A/N: I'm experimenting with the writing style atm. Right now, I have Lily's inner self in italics. Feel free to let me know what you think!

Chapter 2: Sub-conscience Conversations.

The owls are finally over! I'm fairly confident I did well, but I'm not going to think of anything OWL-related for the rest of the day!

I'm currently sitting in my favorite chair by the fire in the common room 'reading.' If anyone cared to observe me closely, they'd realize I'm not actually looking at the page. Just absently turning the page every so often with my eyes glazed over.

James. James Potter. Why did I call him James in my head?! As I'm reflecting on the past couple years, an image of James laughing suddenly comes the front of my mind. He has such a nice smile. Wait... what the hell?

This again? Why does this keep happening? Every time I remember one of the pranks he pulled, that I hexed him for afterwords, I picture how his eyes crinkle from smiling so much as he laughs at his success. Whenever he pulled an extravagant gesture to entice me on a date, I see his mesmerizing eyes.

Mesmerizing? Did I really…well, they are a pretty hazel. Browns and greens blended with a ring of light gold right around the irises. Oh Merlin. I didn't realize I looked at his eyes so much.

Similar memories and thoughts plagued me as I sat by the fire, as I idly flip through the pages of Pride and Prejudice. Before I knew what was happening, the voice in my head whispered, You like James Potter.

Wait a minute, I do NOT like Potter. Wasn't that reason I hexed him constantly over the years?

Just because you hexed him all the time doesn't mean you don't like him.

But I hardly know him! How can I possibly like him.

Oh? And how well did you know Amos before agreeing to go on a date with him?

That's…different. He doesn't hex people for fun! He never mocked or pranked me either!

Please. James hasn't pranked you in 2 years and only mocked you when you defended Snape. Which was the right action at the time, but a waste of energy in the end.

Yes I know that. Can we not talk about Snape?

Yes. Sorry. Anyways, you do like James. But you want him to grow up a little so you can love him.

…Do you hear yourself. Me, Lily Evans love James Potter? Not going to happen!

…For now. Look, just focus on fixing the relationship you currently have with him. The idea was to become friends right?

Yeup! I really think the talk went over well the other day. It was so great to have an actual conversation for once! Even if he didn't talk much...

…Nope. I'm not going to comment on the amount enthusiasm you had right there over one conversation. You think about why you want to be friends with James later; Alice and Emmy are was walking over to you.

This is not over, whoever you are.

I'm you, smart one. We have all night for you to see sense. Now Pay Attention!

"Lily! What are you doing there reading! Haven't you had enough books for at least the rest of the school year?"

I laugh, "Emmy, tomorrow's the end of term feast. But you have a fair point; I shall not pick up another novel until the train ride home!"

"Please Lily. You bring a book every where you go."

"…The rest of the night?"

"That works!" Alice said before Emmy could say anything else. "So Lily, can you tell us what happened between you and Potter?"

"Yea, because we've been hearing the craziest stories…"

"Emmy, stop exaggerating. They aren't that crazy! But we're your friends Lily! Can't you tell us!" Alice said batting her eyes. Oh please, the eye batting was hardly necessary.

"Alright alright!" I said laughing. "I didn't mean to exclude you guys. But as I told the Groupie (that's what the 3 of us call the Marauders. They aren't in the know.) I'm reevaluating where my real friends are."

"And we were in doubt!" Emmy mocked cried.

"Emmy don't interrupt if you want to know!" I huffed, folding my arms across my chest. Alice smacked her.

"Oi, Alice that hurt! But I got it, no interruptions."

Lily grinned. "Good. Now as I was saying before I was so rudely interrupted." I winked at Emmy who just rolled her eyes, "I was about to say that I never mentioned it to you guys because I was asleep by the time you guys came to the dorms that night and we've had the rest of the OWLS to finish. Honestly, all I said was I'm sorry for being so harsh to him while defending me and told him why I had been friends with Snape. Clearly since Snape and I are no longer friends, maybe Potter won't be so eager to hex him."

"Lily, what planet are you on again? Potter not hex Snape?" Emmy snorted.

"Well, Emmy to be fair, James hasn't approached Snape since Lily talked to him. Maybe he was just jealous of Snape like we thought." Alice reasoned. She always was a voice of reason.

"Well, I'm actually waiting for Potter to talk to me again." I admit. Cringing a little at their impeding shouts. "Wait!" I quickly cast muffliato around us, cursing mentally. I should have done that earlier. "Ok. You're free to shout now." I grin with mock innocence.

"YOURE WHAT?!" Wow. Can I even hear anymore? "You like him!" Yep. I can still hear.

"Guys, you both know he hexed and pranked people for fun, and when he wasn't doing that he was asking me on a date. How can I 'like' a someone I don't really know?"

"So you want to get to know him?" Alice threw me a curious look. She was always more perceptive to how I was feeling/thinking.

"Yes. After all, if I was wrong about Snape maybe I misjudged Potter. I did tell him to grow up though." I smirked, but slightly hopeful that I might be friends, actually friends, with all the carefree marauders. I mean really, there's no way to be friends with James and not be friends with the rest of the Groupie. He's like, the unofficial leader.

"Well now that you've finally told us what happened, you'll get a kick out of what everyone else said happened!" Emmy laughed. I scowled slightly. Alice clapped her hands and giggled at my expression. And that's how we spent the rest of evening. Swapping stories and laughing.