. She concluded that. He was her sunshine. He gave her something the others never gave her: Hope. What he had was something no one had. He couldn't take that away. Buttercup was never well liked, she knew so. She knew her life had no meaning to. Fighting is never a meaning. It's just showing you're strong, not whether your life had meaning. But with him...her life was whole. When she snuck out, it gave her a glimpse of a better future; it gave her a glimpse of meaning. She never felt that before.
'It gave me light when there is none in this dark room. It shows my future. Isn't that enough?'
Day by day the number of tubes increases
My hearing grows distant
I wonder if even walking has become fairly difficult
Days pass and turn to months. Buttercup grew increasingly more prodded with needles, tubes, the sorts. She hated this treatment. It hurt her dearly. She even started to lose something she tried honing for years: Hearing. She started to lose that ability. Whispers were not unable to be heard and talking turned to whispering. Soon, this made her question when walking wasn't able to be done. She couldn't lose her walking abilities can she? She couldn't or else she can't see him! That was her nightmare.
If soon I won't leave this place alive
In the end, I
Don't want to burden you since you'll only worry
I run
My thoughts of goodbye
I send out to you
On an exchanged
Paper airplane
I can't show you my tears anymore
She never told her lover the truth. Burdening him was not a way to go. She knew that. She never wanted him to know that she might not be alive soon. She had to tell him she won't be there for a while. That never stopped her from crying on the way back to the hospital without him seeing as she ran away.
'I still love you, I always will!' She sorrowfully thought as she headed back to the darkness.
"I'll wait. I'll wait for you forever!
Until that day when you come back
If I don't lose your precious letters that I have
We'll meet again, alright..."
The line on the note stood out. She smiled slightly, knowing he still will forever love her...yet a pang in her heart started to appear. He never knew she'd die did he? No, he never was told.
'We'll meet again, I'm sure of that. I'll wait forever and will be there no mater what. I love you'
It's been many months since then
My body no longer moves
Buttercup stayed in her bed, paralyzed. She had no mobility at all. Yet her heart never cared. There was no need for mobility when you have no one to use or share it with.
I wonder if you'll come to welcome me very soon
When we were on the brink of separation that time
If I hadn't pretended to be tough, it would've been fine
It's already too late
Buttercup thinks over and over. That's all she can do now. She as trapped in her own body. She wonders things such as whether he'd welcome her...soon that is. Would he? She wanted him to softly, but she couldn't say that. Though something stabs her heart. Not physically, no. Emotionally.
If I hadn't tried to act tough, I would've been fine. If I told him. I would have also been fine. But..but it's to late now isn't it? She felt so guilt at this. She felt terrible. Why in the world would she do that to her love? She felt nasty, terrible. Any word you can use to describe it. But that wasn't enough.
You who are smiling somewhere even now...
I want to see you, I want to see you
I want to see you
Even though she left, she saw him smiling. He was trying to be strong to hadn't he? Buttercup knew this sadly. It was true. Yet, no matter how much pain she thought she caused...
She wanted to see him again. She wanted to see him once again.
She definitely had.
The light doesn't strike the flower that simply
Withers waiting for its destiny
Only the letters you gave
Are light that is given to me
Having a meaning grew increasingly hard to have. When his rays of love don't strike her, this flower dies. She dies. There is no meaning. There is no flower without that light. She definitely needed him. She needed his light badly. But how can she achieve that from him? Those letters were the only things that kept her alive, that gave her the light when all the light died in the darkness. He gave her that light. She still needs the light. She has to have it once more. It was like she was a drug addict needing the drug. He was her drug. She definitely needed that drug again to keep her alive.
Your letters are blurry as I can no longer read them
The sound of inorganic matter echoes in the room
Please, if this is the end
Let me go to where you are...
She can't lift the letters up nor read them. The words grew blurry as her eye sight weakened. The chances of the light from those letters died were great, died like her soon to be gone sight. Her weakening sense of hearing picked up the faint sounds of inorganic sounds. Sounds not made from the living. She hoped something she wanted to have for along time.
'Let me go to where you are...if this was the end please.'
Because I always had you [Because I always had you]
I could live without forgetting to have a smile on my face [I could live without forgetting to have a smile on my face]
The deep darkness tears the two of us apart and [The deep darkness tears the two of us apart and]
The deep darkness brings us together again [The deep darkness brings us together again]
Buttercup smiled as she closed her eyes. The Professor, feeling guilty as ever, placed a paper plane in her hand. She couldn't feel this though. She knew she could live more, live not forgetting the smiles she worn on her face. He caused that. Her body slowly begins to die. He slowly begins to die too, but she never knew. The darkness swallowed both up and torn them apart, away from one another. Yet..yet the same darkness carries them together. They were brought together again by the darkness they longed to get away from. She couldn't wait to see him again. But this time, it's not at the prision.
Till tomorrow... [Till tomorrow...]
I can't wait to see you again till..till Tomorrow...
At that place... [At that place...]
I can't wait till I see you in heaven soon...Boomer Jojo.
