The forest floor flew under my feet while thinking about what just happened not even two minutes ago. I couldn't believe Josh would do that to me. He's supposed to be my friend. It was like, once we took things to the next level, our friendship didn't matter to him anymore.
I quickly wiped away the tears that blurred my sight so that I could see a little better. Once the tears had spilled over and down my cheeks I didn't bother wiping those because they already had mixed in with the rain that continued to slap against my face and my whole body.
The harder I cried, the harder the rain became it seemed.
I sniffled.
Josh doesn't care about me. He doesn't need me. You know what? I don't need him either.
My best friend is who I need.
I pushed my legs even faster; faster than I have ever ran. I never knew I could run this fast. I guess it goes to show how much I needed to see Jacob. To hear his husky voice, to touch him, to feel his warm touch that soothed me.
Like a best friend, Jacob always helped me, through thick and thin.
It felt like a never ending run.
My heart had burst with relief when I instantly flew into Jacob's back yard, like his house had just magically jumped on my trail. I couldn't believe I was actually here right now, that I was here at Jacob Black's house.
I tried opening the back door but it was locked and I cursed to myself. I was going to literally bust it down but I wasn't that out of it. So I ran to the front of the house, at the front door in a second. I swung it open—I would have broken that door down if it was locked.
I ran through the house. I was in his room in a flash.
I was startled to see Seth standing in front of Jacob's dresser. My head shot around the small room, looking for Jacob. It was only Seth. I immediately ran into his arms though. I needed to hug someone and Seth happened to be that person.
I felt my wet body hug Seth's warm body tightly and he slowly wrapped his arms around me. I couldn't speak at first.
"Nessie, what's wrong?" Seth asked with concern, his arms wrapping tighter around me. "We've been worried sick about you. Jacob and I tried texting you."
I sniffed loudly and then sobbed.
"I-I need him, I need Jacob!" My body trembled. Hugging Seth helped the slightest but Jacob was who I needed. "I really need him, Seth!"
Seth spoke some more but I didn't comprehend what he had said. I was such a wreck, my mind only thinking about Jacob and how much I need him.
"Wh-where is he!?" My breath was uneven and my voice was completely off. "Tell me where he is!"
"He's in the bathroo—"
I let go of him and was in front of the bathroom in less than a second. I banged loudly on it, hearing the shower running behind the door.
"God, not again!" I heard Jacob complain. "I swear Seth if—"
"Jacob!" I banged on the door again. "Please, it's me Jake!"
"Nessie?" and then his voice soon sounded much closer, like he was right on the other side of the door. "Nessie are you okay?"
"N-No!" My voice cracked and the tears continued. "I need you, please—hurry!"
The shower cut off and I heard wet feet against the bathroom floor. Not even two seconds later the door opened with him in pants and I was jumping into his arms, hugging Jacob, my Jacob. I buried my head between his neck and shoulder, holding him more tightly, our wet bodies pressing against eachother.
"Are you hurt?" He instantly asked.
My breath just got more uneven as I continued to sob. I wanted to tell him that I was psychically fine, not to worry too much, that I just needed him but I couldn't speak at first. I was so upset that I couldn't speak. I wanted to stay like this for awhile, in Jacob's arms, where I felt the safest.
"I just need you, Jake!" I cried even harder. "I-I need you so much!"
"I'm here, honey." He whispered in my ear. "Please calm down. Are you hurt?"
My body was still shaken. I felt ready to crumble from how shaken I was. I wasn't sure what to say. Yes, I'm hurt—but I didn't want to say yes, I didn't want Jacob to overreact, thinking I'm seriously injured.
I sniffled. "What… do… you mean?"
"Just—god Nessie, please answer me."
I sobbed. I knew he was frustrated, wanting to know what was wrong. I didn't know where to start. I wasn't sure what to say or how to say it or if I could even talk anymore.
I felt Jacob's chest vibrate against me when he yelled, "Seth—you still here?"
I heard footsteps behind me, guessing it being Seth.
"What happened?" Jacob asked in his Alpha voice, I guess to Seth.
"She just barged in and hugged me, asking where you were—that she needed you." Seth sounded so concerned and confused. "I don't know, Jake."
Jacob sighed, his voice filled with sadness while I continued to sob, "Could… could you give us some privacy? It's your shift anyways."
"Yeah sure."
Two seconds later I heard the front door open and close shut.
My body still shook.
"Nessie," He spoke softly. I felt the air around me moving and I guessed Jacob was walking. "Please, tell me what's going on."
I opened my eyes, noticing we were now in Jacob's room. My head was still buried in the same place while I still wrapped my legs and arms around him.
"Please," he begged, his hand rubbing the small of my back. "Tell me what's wrong."
"I-I didn't want to do it." Is how I started it off and I didn't know how I was going to go on from there, I just let whatever roll off my tongue. I let out another sob. "I didn't want to Jake—but I just—god I need you!"
"You didn't want to do what?" He was confused, trying to put the pieces together.
"I didn't want to do… that." My voice changed at the word that, hoping he knew what I was talking about. I sniffled some more and then said, "I need you."
"Honey please be more clear."
I thought about what had happened. What Josh did to me, trying to force his self on me, knowing I wasn't ready. But he didn't care. He didn't care at all. My so called friend didn't care about me.
My body trembled all over again, thinking about what happened. I let loose a whimper to the memory, a loud whimper.
