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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; font-size: 18px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="9dea65fd4cbe60a893174925f8119fac"It was Friday afternoon and I was up in my room, just staring at the ceiling. I had met Steve when Ian, Lip, and I came in from the van. He seemed nice enough but I got the impression that he was hiding something from everyone but I couldn't quit put my finger on it. As long as he didn't hurt my family I was fine with that. I was happy that Lip and Ian had made up because as long as they were okay with each other I was fine too. I had meant what I had said when we were in the van. It didn't matter if everyone in my family was mad at me, as long as they were okay with each other I was fine too./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; font-size: 18px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="902b7a098c9ce240df8e3d1a3bd2a1bf"With the thought of my family hating me I started to cry and I walked over to my closet and got out my little black box. I was on my knees with my little black box. I didn't want to but I knew that I only deserved the worst, and I didn't know why my family and their friends were so nice to me. I didn't deserve such nice people in my life. Hell I didn't deserve even deserve my own life, but I knew that I couldn't end my life because then Fiona wouldn't have another income and everyone in the house needed that. /p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; font-size: 18px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="719063a87e5cb8fb3181e4c5037dd313"While I was in my depressing thoughts my hands moved on their own. Opening the box, taking out the blade, and sliding it across my wrist. I lost track of time but when I looked down all I could see was blood. I gasped and quickly put the blade and box away. Then I wrapped up my arm and stood up. /p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; font-size: 18px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="8580bd69949432b0387d3b2dc1d14fd9"My guess is that I stood up to quickly because everything around me started to spin. I got dizzy really fast and I felt myself start to sway. I think I had lost too much blood. After I tried to gain my balance again I started to feel light headed and I found it really hard to keep my eyes open. I could feel myself falling but I couldn't brace myself for the hard landing of the wooden floor in my room. When I was on the ground I found it almost impossible to keep my eyes open. Soon enough I lost all conciseness and fell into a world of blackness./p
