Hi all, so I decided to do a strange almost pulp fiction sort of thing where I start at the end and work backwards. I hope it won't be too confusing.

Song is by Hinder Better than me.


I think you can do much better than me

After all the lies that I made you believe

Guilt kicks in and I start to see

The edge of the bed where your nightgown used to be

After everything, everything they had gone through it had come to this. He was the one that gave in and broke the promise they made. How pathetic was the situation; how pathetic was he for calling her after breaking it off with her.

It must be his imagination as he swore he saw her nightgown on the edge of his bed, even though he knew that it had to be an illusion; as he turned to see Tana sleeping peacefully beside him. Sarah always wore this cartoon character nightgown to bed so short that it just covered the cheeks of her behind. He shook his head dissolving the image in his head as he felt Tana toss about and cuddle into him in her sleep. He never felt so ashamed of himself; he was the lowest type of man there was at the moment.

She had been on a date it seemed as he showed up in her room in her apartment. It didn't take much to persuade her to be with him. It never took much.

"What are you doing here? " Sarah asked him tossing her purse on the nearby chair brushing her hair out of her eyes as she passed him. "I thought this was over? "

At twenty-three she was just finishing up her degree to be a paralegal, already interning at a local form she was dressed differently than he saw her before. She was wearing a knee length navy blue skirt with a crisp white blouse. Her long dark hair hanging down her back with straight wispy bangs falling across her forehead.

"I missed you. " Jareth told her sitting down on her bed absent mindedly twirling a crystal in his hand.

"You're married. " Sarah gave him a look.

"That doesn't mean I can't miss you. " Jareth smiled sadly at her. "I never said that I wouldn't miss you because the reality is that you haunt my every dream. "

I told myself I won't miss you

But I remembered

What it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

Whatever he said that night had Sarah melting in his arms, which only ate at his guilt more when he returned back to the underground in the early morning after staying the night with his arms wrapped around her.

Weeks had gone by since then and yet it was still ingrained in his mind. Falling into his arms, like the year had not passed between them since they had parted. The sweet taste of her lips from the wine she had poured for them still was on the tip of his tongue; the smell of her hair and the softness of her skin as he ran his hands over her curves.

He settled down into the bed as he placed the book he was reading on the night stand. Almost automatically Tana wrapped her arms around him with her hair brushing against him, the floral scent of her shampoo wafting up his nose. He was sent back into his head. Sarah had always used fruity smelling shampoos. She had still been so innocent when they got together, fumbling around in the bedroom as she was anxious to learn all that he could teach her. Showing her what those boys have been denying her pleasure in bed.

While looking through your old box of notes

I found those pictures I took that you were looking for

If there's one memory I don't want to lose

That time at the mall - you and me in the dressing room

When they first ended things she asked from to send some photos that she had somewhere in his office. He would know the ones she meant when he found them.

The morning he found them stashed away in an old box hidden away. He was taken back to the one afternoon she dragged him to some place called the mall. He was in his human form as she called it; with slightly long hair. He was dressed in a pair of dark wash jeans and a button down shirt that was untucked. He saw their reflection in the mirror. He seemed so much older than her something he never realised before. He concentrated and de-aged himself by a few years so his glamour wasn't so shocking to people who saw them.

"Oh pretty please, Jareth! " Sarah dragged him through the doors. "I will make it worth your while. " she taunted him with a smirk as she dragged him to some store that was called Victorias Secret which as he looked around was filled with bra's and panties. All right this may not be that bad.

"No men in the change room, " the sales girl told them as he attempted to pass the doorway. "You can sit over there. " She pointed over to a line of chairs.

Sarah looked over before looking at the number of the room and rushing over to him whispering in his ear. Oh yes, that would work. He grinned and walked out the store finding a shady corner to disappear.

She was already partially changed as he popped into the small change room. Wearing a sheer baby doll her breasts pushed up and you could see her nipples through the red material.

"No? " She asked him looking in a mirror?

"Yes, " he breathed in her ear as he moved her hair away from her neck. "We are totally getting this one, "

Sarah laughed and grabbed her bag and withdrew a camera and turned the lens toward them as she pulled him into a pose.

I told myself I won't miss you

But I remembered

What it feels like beside you

She went along with her life it seemed as he watched her from afar. Visiting family and friends, taking Toby to the movies so he wouldn't bother her parents or wake his baby sister. Sarah never mentioned her new sibling, then again she rarely talked about her family when he was there.

It was always just the two of them huddled away in her room. Sometimes venturing out for a meal or a nearby park. If they ran into friends, she always introduced him as an old friend who was in town for the day. They always stayed far away from her parents part of the large city, not wanting to explain their secret relationship. She always made the excuse that if Irene found out that she was dating she would never hear the end of it and he would be expected to come for dinner. It was too complicated to introduce him. It was too dangerous for her father to know and possibly use his connections to look for dirt on the man his daughter was with.

She was his secret.

I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me

His entire court knew about Sarah, she wasn't hidden when she visited; even if they spent most of her time here in the royal bedchambers.

She was accepted and loved by the goblins who resided in his kingdom. They all wished she could stay; they all wished the impending nuptials of their King was to Sarah and not the bride who was chosen for him.

She danced around him dressed in a green ball gown with a daring neckline. The silk swished and her legs as she twirled before him, it was her first ball; well first official ball in the underground. She was laughing as he pulled her near him once more. "I do love it here. " She sobered as she rested her head on his shoulder.

"I love having you here. " He kissed her hair. "But we both know you cannot stay. "

"I know. " Sarah sighed. "Let's not talk about such things right now. I just want to enjoy my time here. " He found himself nodding and kissing her lips gently before sweeping her off her feet.

"Then suggest we take this to a more private place. " He grinned down at her. "If I only have limited time with you down here. "

I won't think about you when I'm older

'Cause we never really had our closure

This can't be the end

He refused to share the bed he once had with Sarah. He moved it to another room before Tana arrived. The new bed was never quite right, always slightly too cold and too foreign to him. Even with Tana in it on certain nights when she didn't go to her own room.

She planned on trying for children quickly knowing it could and would take a while for them. He agreed the sooner an heir was born the better for the kingdom. She was adventurous and always up for something new, but it always came back to she wasn't Sarah; she could never be Sarah.

It was Sarah who was moaning his name, it wasn't Sarah's slim hips wrapped around him. It wasn't dark raven hair that Sarah possessed, but a honey blonde with silver accents that were down to her hips with various braids holding it back from her face.

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder

Wish I never would've said it's over

And I can't pretend

He wasn't expecting her call not in the early morning requesting him to come to her. She looked a mess as she wore a pair of sweats and a tank top. He would be lying if he didn't notice the lack of a bra and how full her breasts seemed.

She passed him a plastic stick. "What are we going to do? "

His stomach lurched as he looked at the strange device with a blue coloured end. "What is this? "

"I'm pregnant Jareth. " Sarah spoke after a deep breath. "It seems your swimmers are more potent than we thought. "

"I-" Jareth stammered his palms sweating. Oh, heavens there was no way out of this one was there? What a beautiful mess he had made for himself.

I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me


Thank you all for reading this chapter and all the reviews and follows from last chapter!

Tina