Author's Notes: Thanks for the people who rated. It came to my attention that Jacob seems to keep jumping in and out of character. I'm going to try to work on that so bare with me. So keep reading and reviewing. I'm going to try and keep my updates regular so you don't have to wait long.

Part Two

Alice POV

Edward was driving more like a madman than usual. I knew he was desperate to know something but desperate not to at the same time. I hadn't seen anything since she disappeared. That wasn't a good sign. Although there were other things that could stop me from seeing her such as the werewolves...but she had been a blank since yesterday morning.

I had waited an hour before I told Edward what I had seen. I somehow managed to convince him to wait another couple of hours before heading this way. Now we were nearly here and he had gotten more and more crazed by the minute. He had left to protect her and now look what had happened. I told him he was being an idiot and I didn't see things ending well that way...

Jacob POV

Billy knocked on my door but didn't wait for an answer before coming in. He didn't look very surprised to find Bella still asleep in my arms. I couldn't help but flash him a grin.

"I'm going to the Clearwater's." He told me. Then he left. I looked down at Bella. She had slept since yesterday lunchtime. She looked so peaceful. I breathed in the scent of her hair and held her tighter. She stirred and rolled to face me. She didn't open her eyes just buried her face into my chest. I could get used to this but something told me it wasn't going to be as easy as that.

Then she looked up at me with sleepy eyes. If I wasn't going to get to be with her properly I was sure as hell going to make the most of this.

Bella POV

One minute I was staring up at Jacob, smiling my favourite smile. The next his lips crushed into mine and his body pressed against mine completely. I couldn't stop the moan that escaped my throat as he slipped his tongue into my mouth. How did he manage to do this to me? Was it like this with all men? Or just the ones that weren't human. Jacob's kisses were different but just as good as Edwards.

I vaguely wondered why I kept comparing them when they were just too different to compare. Edward's kisses were cold but made me feel hot at the same time. Jacob was like fire. Edward touched my soul, Jacob made me melt. It wasn't long before I couldn't think enough to continue my comparisons. I was lost in a sea of Jacob. My Jacob.

His hands were all over me and I found that mine were running up his huge arms and shoulders. I felt his hand sliding up my thigh under the shirt I was wearing. Everywhere his hands touched burned. I knew he was deliberately taking in my scent but it seemed to only arouse him further.

He licked and kisses at the skin on my neck as his fingers slid inside me, drawing out a straggled gasp from my throat. Drew his mouth to mine and lost myself in the warmth that was my Jacob. Moments later his weight shifted and I felt him probing at my entrance, my hips gaining a mind of their own as they seemed to strain towards him trying to bring us together.

"Jake…" I whispered. He knew what I wanted and in a heartbeat I felt him fill me, stretch me around him but I loved every moment of it. I reveled in every feeling as he began to trust into me to give us both what we wanted and it didn't take long for my gasps and moan of pleasure to gain volume from the building pleasure. Almost immediately after my orgasm took control of my body I felt Jake shuddering from his own causing us both to collapse back into the mattress. My body was relaxed and satisfied with Jacob led with his face against my stomach and arms around my waist.

We had led like that only for a while before I got dressed into my own clothes from yesterday. Jacob found me a jacket as it was raining. He walked with me to my truck and kissed me goodbye.

"I love you Bella." He said. "Drive safe."

"Love you, Jake." I replied easily. It wasn't a lie but I knew I probably shouldn't have said it. I didn't want him to think that we were a definitely thing. My problem was...I gave away my heart already. I wasn't sure I could love like that again. He seemed to realise my indecision.

"Sure,sure." He said casually. "You'd better be home before Charlie wakes up. Or he'll probably come up to arrest me." I smiled and started the engine and waved goodbye as I drove off.

Charlie wasn't in when I got back. I knew he would probably be mad when he got in. I went upstairs to shower. I relaxed easily under the warm water of the shower beating against my skin. Eventually I knew I had to get out of the shower and get something to eat. I walked to my room towel wrapped around me and clothes in my hand.

Once in my room I sorted my clothes into the wash basket and put Jacob's jacket on the back of the door. Then something caught my eye. Something that shouldn't be there. Someone that shouldn't be there.

