Author's note: It took longer than expected, but I've finally got this damn chapter written, typed, and posted. I started work right after school started, so I haven't had time (Damn those blasted envelopes). Take that:laughs maniacally: Okay, moving on. Thanks to all the reviews from this fic as well as Snape's Diary. I'll try not to disappoint you guys. Anyway, on with the fic. Standard disclaimers apply. James may be slightly out of character, but then we don't know too much about him, so I'm not sure... Also, thank you to Mimmy-sama for her complete awesomeness and for giving me a few ideas. And did I mention I hate envelopes?
Summary: Sister story to The Very Secret Diaries of Severus Snape. Lily just broke up with James and he's not sure what to do. He finds Snape's journal and discovers that Snape has feelings for him. Lily tells James that she wants him back, but James isn't sure anymore. What will James choose? Will he put all his past issues with Snape to the side, or will he go back to the girl who so coldly rejected him. Set in the 7th year of Hogwarts.
The Very Secret Diaries of James Potter
Chapter 2
Tuesday, September 20, 1978
She dumped me...
-James
Wednesday, September 21, 1978
I can't believe she dumped me! The nerve of that little wench! She didn't even give me a bloody reason. Lily just came up to me in the Great Hall during dinner last night looking like somebody had just thrown a dungbomb in her room. She glared at me for a moment than said in her dark, 'James you did something incredibly stupid, I'm really pissed off with you, and you will feel my wrath' voice that she thought we needed to see other people, than she stormed out of the Great Hall. I don't even know what I did. She didn't give me an explanation or an apology or ANYTHING. She just said it and left. What the hell is wrong with her?
-James
Saturday, September 24, 1978
She cheated on me. I can't believe Lily cheated on me. I talked to that Ravenclaw girl that she always hangs out with today during Charms. She told me everything. Apparently, she had seen the Zabini guy in the Three Broomsticks earlier in the summer. They started talking and after about an hour or two decided that they "enjoyed each other's company." They met every Thursday afternoon after that and got pretty friendly. According to Robin (I think that's her name... I don't know), they started falling for each other sometime during the first month. One thing led to another and they ended up in bed together. And now she might be pregnant, which explains all the mood swings.
I can't believe she did that. It's just not like her. It feels like somebody took a dagger and buried it in my heart, twisting it deeper inside only to rip it out again (See? I can be poetic every now and then). It hurts. She's trying to get me back. I'm not sure if I can do that... not after what I found out.
-James
Tuesday, September 27, 1978
Everyone's talking about me and Lily. Somebody spread some rumor that we broke up over a fight about house elves that we had had that morning. Not sure who cam up with that, but I currently love whoever did it. Zabini isn't saying anything about what actually happened. Now that I think about it, I don't think he's even been talking to Lily, which must be a major blow for her.
I'm still not sure if Lily's pregnant yet. Rilsin (turns out her name wasn't Robin after all) still hasn't gotten back to me on that. I almost hope that Lily is pregnant.
She is back to ignoring me, however, which might be a good thing at the moment. I'm really not sure if I want to get back together with her right now.
I missed the full moon excursion I planned with the guys. I haven't exactly been responsive as of late. Sirius and Remus are starting to worry about me. I'll be fine in a few days. I just need to get everything that's happened to register, I guess. I've always got the next full moon to look forward to. Planning for that should take my mind off everything. I need to stop obsessing over Lily and the break-up. I'm acting like a bloody woman.
-James
Monday, October 3, 1978
Lily had a total breakdown this morning (Yes, I realize I said I would stop mentioning Lily, but this needs to be written down for future blackmail purposes). She seemed fine when I first saw her this morning, but during breakfast an owl dropped a letter in front of her and all the color drained from her face. I'm assuming whatever it said was bad since the moment she finished reading it, she burst into tears. Then later, after Transfiguration, I saw her in the hall talking to Zabini. She was bawling again and he just had this look of disgust all over his features (just like a Slytherin). I couldn't hear what they were saying, but after Lily reached out for him, Zabini jerked away, said something I still couldn't hear, and stalked off. Now I'm wondering what the hell happened...
Wait a minute hold on...
I just got an owl from Rilsin. Lily's going to have a baby.
-James
A/N: Woot! As always reviews are greatly appreciated, whether they be praise or flames. Just be honest. I'll try to have the next chapter finished by next Monday. Dasvidania (no idea if I spelled that right…).
