pairing: one-sided Silena x Beckendorf
prompt: song- Crave You ft. Giselle by Flight Facilities
- peaches
Why can't you want me like the other boys do? They stare at me, while I stare at you.
Silena knew she had it all. Money, good looks, a lavish lifestyle, and a group of doting, devoted girls. As she swayed and sashayed her way around the camp's lake, flipping her long brown hair as she passed the nymphs who sighed with jealousy, she wrinkled her nose in thought.
If she had all this, why was she so miserable? There was only one answer: him.
Why didn't he look at her the way other boys do? Was she not pretty enough? No. That was just laughable. She's the daughter of Aphrodite, for love's sake! So what was wrong?
Pausing before she fully made her rounds (doing her prefectorial duty, of course), she decided not to return to the cabin. The lake looked inviting enough with the sun heading down, sending spirals of ombre orange swirling in the water. Settling herself down by a bunch of smooth rocks, she sat in silence, listening to the soothing swish of the lake shore reaching to kiss the sand at her feet. A twinkle in the ripples caught her gaze and soon she found herself staring at her reflection.
There's nothing wrong, her mind repeated sternly back at her. He just had his mind on another girl. Silena just wasn't his type.
And those thoughts made the sharp pang in her chest pulsate even harder, as if her heart was delicate glass being shattered on cold marble tiles.
A rustling from the bushes beside her jostled her, and her hand instinctively unsheathed her sword from her belt. She whirled it in a neat arc to point it at the intruder. Dark brown eyes stared back at her under dark chocolate brown curls and the caramel skin over his Adam's apple bobbed up and down with apprehensiveness. "Hey."
Silena felt the cool flood of relief wash over her, then a startling zap of pain in her chest as she stared at him. Breaking eye contact and sheathing her sword, she settled down again. "Beckendorf," she greeted, and closed her eyes to avoid looking back at him.
"Beckendorf? One day later and it's Beckendorf?" His voice rumbled in surprise and hurt coloured his tone. "Silena," he continued slowly. "You've been avoiding me all day."
She breathed in and out, begging her heart to calm itself. Carefully, she moved her hand to the ground to grab some gravel, slowly letting its coarse grains slip through her fingers. They were intercepted by a much larger, warmer hand with rough callouses. He intertwined their fingers. "You know why, Ch-"
"No, I don't."
Her eyes fluttered open to find Beckendorf almost nose to nose with her. "If you want something…" he breathed, and she felt her whole soul shiver in excitement at their close proximity. "Just say it."
I want you. I want you to want me, like I want you.
No. She knew his heart belonged to someone else and as the daughter of Aphrodite, she would see that his special girl received all the love she could possibly have. And for him… all the love he deserved. Who was Silena to be selfish and not work with the gift she had? Who was she to turn her back on her mother's teachings?
With a heavy heart, she grasped his hand with both of her own, and looked him in the eye. "No, Charlie, I have all that I want."
Why can't I keep you safe as my own?
One moment I have you the next you're gone
Rehearsed steps on an empty stage
The boy's got my heart in a silver cage
Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I… crave you.
