Celeste

Lisbon.

I look at you, and I can't believe that you are finally here.
Thinking that I was so scared when I found out that I was pregnant. But life sometimes has a particular way of making things work out in the end. And, in the end, you became my special wedding surprise for your dad. I will always remember the look on his face when I told him with my eyes that you were on your way. I was scared that it would have been difficult for him. Especially when we found out that a baby girl was on her way home. But all the fears, all the insecurities just melt away the first time when could see you, the first time we could listen to your heartbeat. I know he's going to be the best father I could have ever hoped to find. He has built you such a beautiful house and the coziest of bedrooms. I know he's going to spend a lot of sleepless nights watching you sleep. He'll make sure that you'll be loved, that you'll be safe. And I suspect he's going to be the one buying you the most beautiful dolls, and with whom you'll have a lot of tea-parties, while I'll be the one who's going to teach you self-defence. You'll never have a boring day with me and your daddy.
I promise you that I will do my best to be a good mother. I've lost mine when I was so young, and I still needed her, so forgive me if I'll make some mistakes, I have to learn a lot. I wasn't expecting you, I honestly thought that I was never going to be a mother, that I had already been one for my brothers. But that's not quite the same thing. Now I understand my mother's words, when she used to say that a baby is like a delicate flower you have to help growing. You have to know how much you have to water it, how to protect it from the wind, from the rain. A mother is a like a gentle breeze, like a protective shadow. And when the flower is ready to blossom, mothers are there to support and love, even when the flower is strong enough to face the wind and the rain by itself.
I hope I will be good enough for you. You are the most precious treasure, and I wish my mother was here to see you but, I know she was right next to me the moment you were born, and she's right here as I'm looking at you, while we are looking at each other.
You're the gift I didn't know I wanted, you're the life I didn't know I wanted to live.
You're a gift sent from up above.

Celeste