I stared to my window sill. He hadn't been there a moment ago. What was he doing here?

I couldn't move. I could barely even breathe. I looked at those beautiful golden eyes. That pale skin...that tortured look. Before I could move Edward crushed me to him. Holding me tightly.

"You're alright" he whispered. I could hear the relief in his voice and wondered why he thought I wouldn't be. Actually it seemed ironic that all those times I wasn't alright and he never came...but now that I was alright, getting on with my life, now he shows up. "What happened Bella?" What happened was you went away...

"Edward?" I asked, my voice barely a whisper, although I knew he would hear it with no problem.

"Yes Bella I'm here." He said, pulling back slightly to look at my face. "Alice saw...and we thought that...Bella I thought you were dead." They thought I was dead? He leaves me in the woods, leaves me alone, leave me to Laurent, the motorbikes all of that and now he comes back.

"I don't understand." I replied. "What did Alice see?"

"She saw you drowning Bella, and then you disappeared. We thought the worst." He said, still clinging onto me. I could still barely believe he was here holding me, but gradually I began to understand what had happened.

"She saw me cliff diving?" I asked.

"Cliff diving?" he asked, looking somewhat annoyed. "Please tell me you're joking."

"I jumped of the cliffs at La Push only...I couldn't seem to swim to shore but Jacob saved me." I explained, a little hesitant to touch on the subject of Jacob and I.

"I knew I could smell dog." He muttered, glancing towards Jacob's jacket. "So that's why you disappeared..." He turned and took a few steps towards the window.

"No, wait! Don't go!" I cried out grabbing his arm. He turn back to me and smiled for the first time since he'd been here. My heart skipped at the sight of it.

"I just need to explain to Alice." He said. "I didn't know if she had managed to see that you're alright." He put his hand into his pocket for his mobile to call Alice.

"Sorry." I said a little embarrassed.

"So you should be but not about that." He replied, before Alice answered his call. "Alice?...You saw...good...yes...alright..." Then he hung up. I looked at him waiting for him to explain.

"She saw." I said.

"Yes, she wants you to come to ours later this evening. Everyone is coming back." He said. "not right away but they're all heading back this way." I suddenly realised I was still only in my towel and blushed a little. Normally I would have turned completely scarlet but somehow after having Jacob see me naked this seemed like nothing in comparison.

"I'd better just go change." I said sheepishly. Edward smiled widely and dazzled me.

"Now that I missed." He said, stroking my rosy cheek. He was so close. I wanted to lean up and press my lips against his. My stomach growled and interrupted the moment. "and that. I'll go make you something if you want so you can get changed."

"You don't have to do that." I replied.

"I want to." He said simply. Then I was alone in my room again. As soon as he was gone I felt guilt. Jacob crept his way into my mind. What exactly was I supposed to do now? I didn't deserve either of them. I picked out a dark pair of jeans and dark blue jumper.

I sat on my bed for a moment. Edward was the man/vampire I was completely in love with. I had been missing part of myself when he was gone. Jacob had been the best friend that had gradually started to piece me together again. How could I hurt Jacob the same way Edward had hurt me? Wouldn't Jacob be the easier choice anyway? I sighed. Giving up I went downstairs to face one of the most important men in my life.

Edward made me sit and eat the eggs and toast he made for me. It always surprised me how well he cooked for someone who didn't eat.

"So you're staying?" I asked uncomfortably.

"At the moment I don't know." He replied, at least he was being honest. "Fill me in on what I've missed. What on earth had you jumping off of a cliff? You know you have a habit of attracting danger in the first place. Why go looking for it?"

"Do you really care?" I asked harshly. I was happy he was back but it annoyed me that he was acting almost as if he never left.

"Of course I care Bella! That is why I am here!" he replied.

"You left. You left me to move on and live my life and I was." I replied. "Did Alice not see anything that happened? Not even when Laurent came back? When I crash my motorcycle? Nothing?"

"I had no idea." He replied, frowning, probably because of the motorcycle comment. "I had no idea Laurent would come back for you. I'm sorry. I should have realised it was too late."

