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Not Meant to Love
By SOSNoel
Chapter 2
The sky was crystal clear and a beautiful shade of blue. I took a few minutes to admire the beauty of the day. It made me feel happier. Then, my mind started drifting to the past. I would try to smile always; it was so easy to then.
I squinted at the roof for a moment. I didn't dare blink until it became unbearable to keep my eyes open. For a minute, for one measly minute, I had thought I saw something. A someone, if you wish for me to be more precise. It was a handsome young man. He had brown hair and beautiful blue eyes, ones that used to make me melt. He gazed at me with grief and longing. His eyes said, "It has been too long. I miss you."
I merely sighed at the thought of the illusion. Was I really becoming this pathetic? I dream about Night everyday, think of his smile every minute, fantasize of a happy ending each passing day until I finally achieve insanity.
Then, I decided something. I didn't care. I didn't care if I was tortured, if I couldn't move on. I had decided that he was my soul mate, even though he was only an invention to please lonely and needy women.
I did realize this was a foolish choice of mine. Soushi had already told me long ago, but I still have my stubborn determination. I could hear my parents telling me that I'm young. Mom would tell me that I'll get over Night, while Dad will ask questions about this man who I'm pining after.
All I wanted to feel was Night by my side. He would see his ring and would know that I'm feeling upset. Night would rush to my side and pull me into his strong, muscular arms. He wouldn't know what was wrong but comfort me anyways.
I tried imagining it until I made myself believe he was there. I put myself in the blind fantasy that he's not dead; he's right there holding me tightly. I put my hands into the position that it would be touching him. I let my tears fall as though we were alone at home; not here in this hell with conniving bitches like Mei, my ex-best friend who almost stole every boy I've ever liked.
Everything felt so real. I could hear Night whispering small comforts, telling me that he would always be there to protect me. I imagined his eyes were filled with grief, as it always was when he felt I wasn't okay. He held me tenderly, and I would relax until I was at peace.
"Riiko!" My name rang out clearly, tearing me apart from my day dream. I slowly floated back to consciousness and the reality that came with it. Shocked, I remembered all my thoughts of melancholy and sorrow. All of life's harshness and pain were reawakened. My tears started flowing more quickly and deeply dampened my uniform.
Looking toward the voice, I saw Soushi. His expression was one of shock and confusion. Urging myself to stop weeping, I quickly wiped my tears. I was determined to suffer without the presence of anyone, especially Soushi. That was my vow.
Gazing again at my childhood friend, I slowly became more and more frightened. He was turning pale, and I had a faint reason why. Before fainting, he whispered something that puzzled me extremely. It did not confirm my reason but enhanced my worries.
"Tenjou."
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