A/N: Thanks to all those who have read so far! Even if you haven't commented, I still feel great that there are people out there that want to read BBRae stories.
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"Azarath Metrion Zinthos, Azarath Metrion Zinthos," Raven muttered as she hovered above her bed, her legs twisted into a lotus like position, "Azarath Metrion Zinthos."
If you were to ask the half demon why she looked upset as she meditated in that moment, she would have stubbornly denied it. But the truth was, she was upset; she had never meant to hurt her friend's feelings, but she had done it, and it was something that she was starting to really regret.
"Azarath Metrion Zinthos," Raven muttered, before sighing and letting herself land on her bed softly. Her emotions weren't cooperating and definitely making her attempts at mediation fail. Grabbing her meditation mirror, Raven uttered her mantra once again, and was sucked into said mirror.
Upon landing on a floating rock that was sitting in the middle of a large field of floating rock platforms, Raven started walking forwards, only slightly paying attention to the path in front of her, so as not to fall off.
If Cyborg was there with her, he would have told you that they were still in Titan's Tower, but they weren't at the same time; and that was because Raven was walking along a path within her mind, a place she called Nevermore. It was here that she would often come to discuss things with her emotions or to straighten them out herself.
Not that it would always work.
As Raven walked, she came across a large arch. Not even looking at it, Raven passed underneath it, and found herself within a large field with long grass and a forest nearby. She knew this to be Happy's domain, and kept her guard up, not wanting to be surprised by her pink emotion's vice like grip that could easily, match one of Starfire's.
"Rae Rae!" Said emotion called out as she collided with half demon, "you came!"
"Well it was either that, or wait for my powers to destroy something or someone," Raven reburked.
"Not that that would happen if you stopped being afraid," a yellow clad version of Raven said as she appeared wearing her trademark glasses, and a green book under her arm, "something Beastboy also struggles with."
"What are you talking about Knowledge?" Raven asked.
"What she's trying to say, girl, is that you need to stop being scared of who you are," a green clad Emoticlone answered for her yellow clad sister, "ya need to let ya friends help ya. You understand?"
"But what if we hurt B...Beast...Beastboy?" A grey clad emotion asked, "What if he hates us because of who we are?"
"Oh, Timid, there's no need to fret," Happy exclaimed, hugging the hunched emotion, "I reckon he loves us, right Love."
Upon hearing no answer, Happy looked around behind herself, but couldn't find the purple clad emotion. Looking towards Knowledge, Raven raised her eyebrow questionably.
Sighing softly to herself, Knowledge pulled out the green book that was under her arm, and asked, "Do you know what this is, Raven?"
Raven looked closely at the book in the yellow emotion's outstretched hands, and nodded her head slowly, saying, "isn't that the book that contains all of my memories of Beastboy?"
"That's what I thought when I first saw it," Knowledge stated, nodding her head as she spoke, "but then I opened it, and..."
Opening the book as to prove her point, Knowledge turned the book so that it was facing away from her. Raven couldn't respond to what she saw, nor could any of her Emoticlones.
"It's empty?" Brave asked.
"So it is," Rude answered the green cloaked Raven, "sweet observation skills greeny."
"We haven't forgotten about him have we?" Timid asked, pulling her head in between her shoulders.
"Far from it," Knowledge explained, "rather, I think an emotion has gone through the books of memories that I have and replaced Beastboy's with this one. And I have a fair idea of who that emotion is..."
Love was sitting cross legged in a field of long grass reading from a largish book when Raven found her. Not that it was very hard to find the purple cloaked emotion.
"I think you have something, that doesn't belong to you," Raven stated bluntly, "mind telling me why?"
"Do I have to?" was the quiet reply, "cause to me it's pretty obvious."
Raven stood silently as she processed this information. Love was a byproduct of Affection, but wasn't at the same time, instead would act like said emotion when interacting with Raven's other emotions.
"Why don't I tell you?" Love asked, bring Raven out of her quiet musings, "we're attracted to Beastboy."
Raven was silent for a moment as she thought this information through. Before Love realised what was happening, Raven had collapsed on to her side, facing away from Love. She was muttering something, but her purple cloaked emotion couldn't hear her properly.
"What was that?" Love asked curiously, as Raven started to shake ever so slightly.
"I said, how long?" Raven whispered, almost afraid of the answer.
"Since the whole Malchior incident," Raven's emotion explained, "maybe even before that. I know though that we definitely think of him as something more than just an annoying nuisance."
"God," Raven muttered, "I don't feel so amazing. I can't believe I said all that stuff about Beastboy. He must think I hate him."
"You did what you did out of love, and fear that he might start ignoring you."
"Isn't that what I've always wanted though?" Raven demanded, clenching her fists tightly together.
"To start with yes, you just wanted to be left alone," Love explained, "but eventually you grew accustomed BB always bugging you about one thing or another. He has never given up on us, always wanting to find out more about you."
The regret and guilt that was slowly settling in the base of Raven's stomach had suddenly become too much for the half demon, and she grabbed hold of Love's shoulders and did a very un-Raven like thing; she hugged her emotion. And it wasn't the kind of awkward hug that Starfire would receive, but rather was more like the hug that she gave Beastboy after the whole Malchior incident.
"What do I do now?" Raven cried helplessly into Love's shoulder, " if I go to him now, he'll think that I'm trying to make him feel worse than he already is."
"Be honest with him," Love replied comfortingly, "that's all he needs at the moment; someone that he can turn to for help."
Raven nodded her head slowly, before letting Love go. She turned away from the Emoticlone and walked off into the distance, disappearing soon after.
"Besides, you'll feel much better, and more in control, when you stop fighting me."
A shiver ran it's way up Raven's spine as she returned to her body as she unfolded her legs from their lotus position. It was like her empathic powers were trying to tell her something was seriously wrong. Raven shrugged it off deciding that she would try to talk to Beastboy first, then see what was causing the uncomfortable feeling.
Little did she know that Beastboy was the cause of the feeling.
As Raven made her way down to Beastboy's room, she could make or the sound of a heavy metal band through the thick walls of the Tower and Raven made the assumption that the music was coming from Cyborg's room. When Raven got to Beastboy's room, she raised her hand to knock and then hesitated.
"What if he doesn't want to see me?" Raven asked herself, a hint of fear in her voice.
She shook her head, and knocked on the door. When no answer came, she knocked again, this time with some more force behind her fist.
Again nobody answered.
"Beastboy?" Raven called out, "it's me, Raven. I just wanted to talk about earlier."
The only thing to answer Raven was silence.
"Beastboy, I know what I said was uncalled for," Raven started matter of factly, "and I just wanted to say sorry and make sure you were okay."
When silence was her only answer once again, Raven called her teammate's name once again, before fearing the worst.
"Beastboy?" Raven asked timidly, "if you're there, please just answer me."
When no answer was forthcoming, Raven used her powers to create a portal through Beastboy's door and into his room. What she found when she emerge was not what she expected. Beastboy lay on his floor, cradling a picture frame in one hand, while a knife lay discarded near his other hand, which was bleeding heavily from several cuts.
"BEASTBOY!" Raven exclaimed.
A/N:Please don't be a hater; comment with what you think :) I promise you'll make my day!
Yours Truly
Eldrid Ragnarok
