AWAKE

EPOV

My lovely Bella lay there in pain. While she wasn't writhing with the pain in her body I knew, I knew because we had all been through this when we made the transition from human to vampire. I never wanted her to be a vampire, a soulless, bloodthirsty demon. Even though it wasn't something I had wanted it became necessary when Jacob and Paul had been fighting and Bella walked into the room at the moment Paul had phased.

I had already told her the wolves were dangerous, but she swore they weren't and that Jacob would protect her while she was on the reservation. Jacob did defend her, but it was too late. He couldn't undo what had happened to the love of my existence. He had to be pulled off Paul by Sam, Quil and Embry. After he phased back to human form he ran back to the house to find Bella had crawled to the phone in the hall. She had just begun entering in Carlisle's phone number when he found her. He completed the call begging my father to come save my mate treaty be damned.

He was sitting in the hall holding Bella thinking about what had happened. He couldn't bring himself to say it out loud. He knew if he kept thinking it over and over I would figure out what had happened. He didn't care that she would become his natural born enemy. I did. He didn't care to throw her soul away even though he sees us as the vilest and most disgusting creatures. He is a selfish creature though. He was willing to throw her soul away just to keep her here, alive or not.

It made me realize how selfish I had been, and that no matter what I would love her. He was only thinking of her as a friend, the lustful thoughts that usually surrounded Bella in his head were centered on the fact that she was leaving him, and it was at the hands, or paws rather, of his own kind. Yes I could love her still, I was better than Jacob, I would love her forever. Though she will have someone else's venom running through her veins, as Carlisle didn't believe I was controlled enough to stop myself after I started, I will still love her.

Alice says things are going to change around here. She won't allow me to see her visions though. She is going around singing "mmm bop" by Hanson in her head of all things. She knows I hate boy bands. That is why she uses them to block my mind reading abilities. It is a dirty little habit the family has picked up. It makes it very annoying when I am trying to find out what is going on. Either way I don't believe she knows everything that is coming because she keeps saying Bella's future is fuzzy, well not Bella herself, but what she is doing and who she is with.

Alice says she sees Bella being absolutely stunning. That makes me feel somewhat better; at least I know she will make it through the transition successfully. The time is approaching for Bella to wake up. I can't hear her mind, I was so hoping that I would be able to once she was like me.

Alice comes in, a little more subdued then she usually is, and tells me it is almost time for her to awaken. When I ask her what is wrong, as she has moved on to "Bye Bye Bye" by 'N sync, she simply tells me that she doesn't believe her and Bella will be close once the change is complete and she misses her already, but she sees Bella leaving soon. She stops then as Bella's finger twitches and her heart speeds up preparing for its final thud. Finally it comes and she opens those god awful red eyes. Ugh. But I could look past those. After all they would only last a few months, and I won't let her slip. I can see forever with her even though her blood no longer sings to me.

The rest of the family then joins us in my old room. This is where she should be the most comfortable when she wakes up. It was where she spent the most time as a human. I knew she was awake. I slowly reach my arm in her direction trying not to startle her, but she jumped and spun her back to the others, which is not something a newborn would normally do, and growled at me.

I realized she must believe that I hate her for what she had become. I slowly lower my arm and tell her that I still love her. "She is extremely confused, and is slightly afraid." Jasper tells me from across the room. Of course he would put his two cents in Mr. know it all about newborns. He was thinking how connected he feels towards my Bella. I let out a growl. It may not have been the best idea. It seemed to startle Bella. "What is going on?" Her voice sounded like bells. It was beautiful, just like her.

Jasper thought that his mate was the most beautiful creature in existence, and how he hadn't realized this before. I looked to him, and he was staring at my Bella. Stupid Idiot, he wants my mate. I lunge at him. Carlisle and Emmitt hold Bella so she doesn't get affected by my bloodlust and get hurt. Suddenly I go flying back into the wall, sending drywall crumbling down to the floor. I can't move. Then Jasper walked up to her and laid his hand on her arm. That was all it took. He knew in his mind and I knew also that she was protecting him from me. She was his mate not mine. I ran from the room. I had to get away, away from everyone.

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I am sorry it took so long. I am putting up another chapter as soon as I finish this. I had been asked to do Edward and Alice views. I had so much trouble with the Edward pov that I don't believe I am going to attempt an Alice pov. I still don't own these characters and all mistakes are mine as I don't have a beta.