I placed the dish on the table, sat down with the salad, and opened the letter. It was folded in half and I could feel the blotches and scratches. I read the letter.
Dear Bells,
I'm tired of staying away because of my anger,
well, more so heart ache? If you still want to
be friends with me, come, please. If you
don't just tell Embry. Miss you. Love you.
Love, Jake
That was it. Well, what was readable anyway. The rest was scratched out. I looked at Embry who was finished eating.
"Put the bike in my truck. We're going for a ride." I told him
He nodded and got up. I ran up the stairs and grabbed a bag and gathered any item the Cullens ever gave to me. I put 4 sets of clothes and my toiletries in one bag, and sped down the stairs. I grabbed the keys and said goodbye to Charlie. I saw a large grey wolf watching the house. I nodded my head to her and climbed in the truck. I pulled out the drive way and drove to the Cullen house hold.
"Why are we going there? I mean, you could just ask the sparkly family to pick you up."
"Because, I'm just giving them back they're stuff."
He could read the double meaning. I was leaving the CUllens. Leaving Edward. Wising up. I stopped using my brain and started using my heart. I was going to beg JAcob Ephriam Black to forgive me and deal with me and the danger that I attract. I was tired of taking orders. I was my own person now. No longer were descisions about my life made for me. I was making my own.
I pulled into the long, windy driveway. I felt a lone pair of eyes on us, Emmet perhaps. I thought that untill I saw the black mercedes behind us. Carlisle. Embry growled none the less.
"Embry, the treaty. It's only Carlisle. You know, the nice one? The one who's the docter?"
"I know, he just said something, is all."
"What did he say?"
"Something along the lines of 'A tribe member is at the hospital.'."
"Who? Embry? Is it one of the imprints? What happened."
"Just some new pack members."
"Oh no! IS it Victoria's fault? Because that means it's my fault, and that mean I, have once again ruined a kids life because of my selfishness. Who is it, Embry?"
"No, Bella, it's not your fault. Don't worry. Collin and Brady are young, is all."
I gulped.
"How young?" I whispered
"Brady's 14. Collin's just turning 15 tomorrow."
I stopped and banged my hand on the wheel. I got out of the car and started kicking things.
"They're too young Embry! THEY JUST GOT THEY'RE LIFES UPROOTED! NOW THEY HAVE TO KEEP SECRETS FROM THEY'RE FAMILIES! PROBALLY BREAK UP WITH THEY'RE GIRLFRIENDS! YOU CAN'T LET THEM FIGHT!"
I calmed down a little and got back in the truck. Carlisle was patiently waiting. I knew he had the patience unlike Edward, to stay while I had a meltdown.
"Sorry Carlisle." I said monotone
"Bella, it's okay. Collin and Brady have been trained to be warriors. Collin has the Black blood in him, he can handle it, just like Jake. Brady, Brady's over the moon. He was an outcast like Quill, little family like me. Sometime's the phase, all though we could do without, really helps a kid out. Brady was about to off himself when he phased. Bella, if it is because of Victoria, although I doubt it, you saved a kids life."
"That only helps a little." I said
"I know. But think about it. What did you cause when you did it? Imagine what he would have caused. The tribe would have lost a shaman."
"He's a shaman, like Old Quill?"
"Yes."
We had pulled in front of the house, and I laughed as Embry gagged when Edward opened the door.
"Stay unless I call you, kay? Grab a towel or something. NO upchucking fish fry in my truck."
"I know, I know."he said in the manner Jake says "'Sure, Sure'
I took a deep breath and walked to the door, Carlisle behind me. I somehow got past Edward, avoiding an embrace. But I couldn't get away from Esme's motherly grasp. I smiled, even though it wasn't going to be helpful with me breaking up with Edward, it was nice.
"She brought a mutt." Rose muttered to Emmet
And it enraged me. I threw my stuff somewhere and alked right to where she was standing. I glared at her.
"How dare you. I don't have a problem with your words about me, but you don't say anything about them. I may be a mere human, but so god willing, I have a lighter in my pocket and I am NOT afraid to light you on fire. I may have issues with the pack, but they're my FAMILY. And if you say one more thing, or lay even a tiny little manicured finger on one of them, you'll have to go through ME."
And I was okay with leaving them now. No matter how much they were in my life, I can let them go just like they let me go, slip through they're cold dead fingers. I'm just another human that Edward just happens to like. I'll never be one of them, and even before they knew I never would be. Everyone was silent, besides the low growling from Emmet's chest.
"Stop it Emmet, just STOP! You guys try to act human, but you can't be HUMAN! Not with the way you act when your not trying to blend in! The only members of this coven that acually act human when they don't have to are ESME AND CARLISLE! God! Yu guys act like being a vampire is so hard! But you enjoy it's perks everyday! You take joy in scaring humans! But I'm not scared! And you all have a problem with it! I'm standing up for myself now! And it bothers you! Your not in control of your surroundings! And you can't be in control of your surroundings! No one ever is! There will always be something not going your way! Like right now! Take your stupid stuff back! I don't want any of it!"
I then walked up to Edward Cullen. He was looking at me, and I calmed down a little bit. I guess I can let him down easy. I mean, it would be rude and rash to say something I don't want to. I don't want to hurt him any more than me walking away will do.
"I'm tired of ot being in control of my life. Of havind descions about my life made for me. Edward, I've been using my brain and logic staying with you. I mean, a fairytale prince who has the same intrests in you, who is as smart as you, is better than a guy who rides a motorcycle and struggles being entertained by stuff you like, in logic sense. But when I use my mind, my heart, The guy who rides a motorcycle is the guy who loves you so much he wants you to be happy, and is willing to let you go for you to be happy, who's loved you his whole life, who looks to you for strength and faith, is better than the fairytale prince who won't let you see your bestfriend because she won't be safe, who leaves you to protect you without asking you what you think. My heart doesn't belong to you anymore. It belongs to Jake. And I ask of you one thing. Don't go running off to Volterra because I broke your heart. It will endanger the wolves if Aro sees your mind. Some girl out there is yours. And she might be lucky enough to love you much more than I did. Bye, Edward."
Edward looked heartbroken. I turned away and looked at all of the people I once considered family. I looked at the girl who used to be my bestfriend. Alice Cullen. I looked at the boy who was ike my big brother. Emmet Cullen. And finnally, I looked at the mother who was there for us all. I didn't dare look at Carlisle Cullen. I would see him when I fall again.
"Good bye. YOu all took good care of me. I'm sorry. I have to walk. For me. For Jake. For my future. Look at it this way, we have a couple more months left at school, and Carlisle, I'm bound to break my arm some time soon. I love you all, just not like I used too."
A single tear slipped off my face, and none followed. I turned the knob on the door and didn't look back.
