This is my new fic. I hope you enjoy.

Disclaimer: If I owned anything relating to Grey's, I wouldn't be worrying about what college I'm going to or what I'm going to do with my life, I'd be living in luxury with Paddy by my side. That said, don't sue me.

He loves me. Every time he hits me, I'm forced to remind myself of that. He's the one person that has ever loved me. My mother absolutely despises me and I was a young child the last time I saw my father. So I'm forgiving him… he loves me.

"Mer baby, I'm sorry. I just, you need to stop talking to other guys. You know it pisses me off, babe," Adam said a little harsher than I needed. Tears came to my eyes again, but I held them back.

"I know… I'll stop, I promise," I manage to get out. He wrapped his arms around me and once again, I pretended like everything was perfectly fine.

"I love you," he breathes as he kisses me forehead gently.

"Yeah, you too," I can't even say it. Truth is, I never loved him. He makes me sick to my stomach. But he loves me and that's all that matters.

I finally relax into him and fall asleep there. He must have fallen asleep too because when I woke up, his head was resting on top of mine and his breathing was even. I gently removed myself from his grasp and made my way to the bathroom upstairs. Looking in the mirror, I sigh. The damage done this time would be hard to hide. My eye was surrounded by black and blue bruises, a small gash across my forehead. I've learned to ignore the physical pain of it all; it goes away a lot easier. I grab a cloth and soak it in warm water. It burns as I gently rub off the dry blood and realize the gash is deeper than I expected. If I were smart, I'd go get stitches. Instead, I walk down to the kitchen and grab an ice pack. Holding it to my eye, the pain is eventually numbed away and the swelling has gone down to a minimal extent.

I don't know how nobody has noticed the things he does to me. Our relationship wasn't always like this. In the beginning, I truly believed I was the luckiest girl alive; I was dating Adam Malone, one of the most popular guys in school. Our relationship was perfect. Then one day, his mom had a stroke and died. I tried to comfort him but he pushed me away and became darker than I secretly was. A couple weeks later, everything was back to normal. Then one day, I brought up the fact I hated my mom was never around and consequently, got slapped in the face. He apologized and that was that. A few days later, I complained about my mother forgetting my birthday and he punched me. Everyday since then, it's gotten worse. I keep telling myself its going to end, but I'm beginning to doubt it.

Covering it up is the hard part. Luckily it's winter, because short sleeved shirts are no longer an option. My arms are bruised up and down from him holding me down, my legs are bruised from him kicking, and my stomach from him punching. Dark makeup has become some sort of a trademark of mine; with a little extra foundation, it covers a black eye.

"Babe?" he calls from below. I sigh and run downstairs.

"Yeah?" I ask as I run downstairs. I've learned that walking is never an option.

"Fuck Mer. At least try to cover your eye. What if your mom comes home?" he spits.

"She's never home, you know that," I sigh. If I bring my mom up after he does, I have less of a chance of getting hit. "I was working on covering it when you called me down."

"Well, do it better. You can see the damn thing from a mile away…"

I go back upstairs and finish covering it. He complains that it is still noticeable but there's really nothing else I can do.

This is how my life's been going for 6 months now. He hits me, he apologizes, I accept, and the same thing happens the next day. It's going to happen tomorrow. But things will go very different. And this difference, it's going to change my life forever.

Cover up with makeup in the mirror
Tell yourself it's never going to happen again
You cry alone and then he swears he loves you

Do you feel like a man
When you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
Every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down

I see the way you go and say you're right again
Say you're right again
Heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man
When you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
It's coming around again


So I know its short but this is my intro to the story. I'm not going to update too often but I hope you'll enjoy the fic. R&R please :)

Oh and anyone read the Twilight series? I'm really excited for Breaking Dawn! :)