"Too late?"

"You already know about us. You have already become involved with our lives. Us leaving wouldn't remove you from the danger...I just wanted to try to protect you." He sounded so heartbroken. He took my hands in his and looked me in the eyes. "I don't ever expect you to forgive me but I promise I will try my very hardest to make it up to you."

Before I could answer there was a banging on the front door. I knew by Edward's reaction it had to be Jacob. I went to let him in. I had only just about opened the door when he came bursting into the house.

"I knew you'd be here!" he shouted. "How dare you show your face here again?" He shoved Edward against the kitchen wall.

"Jake stop!" I screamed. He let go of him but the yelling continued.

"I thought she was dead" Edward replied. "I had to come and find out...save her if I could."

"Well too late leech! I did that part for you!" he growled.

Edward POV

I cringed as Jacob's memories flashed back to that moment he couldn't find her and then pulling her from the water.

"and I'm grateful for that." I replied.

"You think you can just turn up and things be like they were before?" he growled at me. Images of Bella doubled over crying. Not leaving her room. Sat with Jacob. Him kissing her. Her kissing him back. Jacob was deliberately showing me what I had missed. Finishing with her straddling him moaning his name. I tried very hard to keep my face from betraying my hurt. Ultimately she had done what I wanted her to, what I told her to. She had moved on. However I had planning for that to be with a normal human boy not a werewolf. I should have known Bella would naturally be drawn to the supernatural.

"I don't expect it to go back to what it was. Ultimately whatever happens is her choice." I said, my voice cold.

Bella POV

I saw a flash of pain in Edward's eyes and instantly I knew that he knew everything that had happened since he left. I felt so guilty. I felt like a dirty cheat. I didn't wait for Edward and I had now involved Jake in this mess too. To top it off I loved them both.

"Jake. Please go back to La Push. Tell the others that the Cullen's are heading back, but the treaty is still in tact. I need to talk to Edward." I said. "I will speak to you later, I promise." Jacob didn't even say goodbye he just turned and walked out.

I headed upstairs and Edward followed. I sat on my bed and he sat next to me. I think he only sat to make me feel less awkward, since I knew he didn't need to. I didn't even know where to start.

"We need to talk-" I started.

"I know about you and Jacob, love." He interrupted. "If that's what you want I won't stop you. I told you to move on. I left you I understand that."

I didn't know where to start or what to say. This was going to be an awkward conversation.

Edward POV

I could see what she was trying to say. She wanted to explain whatever her relationship with Jacob was and probably apologise a million times.

"I feel so awful." She muttered. "You weren't here..." I pulled her to me and wrapped my arms around her warm body.

"I told you to move on Bella. I'm not mad." I told her. "I admit it was not pleasant seeing it through Jacob's eyes but I understand Bella. He was there for you."

"But we're not even together...I don't really know what we are." She sighed. "I just couldn't resist it."

"I know, love. There are things that you needed that I couldn't give you. That couldn't have helped." I told her. "I just want you to be happy and safe. Even if you choose him, even if I have to share you, would and I'd be grateful. Bella after being without you, after believing you were gone and I'd never see you again...even being in the same room talking to you is something I am grateful for. I love you."

I lifted her chin and placed a kiss on her nose. She looked up at me with her big brown eyes and I couldn't help but lean down to kiss her. Her lips were so warm against my own. She sighed softly into the kiss and as I drew back she pushed forward. She started to kiss me back and I knew I should stop. I allowed her a few more moments before pulling away.

"Please..." she whispered. I wasn't sure what she was pleading for. Bella gave in then and sobs shock her body. I held her while she cried, not knowing how best to comfort her in this strange situation.

"Bella love, tell me everything I've missed." I said leaning us both back to lay on her bed.

"You already know most of it." She mumbled. I lifted her fact to look at me.

"I want to hear your version." I replied. "Tell me everything."

