I stay in the room crying. I'm not crying because I think Finn is gonna die, I'm crying because it's so hard. Life is so hard. Why can't it ever be easy? Just for one day. Thats all I want. One day without worry about one of the most important people in my life being a murderer. One day without someone trying to kill me. Thats all I want. Just little things. I just sit there crying until I can't cry anymore. Even then I still make all the crying noises, I still feel like I'm crying. The only difference is I can't. I just can't.
"Clarke?" Bellamy stands at the door.
I wipe my wet cheeks "Yeah."
He walks over "May I sit?" Bellamy gestures to the floor.
"Sure," I sigh "What do you want Belllamy?"
"To do a good deed." Bellamy smiles.
"I'm not in th mood Bellamy. What do you want?" I ask again.
"When Finn and Raven broke up and you and Finn were captured by Grounders, Raven came to me. I helped her get over Finn. I'm not entirely sure it worked but I can do the same for you." Bellamy says.
"What makes you think I want to get over Finn?" I ask.
"You should," Bellamy replies.
"I don't want to get over him. But out of curiousity what did you do?"
"I screwed her," Bellamy bites his lip.
It takes me a few seconds to fully register what just happened. But when it does I'm outraged "Did you seriously just offer to screw me?" I glare at him.
"I didn't mean it like that." Bellamy sighs.
"What other way could you mean?" I ask shocked.
"Don't you get it? I love you Clarke!" Bellamy shouts.
My face falls "Bellamy. . ."
"Don't say anything. It's obvious you don't feel the same." Bellamy stands and leaves. I put my head back and sigh. What have I done?
