The words flowed out of my mouth so quickly that it stunned me, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I waited for her response, but she just remained staring at me as if she didn't know how to speak anymore, I smiled but now it was starting to scare me. Vampires can go into shock after all, right?
"Aren't we already married?" She half smiled.
"We are, but it was so many years ago that I want to relive that moment again with the only woman I can picture spending the rest of eternity with. Esme, I want to reassure you that I will love you forever and a day." I said.
"If only I were able to cry…" She whispered. "Yes Carlisle, I will marry you again. I will take the honour and become your wife, again." She smiled.
I grinned and pulled her into a tight hug, and then I tilted her head up and kissed her until I could hear her giggling so I pulled away. "Do you want to see the ring?"
"You bought me another ring, Carlisle you shouldn't have." She frowned; Esme always hated it when people spent money on her.
"When have I ever listened to you, Esme? Of course I bought you another ring." I reached in my pocket and pulled out a little box. When I opened it, the look on her face was priceless; she covered her mouth and slowly shook her head. She was right, if she were able to cry a river of tears would be streaming down her face right now.
I took off her old wedding ring and slid on the new one; it was a perfect fit. Before I could say anything she wrapped her arms around my neck and held me close to her for a moment.
"You know, the kids are going to be so happy when we tell them the news." I whispered in her ear.
"I know, I can't wait to see the look on their faces. Can we stay here for little bit longer?" She pulled away but kept her hands on my shoulders, while my hands remained around her waist.
"Of course, honey." We stood there for a few minutes just staring at each other, there was never any awkward tensions between Esme and I; I guess we always knew how to feel comfortable around each other.
"Were you serious about moving to another country or was that a cover up?" She smirked.
"How did you know?" I took her hand and we started walking along the side of the lake.
"Carlisle, you're the easiest person to read I thought you knew that already. I knew that something was up from the time you came to me in the meadow." She smiled, "I honestly think you should become more like me and know how to disguise your emotions."
"Oh yeah?" I arched my eyebrow.
"Yep, I guess you can say I'm a pro." She started to giggle; I love how much of a tease she is. "But I can never disguise the feelings I have for you Carlisle, not in a million years."
"I already knew you , and I love you so much." I kissed her head.
"Now tell me, Alice know about us renewing our vows?" Her tone sounded a bit serious.
"Yes, she came with me this afternoon to pick out the ring." I answered.
"Well since she knows she'll probably let it slip to Rosalie. I don't mind, I'm just a bit nervous; you know how I get when I'm the center of attention. I mean, Alice will go crazy over decoration for the ceremony and Rosalie will spend tons of money on dresses." She bit her lip.
"That's why I told her to keep it simple, but sweet. I have it handled Esme, you'll be surprised at what our daughters can pull off." I sat down on one of the large rocks and watched Esme as she remained standing looking at the lake.
"Do you think that our extended family will want to be invited?" She asked.
"It wouldn't hurt to ask them, they are considered family and I'm sure they'll be supportive."
She sighed; I could tell that something was still bothering her so I pulled her closer. She sat down next to me and rested her head on my shoulder.
"Can I say that you're the most amazing man on this earth for everything that you do for me, some of the things you're able to pull off I don't even deserve it. Carlisle, I wish I was able to give you something of my own the way you're able to give me things." She sounded sad.
"Something else is bothering you, what's wrong?" I asked.
"I'm not strong enough to work in an environment with humans like you are, and even if I was I don't think I'd be able as compassionate and talented as you are. I enjoy being a housewife and taking care of the kids but look at them, they can fend for their own now. I heard Rosalie and Emmett talking about getting a house of their own, my little babies are moving on with their lives and soon enough they'll all be gone Carlisle. Also, I just wish that I was able to give you a child of our own. I know how much it would mean to you." She took her head off of my shoulder and shifted her body away from me.
I put my hand under her chin and tilted her head towards me and kissed her passionately, I know that she wasn't in the mood for it but at least it would make her feel better. I pulled away and stared into her eyes; all I could see was sadness and it hurt my heart.
"Can I tell you that you're the most important thing in my life?"
"I know that already, you tell me that every day." She groaned.
"And I will tell you for the rest of my existence, Esme. Because clearly, you aren't aware of how perfect you are. I know how much you want to be around people again and if you really want to then I can train you. It took me a whole century to be comfortable in a hospital but I see something in you Esme, the way you care for everyone I think that one day you'll be capable of doing what I do." I smiled, but she was still upset.
"Carlisle, I appreciate the prep-talk but this is something that I'll have to deal with on my own. " She sighed.
"No Esme, I'm not finished. As for our children, they will always be our babies. The way Edward is able to tell you everything, the way Rosalie looks up to you as if you're her role model, the way Emmett protects you and knows how to make you laugh, the way Jasper is able to hold a conversation with you for hours and the way Alice prances around tell everyone how much she loves her mommy. I think it's the cutest thing in the world; I want you to realize that our children love you and can never be away from you for no more than a week. So if Emmett and Rosalie do end up getting a place for their own, I don't even think they'll be too far away." I knew she was going to interrupt me so I put my finger over her mouth.
"I am not finished yet, one more thing. Yes I do want to be able to see you carry my child, I want to deliver the baby myself and I want to enjoy the time being raising that little girl or little boy with you, what man wouldn't want to do that with the woman he loves? But sweetheart, I wouldn't have this life any other way. If miracles were to happen and that wish was granted then so be it but for now, I'm happy with what you're able to give me right now; which is your love." I kissed her and this time she responded back, I could feel that she was satisfied with what I had to say and for now she would be fine.
"Thank you, Carlisle. I'm sorry that I had to bring that up." She half smiled.
"We're a team, right? I want you to always tell me what you're feeling; I'm glad that we got to talk about this." I smiled.
"Would you like to go back to the house now? It's getting dark and I think that our children will wonder where we are by now." She said, I nodded and we started to make our way back to the house.
Communication is always the key.
