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A/N: Read, Reveiw & Enjoy[:
And just so you know, a
cardiopulmonary resusitation is when the doctors use those two paddles to give someone who has just lost a heartbeat a sort of 'start-up' hearbeat. I know it sounds all techical & junk but i could't find a shortened name for it.

EDIT: I know, there were so many mistakes and I'm like OCD about that:P

Hotch POV

The doctor's said his chance of living was barely. It would take a miricle for Reid to even come out alive. The doctor told them not to get their hopes up. And it was all my fault.

He was in surgery still but wasn't supposed to be in there much longer. Me and the rest of the team are sitting in the wating room waiting for answers. Answers that seemed like they would never come. We had been here for close to three hours.

Looking around, Morgan was asleep, Garcia passed out, her head on his shoulder, Emily had run to go get some coffee for those of us who were awake. Rossi sat, looking blank, empty. Reid was like a son to him. And I might just be the reason that he will be taken away.

I sat with my head in my hands. I was sick with myself. I should have sent Morgan with him. I was experienced enough and I could have managed it on my own for a while. How could I have been so stupid?

"Are you all here for Dr. Spencer Reid?" someone asked. I jerked my head up. There stood a doctor, Dr. Greg Hershaw, looking grim.

"Yes," David answered for me. I couldn't find my voice. Derek and Gacia jerked awake at the sound of his voice.

"I am Dr. Hershaw," I already knew since I tried talking to him once already. "Please, follow me."

We walked through the hospital trailing right behind him.

As we were walking, he said, "I'm terribly sorry. But he's not going to make it much longer, I don't think. He fought all he could but the shot went through some of his vital organs. It didn't help that he lost so much blood before the paramadics arrived.

"I think you should probably say your good-byes now." This almost made me stop dead in my tracks. He just said it so abruptly. Say our good-byes. I couldn't. That would make this real.

This wasn't real. It couldn't be.

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Morgan POV

We were walking along behind the doctor. Going to visit Reid. I guess he just got out of surgery.

The doctor, whose name was Dr. Hershaw if I'm right, was saying, "...through some of his vital organs. It didn't help..." I tuned the doctor out for a miute. I just didn't want to hear any of this.

It was bad enough Hotch blamed himself when it was me who should be blamed, but it should have been me. Me, who got shot. Me, who is on the brink of dying. Reid was so young, had so much else to live for.

What about his mom? She needed him.

"I think you should probably just say your goodbyes," the doctor said.

Wait, what? It couldn't be that bad, could it?

That hit me like a hard blow to the chest.

The doctor stopped us in front of room 213 and opened it. There on the bed, Reid layed, unconscious. "Go ahead on in."

We walked into the dreary hospital room. Looking at him, he looked so helpless. So...young. Innocent. And it wouldn't be long until there was no more Reid. No, I shouldn't think like that. He's strong. He WILL pull out of this.

My phone was buzzing in my pocket. I looked at the caller ID: Emily Prentiss.

I answered it. Anything to get my mind away from the boy lying in front of me.

"Morgan." I said into the phone.

"Hey where are you guys. I went to get some coffee for everybody and now nobody's in the lobby & Hotch's not answering his phone."

"Room 213. We're already up here. Sorry, the doctor came while you were gone."

"What did he say? How bad is it?" she questioned. I could hear the worry in her voice.

"Bad. He's most likely not going to make it and the doctor told us to go ahead and say our good-byes." My voice almost cracked. I hate when it does that. I hate crying. I don't cry and I won't.

She was silent for a moment. "On my way." She hung up.

I held the phone up to my ear for a bit longer before I turned around.

I just wish I could wake up from this mightmare. Soon.

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JJ POV

I just looked at him. Tears running down my face. I hated crying in front of anybody. Especially the team, but I couldn't bear it. I loved Reid. Henry won't even know the wonderful man who was his godfather.

Emily walked in, panting slightly. Apparently she rushed up here. She put the coffee's on the table since there weren't enough. I sneezed and I guess it was pretty loud since Reid suddelnly stirred.

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Morgan POV

JJ sneezed. And it had woken up Reid. I sighed with short-lived releif. The monitor said he was still alive but it helped tremendously seeing him awake.

"Reid! Reid! C'mon," Hothch was saying because Reid was slipping back to unconscious.

His eyes fluttered open again for longer this time.

I said, "Reid? Reid can you hear me?"

Spencer nods. I smile and ask "How you holdin' up kid?"

He opens his mouth but can't say anything. He coughs and then winces. I didn't realize how rough this was gunna be on him. "Good," he manages to choke out.

Rossi says, "It's okay. Don't worry about talking. We're all here for you."

Just then Penelope walked in. She walked over and hugged him. She backed away and just started crying.

"Don't worry Reid. We love you," she said.

He tried talking. "Too," he strained his voice to whisper. If you wernt listening, you wouldn't have heard it, much less know what he said. It was all he muttered before drifting off. But this time it was different. The machine I was standing next to started beeping, steadily getting faster.

The machine that showed his heartbeat was becoming erratic. Then the line went flat.

The nurses, doctors, and technicians all rushed in and we were ushered into the hallway. We watched through the glass as they gave Reid cardiopulmonary resusitation. "Clear!" The life less body jerks as hundreds of volts of electricity go through his body.

JJ and Garcia start crying. Prentiss went and sat down, shocked.

I hated not knowing what was going to happen to Reid.

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