"Why don't you sit down, Ness?" Jacob suggested.
"Okay." I replied in a small voice.
I held onto him tighter to the thought of having to let him go.
"You're going to have to let go of me, okay?" He spoke even softer than before. "Then tell me exactly what happened."
I had to let it out. I had to tell Jacob what happened. I couldn't hold it in.
"It was horrible—so horrible. I didn't want to but he didn't care!" My lungs were soar from how hard I was crying. "I didn't want to. I liked it at first but... It started to go too far!"
It was silent.
Jacob unwrapped his arms from around me and then grabbed my arms, unhooking them from around his neck. Then he did the same thing with my legs. I was now standing, looking down at the bedroom floor and closed my eyes tightly shut as my mind was filled with the terrible memory. I felt Jacob's warm fingers under my chin before tilting my face to look up at him. My eyes were still closed. I was too ashamed to look at him. I mean after all I didn't stop it right away. I even liked it at first. Jacob is probably disgusted with me.
"Please look at me, Ness."
I opened my eyes to look at him, straight into his dark eyes.
Jacob's eyes dropped to look down and then brought his eyes back to my face.
"Your shirt..." Was all he said at first and I dropped my head to look down at my strapless yellow shirt that was all stretched out, coming down some and slightly revealing my white strapless bra and I tried pulling it up but it would fall back down. I looked back up at Jacob. He dropped his eyes again and I watched his expression turn angry. His suddenly angry tone surprised me. "What the hell happened?"
I followed his gaze and sure enough, he was looking down at my white unzipped and unbuttoned shorts I forgotten about. Right then and there I felt even more ashamed. I quickly buttoned and zipped my shorts, my hands shaky but I managed to still get it done in a flash.
Ashamed. I felt ashamed. He's disgusted with me, he has to be!
I didn't want to but I looked up at Jacob.
"What the hell happened, Ness!?" His voice was angrier.
I quickly brought my hands to my face. I couldn't look at him anymore.
"I'm sorry!" I felt more tears build up and rub against my hands. "I'm—I'm so sorry, Jacob!"
From embarrassment, I started to head out of the room but was blocked by an angry Jacob whose body started to shake.
He took in a breath and slowly let it out before his voice came out calmer as his body relaxed some "I'm not mad at you, Ness—just please tell me it isn't what it looks like. I'm sorry. My mind jumped straight into the gutter."
I wrapped my arms around his waist so tightly.
"He—he forced his self on me, Jacob!" I had to say it. I couldn't hold it in. "I didn't want to—I didn't! I told him no, but he wouldn't listen he—"
"What?" His voice was angry again, his body shaking against mine. "Damnit! Who the hell was it?"
He was asking who it was?
"W-why?"
"Tell me—who was it!?"
I bit my lip and then slowly released it. "Tell me w-why, Jake."
He swung his large hands around, grabbing my wrists and unwrapping my arms from around him. He walked away from me—stopped after two steps. His back was now facing me. I watched his skin still shake, his muscles flexing.
"Jacob?" I realized I was no longer crying, distracted by Jacob's behavior. "A-are you okay?"
"No—I'm fucking not okay!" He turned to look at me, his eyes showing beyond fury. "Tell me who the hell it is so I can rip their fucking head off for…" His muscles were turning more prominent as if ready to unleash. "God, I'm going to kill him!"
I was now afraid. If I didn't just say his name, what would Jacob do to me? No. I trust Jacob; he wouldn't do anything to me. The question is, what will he do to Josh if he finds out it was him? I don't need him murdering anyone. It was a mistake for me o come here like this, to tell him. I then decided that I should leave…
Jacob blocked the door, staring at me without blinking.
"J-Jake… I want to leave." I felt dizzy. I wanted to leave so desperately. Jacob has never scared me so much in my life. "Please get out of my way."
Jacob just stood there his body still shaking. He placed a hand over his eyes and took in a deep breath but he still shook. I still felt very wary… and afraid.
"Jacob you're scaring me." I admitted.
That was all I needed to say because he dropped his hand to his side and his expression immediately softened. His eyes were no longer furious as they didn't lie off of me. I felt safe. I then knew he wouldn't hurt me and I felt silly to be afraid.
"I would never hurt you." I knew he meant every word. He took three quick strides to me, wrapping his arms around me. "I'm sorry, Nessie. I didn't mean to scare you—it's just hard. I just can't let him get away with it, I…"
I held back my tears and just sniffed. I looked back on the memory.
"It's partially my fault, I might have led—"
"No!" Jacob's loud voice startled me. "No way in hell is it your fault. You… said no, didn't you?"
I answered. "Yes. I said no."
I felt his body slightly shake. "Please tell me who it is."
"Josh." I whispered.
"Josh who?"
I only answered because he was now a lot calmer.
"Josh Richards."
Jacob slowly let me go. He didn't look at me when saying, "I need to go run."
My heart started to pound. "Don't go after him, Jacob. Please just—"
"I just need to go and get my mind off of things." He didn't look at me. I had a bad feeling that he was up to no good. "I will be back soon. I'll send someone to come here and take you home."
I snatched Jacob's hand when he started to walk out of the room but I grabbed only air and suddenly heard the front door slam. I just stood frozen. I was about to run after him but I couldn't move.
My mind couldn't even comprehend what Jacob was going to do if he finds him . . .
If he finds Joshua Richards.
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