I hate you!
As Phil woke me up in his pyjamas he contemplated skipping school today. He of course hadn't done his homework, but was considered a perfect student, even though he done badly in exams, there was no reason for him to be considered a good student, if anybody was a perfect student, it was Dan. Straight A's. Even though he was strongly against the idea of going to that hell hole, he couldn't miss another lesson, or his mother would be angrier than last time he got a warning and was suspended. But Phil usually wouldn't care about stuff like that. But this time he did. He wouldn't go as far as to say he would cry if he did get a punishment, but he didn't want it.
As Phil walked to school he noticed Mark Fischbach was driving in his sports car alone, without Jack, which was surprising, and reminded himself that he had to go get Dan. As he knocked on the door, he thought about maybe he didn't want to do this, maybe he would actually tell Dan his feelings, but Phil wasn't like that, because Phil wasn't the type to do that. "Hey Phil!" The upbeat teenager stayed as he opened his door and walked out. They were now officially a 'fake-couple' whatever that meant. He noticed Jack walking to school alone, as he lived on the same street as Dan, he seemed really sad, but Phil didn't try to console the usually energetic and positive Irishman, because Phil wasn't like that, he didn't usually notice when things went horribly wrong, maybe that's why his previous relationship flopped, but he noticed then that he lied to himself by promising himself no more relationships."Hey," a rather depressing tone of voice said to Phil and Dan,"Hey Jack, what's wrong?" Phil heard Dan ask the green haired fifteen year old but wasn't really paying enough attention to the conversation the boy was having with his 'boyfriend',
"Okay, bye!" He heard Dan end the conversation as the walked into the gates of the school and saw Jack make his way, instead of his boyfriend, towards Felix, and saw him collapse into his arms, but instead of looking towards Jack's problem, he was looking at how Dan had interlocked their hands, to anybody who didn't attend last night's party, or was simply too drunk to remember, they were a couple, and even though they were fake, and wouldn't be making out randomly, they were a couple. And Phil failed to notice that, because he tried to distance himself away from Dan, as much as possible but for them still to be considered a couple.
He had first period science with Bob Muyskens, he wasn't particularly good friends with the guy, but they got along, but they probably wouldn't like Phil if he knew what he had done,"Phil Lester?" He heard Mr McLaughlin call his name, he didn't like him at all, he favoured Rhett and Link above every other student because he was Rhett's dad,"Here," Phil lazily called out when Mr McLaughlin called his name, even though he was super nice, he didn't like him,"Hey, do you know what happened to Jack?" He asked Bob, as they sat together,"I'm not sure, I'll ask Mark at recess," Bob whispered back to Phil, he nodded and turned back towards the interactive board, on which there was a detailed diagram of a nerve cell, and he proceeded to copy what it said into his notebook, in which he never drew in, even though half the time he was supposed to have a 'detailed diagram' of nerve endings.
At lunch he sat with Dan at his table with one of his best friends, Pj, but Phil didn't care for his friends, he always lied to himself when it came to that sort of thing, that's why he was surprised when a surprisingly quiet Irishman asked to sit, there were tear stains all over his cheeks, he seemed devastated, and Phil thought he knew what had happened, as Jack seemed traumatised,
"I-I came t-to say I-I'm moving s-schools," he said then left the table, he seemed so happy yesterday at the party, Phil thought to himself, Dan then leant over to Phil,"Hey, did Jack tell you what happened," he whispered to Phil, he immediately shook his head, as he had no idea,
"Mark f*cking Fischbach, that's what happened," he said the name bitterly, and Phil wondered what the teen had done to Jack, but Phil decided that he didn't care, because Phil doesn't care, at least that's what Phil told himself, when in reality he cared, he cared a lot, and that's why Phil will never stop being himself, being a 'liar' because he lied to himself without even knowing, and he couldn't stop.
But Phil didn't care, he knew that he shouldn't care, but he couldn't help being curious what Mark 'f*cking' Fischbach had done, he knew that now lots of people were calling him that, because when they saw Jack this morning, Phil knew that they could guess that it had something to do with Mark, but did Phil do anything, considering Jack was one of his boyfriends closest friends, but he didn't care, but he did care, even if he didn't show it, because he thought that he didn't need to, because at the moment, many of Jack's friends were confronting him, including Felix, Jack's best friend, Jack had many friends, but only one really close one, and of course Mark 'f*cking' Fischbach, but something serious must have happened if he was moving schools. But Phillip Lester didn't want to be included in the commotion that followed that drama.
Because Phil didn't care. And that was the truth. But it wasn't Phil did care, and he did want to find out why Jack had been like that, and why he kept his hood up all day, and at that moment Phil noticed that he did care, and he had been lying to himself.
"Do you wanna go somewhere else?" He heard another British accent, other than his own, ask him,"No," he answered truthfully, he didn't want to go with the teen that he loved but didn't show it, and lied to himself about it,"Why not?" He saw Dan ask him, his face showed confusion, but his eyes showed frustration and love,"Because I don't want to go! I hate you! I've always hated you!" Phil shouted at the sixteen year old in front of him, he knew no one could here him because of how loud the commotion at the other side of the cafeteria was, he saw tears in his boyfriends eyes and heard him say one last word before storming of, "Fine," Phil was left by himself as Pj had left earlier, he saw Jack sitting by himself at a table. Phil decided that it was for the best, walking towards his next class which he had with Jack.
