Cruising down the street with the windows down, Brian contemplated.
"What am I doing?"
You see, Brian is not who the gang thinks he is. He is not Brian Spliner-the name he gave Dominic Toretto and his family. He is actually Brian O'Conner-Officer Brain O'Conner to be exact. Why did he lie then? Well Brian is undercover. He is trying to find out who is hi-jacking the trucks. He got Officers Tanner and Bilkins on his case to get Dom's gang. However, Brain doesn't want to do it. For the past few week Dom and his gang have become his family. Brian doesn't know have parents nor siblings. His dad was abusive and is in jail, while his mom was an alcoholic and druggie who was only concerned finding the next fix. To him, Vince is the older and scary brother, Leon is the next big brother, Jesse is his little brother whom he can talk hours with, Letty is the older sister with attitude and protective streak, Mia is another sister to him but who he has to lie to and pretend to like for his "job," and Dom...Dom is an enigma. To him, Dom is his everything. He is like a fortress of strength. When he is with Dom, it's as if nothing can go wrong.
"I don't want to do this anymore. I shouldn't have accepted this from the start. If they find out I will lose the only family I know. But if I don't do this, I will lose a place where I, at first, thought I belonged with. How can I tell Tanner that I give up? What will Dom do if he finds out? I know for certain Vince might beat me up cause he is so protective of the family. Jesse will be so disappointed. Should I or should I not? Either way I go by it, I will lose. I will lose something precious. I will be nothing again. Just nothing where no where to go."
Thinking all this, Brian does not realize he is being followed. He just keeps on driving and thinking. Feeling lower than dirt and wishing someone just takes him out of his misery, Brian comes to an understanding.
"No matter what, I can't do anything right. I can't have a family properly. I can't do my job properly. I can't even lie properly. I got too close to the case and I cannot let go. They have become everything to me. This is it for me."
Author's Note: Sorry for the short chapter. I wrote this chapter many times and this one was the best out of 5 different ones. Next chapter will be longer and will feature Dom and where Brian is heading. Reviews, critiques, and suggestions welcome! :)
