Nico was alone. Alone in the universe, as he thought. No one wanted him, and he knew that. Sitting in this darkness, he became lost in thought about his sister. It didn't even occur to him that he was crying. Wiping tears back, he looked over to the side of his bed. Surprisingly, a small notebook was sitting on the ground. He hadn't remembered it being there before.
Curiously, he reached down and picked up the notebook. Flipping through the pages, he saw one page that was filled. The first line read, "Dear Nico."
His heart stopped when his eyes wandered to the bottom of the paper read "Sincerely Bianca."
"Oh gods." He groaned. His hands were sweating, his head was dizzy. He read thoroughly through the letter. When he was done, he knew what he had to do. Flipping to a clean page, he began to write.
Bianca,
There's another world inside of me that no one may never see. There's secrets in this life that I just can't hide. Somewhere in this darkness, I know for a fact that there's a light that I can't find. Maybe it's too far away... Or perhaps I'm just blind...
Maybe I am just blind...
Bianca, I will hold on to you when your here, or at least try. I will always love you and trust you. You used to hold me when I was scared, but you can't do that anymore. Now that I'm here, I will make that promise to love you when you're gone. Everything I am, and have become, and everything we both need will become. I want be the one you wanted me to be, but I always question that. I will never ever ever let you down. But even if I did, I'd give up everything If only for you.
I hold on to what is here. I love what is always wrong. I know you can't hold me, even when I'm scared, or broken. I know you won't always be here, so I will love you while you're gone.
I will love you while your gone...
I'm sure not even the strongest x-ray can't see under my skin as you do. Trust that I won't tell them a single thing that I can't tell you.
Roaming through this cold, horrible, darkness, I'm alive but I am ever so alone. Part of me is fighting this treachery, but because of you...part of me is gone, and I know you know that.
Sometimes, I question how you can hold me when you're not here, or still love me when I've got it all wrong. I want you to be here to hold me when I'm scared. How can I love you when you're gone. Everything I am and what I stand for is nothing. Everything you've needed hasn't been there. I desperatley want to be the one you always planned for me to be. I'll never let you down, atleast I'll try not to. I'd give up everything If only for your presence and life.
Please, I want you to hold me when you're here, and make me right when I'm wrong. You can't hold me when I'm scared, and I always am.
You won't always be there. I love you, I want you back. I will always love you when you're gone. Am I mad at you?
Or maybe I'm just blind...
You're not here. Nobody is. It's just me. You would always have been there, I know you would. I know you Love me, even when I make mistakes. Why am I scared? Why are you gone? I promise to Hades, I'll do anything. I'll be the one you want me to be, Bianca. I will never let you down, just so you can be here, holding me. Not away, but here, with me. Bianca, please still love me while you're gone.
Love me while you're gone...
Love me while you're gone
While you're Gone
While you're Gone
While you're Gone.
Your Brother,
Nico
The pen dropped. Nico felt numb, but he didn't know why.
He knew what he needed to do. Closing the notebook, he shoved it under the bed. Surely it would not be there the next morning. When Nico lay back down to sleep, he was no longer sad, or angry. He was confident about something. But he didn't know what.
A/N- Kay, I know that was quick, but I had to get the idea out of my head! XD. I may add another chapter or two. If you have any suggestions for songs, please tell me. Review plz!
-Rainy
