Chapter 2: I don't care.
14ruri14… signing in
Hiya guys…. This is the second chapter of do you really love me….
And may I say that I do not own Card Captor Sakura… it belongs to CLAMP…
Sakura's POV
"Why didn't you told me earlier?!" I screamed a little.
Eriol raised his hands for defense. "I'm sorry… but you didn't ask." He then placed his arms down.
"Sakura-chan calm down or you will have another attack again." Tomoyo calmed me down.
She grabs hold both of my shoulders and made me sat by the trunk of the cherry blossom tree beside her.
"Good…"Tomoyo then patted my head.
"I'm not a dog Tomoyo-chan…" I said as I removed her hand away…
"I know…"She smiled at me "But you are cute as a puppy."
I took that sentence as a compliment.
She then proceeded into talking with Eriol.
I rested my head at the trunk and closed my eyes, calming myself down while the others was talking.
I could hear the others talking to their lover.
Tomoyo with Eriol
Chiharu with Yamazaki
Naoko with Koichi
And
Rika with Setsu (A/N Sorry but I don't like a teacher-student relationship… pls don't be mad).
I was relaxed.
As if like nothing is wrong in my life.
I was enjoying the time.
I was savoring the moment.
The fresh wind gently slapping through my face
After a few seconds I opened them again and looked to the right.
I saw Tioshi-san and Li being a sweet and perfect couple…
I admit that I am jealous. "Nobody would love me just like that… until I die. Nobody will." I whispered to myself and then sighed.
"Are you okay Sakura-chan?" Eriol asked me.
I nodded and smiled at him… "I'm fine Eriol-kun."
He nodded and then proceeded in talking to Tomoyo.
I looked at my friends.
All of them have their own world
Unlike me
I looked at Tioshi-san and Li again
This time, he pecked her cheeks giving her a light kiss
I closed my eyes shut
Avoiding their 'special moment' together
I then looked at the students passing in front of us…
Al of them having a lover of their own
I looked at them in disgust.
I suddenly stood up making my friends turn their attention to me.
"What's wrong Sakura-chan?" Rika spoke.
"I have to go to the bathroom." I said.
Tomoyo's eyes suddenly filled with worry "Why? Are you having an attack?"
I shook my head slowly "No I'm fine. I just have to go to."
I lied.
"Want me to come with you?" Tomoyo suggested
I shook my head again "No. It's alright; I'll just be back in a few minutes."
I then walked towards the school building.
As I walk, I saw some people making their 'lovey dovey' moment.
Really
What is happening?
It's still December.
Not yet the season of love
It's not yet February 14.
I looked at everybody and it seems like they all have their own 'love'
Unlike me
Wait a minute,
I think that I am the only one in this school that doesn't have a partner.
I sighed and I didn't want to their relationships just because I don't have one.
I admit, I really am jealous because I know that i won't feel being in love neither does the feeling of being loved from a special boy who love me because of who I am and not because I am somebody else.
I made my way to the rooftop and held the metal bars
I sighed again for the how many times this day.
All of this pain just because of this stupid illness
"I hate my life" I said to myself. "Tell me God, why did you cast upon me this terrible fate. Do you hate me? If you do, then tell me, what did I do? What did I do to make you loath me? For you to despise me? For you to hate me?" I looked at the sky as tears were forming in my eyes. "Did I not deserve happiness just like the others? Did I not deserve to be loved just like everybody else?" I sat down in the dirty floor as I held the metal bars for support because I was crying.
I let my tears flow down in my face
And then I had another attack
I knew that I shouldn't cry but I did it anyway I let my feelings out.
I grab hold of my chest trying to breathe regularly when I heard the door open revealing the most arrogant person in the world
Syaoran's POV
Maio and I parted ways because she was going to the faculty room and Terada-sensei called for her
To spend my time even just for a bit, I made my way to the rooftop
I love spending my time there if Maio is not with me. I don't know why but I was relaxed there. Nothing seems to disturb me. Even my problems if I have one
As I was about to open the door, I heard somebody out there, crying. For some reason, I was worried. I know why but I was. Not even knowing who the person is.
I then heard it gasping for air. With worry, I immediately opened the door revealing a girl with auburn hair and was on the ground gasping for air. She looked at me and was shocked to see Sakura's face
"K-Kinomoto…" I stuttered "What are you-?"
She abruptly stood up, still clutching her chest and was sweating.
"L-Li! What are you doing here?" she asked me
I could clearly see that she has been crying because of the tears that had stained in her face.
I just then noticed that she has emerald eyes.
Was it really there?
Was it originally placed there?
How come that I haven't noticed it before?
Was I really that dense for me not to notice that I was there before?
God, I really have to participate and concentrate in the things just around me
I stared again in those eyes.
That beautifu-
Stop right there Syaoran Li.
You already have a girlfriend
The only one for you.
Maio Tioshi
Her and only her and nobody else
No one could ever replace her in my heart.
Even if Kinomoto have those beautiful emerald orbs.
I stop it Syaoran.
"Uhm L-Li?" bringing me back to reality when I heard Kinomoto's voice
"Yeah?" I asked too cool
What?
I have to maintain my cool
"May I ask you something?" she asked. She finally regained her posture but still clutching her chest
"What is it?"
"What does it feel of being loved?"
I jumped back a little
Sakura's POV
Why did I ask that stupid question out of the blue?
Think before you act Sakura!
This is Syaoran Li that you're asking
The most arrogant person in the world
"I-I-I'm sorry; I shouldn't have asked that stupid question anyway. Please excuse me." I made myself to the door when I heard him answer
"It's the greatest feeling that you could imagine. It is a little hard to explain and to define so for further information, you have to experience for you to know what the real meaning is."
I faced him and then said "Thank you for opinion" I then left
I opened the door, went inside closed the door and then slid down.
"Why did I ask that stupid question? I knew that I will not be loved other than my family and my friends. So why should I be dreaming about it? For Pete's sake. I am a girl. I don't need a boy to help me in my every need. I can and could be independent. I don't care if will be loved especially by a boy and there is a high possibility that the result would be painful." I whispered to myself. "I should head back. Tomoyo and the others might be worried about me. Just forget everything that you have said earlier Sakura…" I stood up and then sighed… again.
I made my way down the stairs and out of the school building and approached Tomoyo and the others.
"What took you so long?" Tomoyo asked.
"Nothing, there was just…" I was making up an excuse for taking too long "A long line…yeah." I then sat down beside her.
"Really?" she just said. "So, when do you plan in getting a boyfriend?" she asked
"I don't plan on getting one." I said
"And why is that?" she asked again
"The only end result of having a relationship is that your heart will just get shattered and just nothing but the pain that you feel inside." I answered. Not caring a single bit
"How would you know that is the end result? You haven't even had a relationship." Tomoyo said to me.
"You could clearly see that even if you haven't experienced it. Remember, learn from the mistakes of the others." I stated
"But Sakura, don't you want to be loved?" She asked
"No not a single bit. And I don't care if I will be loved especially by a boy. Getting love from you guys is just enough for me to be happy." I said and I just heard her sighed.
Sorry if I took so long. I am just busy with our performances, intermissions and exams…
Ruri signing off…