"I tried to follow you, you know. I gave up in the end, I just led, curled up on the ground. I felt like I was dying. It was Sam Uley that found me. I don't remember much of the following months. I remember going to your house. I knew there was no one there but I was too scared to even look through the window. I didn't know what would be worse, seeing it completely empty or seeing the furniture and everything there just as I had last seen it. I would look for you at school. I couldn't walk in the woods...everything reminded me of you. I just felt empty. Eventually my dad convinced me to start interacting with people again." She smiled slightly at this. "I started spending time at La Push. It was the only place that didn't remind me of you. I did hear your voice though, a few times, as clear in my head as if you had been stood right next to me. When I was riding the motorcycle for the first time I heard it. I don't know why I got them in the first place I just had to get them. Jacob fixed them up for me. I lost control and came off the first go. Even Jacob didn't want me back on a motorcycle for some time after that. I suppose you know how he's felt since the beginning...he helped make me myself again."

Bella POV

Edward just continued to lay there while I explained the things that he had missed. I knew the part I would find most difficult to explain was next.

"I don't really know quite how it happened. I'm so sorry Edward." I said.

"Don't be sorry love. I want to know. I would like to know please. Everything..." he whispered to me.

"I'm not sure I can but...he kissed me. To start with I was pushing away but he kept kissing me and then I was kissing him back. I don't really know how we ended up getting...so carried away. I think it was a mixture of things. I do love him. Not the same as I love you, but I do love him. It was also a great distraction. When your hormones take over your mind it becomes very hard to think. I felt free..." I hesitated before I continued. I didn't want to hurt his feelings. "there was no being careful or having to stop. I guess that's why things went as far as they did. This morning I told him I loved him. But I think he knew I didn't mean it as much as he would like."

"So how do you love him?" Edward asked impulsively.

"I'm not sure. He's my best friend but there is something more to it. I suppose I could've have been very happy with him. I would have been able to love him like he wants." I replied.

"But now I've ruined it by coming back here..." he sighed sadly.

"No, that isn't what I meant. I mean...when I fell in love with you Edward...I gave you my heart completely. I don't think I'll ever be able to love anyone else as much as I love you. No matter where you are or whether we're together." I murmured. "If you hadn't turned up I suppose Jake and I would have eventually become an item properly. I would love him and be happy but I would never love him like I love you. The problem now is...I wish things could just be like they were before but it's not that easy is it. You promised you'd stay with me as long as I wanted you to. Then you left. You seem to be pretty useless at keeping promises Edward. Also...I don't know if I can go back to being...careful all the time."

"I guess I understand that too." He said sadly. "I'm not sure what the situation with my control is now. I can't promise you anything in that department. However thinking I'd lost you for good does tend to shift your perspective on things."

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Well I thought I'd lost you Bella. If you were gone I wanted my existence to be over. So the thought of anything that might result in that terrifies me. Being around you is easy now. I'm not saying that I would be able to do the things that Jacob can, but being around you, kissing you and holding you are easier." He explained. I blushed heavily when he mentioned me and Jacob. How could he stay so composed while discussing the woman he loves having sex with someone else?

As if to prove his point he rolled over so that he was slightly on top of me and kissed me. He allowed me to kiss him back and then kissed me harder, pulled me to him instead of pushing me away. I did have to come to an end though as at least one of us can't go without oxygen indefinitely. I sighed in disappointment when he didn't kiss me again.

"I'm not pulling away because I don't want to Bella. Believe me I do want to." He whispered. "But I think you need to find out what it is you want as well."

Edward left in the afternoon before Charlie got home. As it turned out Charlie wasn't mad. Jacob had called to explain we had gone for a walk and I had tripped and fallen over the cliff edge, which he believed because let's face it he knew me. He told Charlie he'd pulled me out of the water and that after I'd dried off I fell asleep. So Charlie wasn't worried at all.

I called Jake to let him know I wasn't ignoring him now just because Edward was back and told him I'd come see him tomorrow.

Then I was in my truck heading to the Cullen's house. As I reached the turning I stopped. I had come up here so many times...to find it quiet and empty. It was too hard to believe they were really back. I took a deep breath and continued up the track. I looked up at the house and couldn't help but feel a rush of relief when I saw lights on inside.

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Author's Notes: ok so there you go. Bella's tempted by Edward but still doesn't know what to do.