Well here it is!! Sorry I took so long to write it. I had writers block and school was crazy. But I finally had some time to write and the block is now gone. Well I hope you like it!!
Six Years Later- Present
"Suze! Come on, we're going to be late for dinner! We can't keep the parentals waiting!" Paul screamed to me from the living room of my apartment.
If you're confused, let me fill you in. About two years ago, I agreed to go on one date with Paul Slater. He kept asking and asking and I figured that by saying yes I'd get him to shut up. Well, I surprised myself by actually having a great time. We went to dinner, then a movie, and then he took me for a walk. We talked and got to know each other again. So after that, one date turned into two, then three, and so on.
We became a couple and I became happy again. He made me smile and I loved his company. Paul may have been a jerk in high school yes its true. But, now he's better. Not perfect, but he's improved. That's why I agreed to marry him. The only thing I refuse to do is move in with him. Not until we're married. Right now I want my space.
Yes, I can tell you're shocked. Well, over these long years I've grown to love him. He's good to me and I couldn't ask for anything better in my life. So, that's all you missed. I hope you're caught up now.
After checking my make- up in the mirror one last time I flew down the stairs.
"Hey! Sorry, about that. I had to make sure I looked okay," I said blushing a little.
Paul laughed and smiled at me, "Suze, you always look great," he said giving me a light kiss on the mouth. "You're beautiful. Now we can't keep our parents waiting. Let's go."
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Once dinner with Paul's parents and my parents was over, we went back to my place for coffee. After pouring hot coffee into two mugs, I took them into the living room where Paul was sitting on the couch. I set mine down on the table and handed him his.
"Thanks babe," he said putting an arm around me as I sat down next to him.
"Sure. So do you think our parents were mad when we told them the wedding date was changed?" I asked sipping the coffee. We were supposed to have it a year from now, but we both didn't want to wait so its now in a month. Paul, I know just wanted to get the wedding part over so we could go on our honeymoon… do I need explain the rest there? As for me, I just want to be married already. This whole planning the wedding thing and picking put center pieces and stuff just stresses me out.
Paul looked at me. "Probably. But hey its our wedding not there's. So, we had the right to change it if we wanted to. Stop worrying your little head off."
I smiled at him and leaned in to kiss him. After I pulled away, he drew me back in kissed me hard on the lips. Paul is definitely a great kisser I will admit that. As soon as our lips crashed, I completely forgot all of my worries. I couldn't help but let out a sigh.
Paul smiled into the kiss and pulled me closer, snaking his arms around my back. I brought him closer, my fingers going through his soft hair. He leaned in more making me fall backwards into the couch, and him on top of me. As he started to deepen the kiss more, I started to think back to six years ago. The night Jesse…disappeared. The only other person to kiss me like this was Jesse and now kissing Paul the same way just felt……odd. Don't get me wrong, it was great but I just felt, weird about it. Almost like I was cheating on Jesse or something. Even though, I know that he's gone.
I suddenly broke away from Paul and pushed him upward so we were both sitting on the couch again.
"What's wrong?" Paul asked a little breathless with a confused look on his face.
"Nothing, its just… getting late and I have to get to bed," I replied back with the quickest thing I could think of.
Paul looked at me again a little disappointed and sighed. "Okay. Well then I better get going." I could only give him a nod. "Yeah," I said quietly.
I lead him to the door. "Goodnight," I said to him and tried to smile.
Paul's eyes bored into mine. "Goodnight babe. See you tomorrow. I love you." He leaned in once more and brushed his lips lightly on mine.
"I love you too," I said back and waved as he got into his car and left.
After Paul pulled away, I went upstairs and took a long hot shower to calm my nerves down a little. Afterwards, I put on my PJs and went into my bedroom. But, before I laid down though, I reached under my pillow and pulled out a small photograph. It was the one of Jesse that I 'borrowed' from the historical center all those years back.
Looking at it made a few tears slip from my eyes. Remember earlier when I told you that I was happy again? Well I sort of lied. Yes, I'm happy that I'm marrying Paul. But, there's one thing that I can't get over. That's Jesse. I try everyday not to think of him, but know matter how hard I try, I can't seem to get him out of my head. I know it doesn't help that I still keep the picture under my pillow. But, by doing this, I feel close to him… like he's here next to me.
I continue to look at the picture a few more minutes. Before I put it back under my pillow I quietly whisper, "I love you Jesse. Forever and always."
As a put the picture back and laid down in bed I could have sworn I heard the word 'querida' fill the room.
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