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She slowly took a step back, her eyes drifted to the floor as she felt the adrenaline still pumping through her body. The man who had infuriated her so much, where he had even drawn her to the point of moving wards, the man who was the most emotionally detatched person she had ever had the displeasure of meeting, was in love with her? She couldn't deny that she'd fallen for him, but the thought of him hurting her was too much of a risk to take, she had tried so hard to be independant, and to not have to rely on other people to make her happy, she has a vague memory of something her mother told her "Eddi love, listen to your good old mum, you can never be happy with someone else unless you're happy with yourself" that had stuck with her for the past 10 years, and she'd never let anyone close enough to cause her any harm since. Luc's soft whisper brought her back from her little daydream.
"Eddi .. wh .. what are you thinking? .." Luc looked at eddi, a sense of worry washed over him, he couldn't bare her rejecting him, he almost expected it though.
"I can't do this Luc, i can't let you do this to me" Her voice shook as she spoke, if she let him in, she increased the risk of getting hurt, what if she gave him her everything and he trampled all over it and left her with nothing but a broken heart? Like all her other ex's.
"I .. i ... don't understand? i've just told you i love you and you're telling me i'm not aloud to? .." He begun to get extremly aggrivated, wasn't this what she wanted? She'd given him the signals too, she'd flirted with him just as much as he did with her.
"I didn't sa .." She was cut off by Luc
"You tell me to listen, so i listen, you tell me to talk so i talk, you even tell me to tell you how i feel so i do, what more can i do? " This was it, she'd finally cracked him, she'd got him to the point of no return, all he could do now was either continue to fight his corner, or eventually walk away.
Eddi looked up at him, tears threatening to fall from her eyes, he was right, he had done everything she'd asked of him, he had listened to the patients when she instructed him to do so, he had talked to her instead of closing off and leaving, and he'd just told her he loved her.
Before she got the chance to fight her corner, Luc had exited the lab, shattered by her rejection.
"Luc ! Luc come back ! ..." She called after him, desperatly trying to explain herself, but he didn't listen.
He walked as fast as he could, he refused to stick around for her to tell him how she didn't feel the same or see her laugh in his face. Why would she kiss him back if she didn't want him? What need did she have to hesitate when he expressed his love for her? If she really wanted him that much, she'd admit it, not make excuses.
His shoes squeaked against the disinfected hospital floors as he quickly made his way out of the hospital, the cold air hit his face and it was only then when he realised Eddi was following him. He looked back and saw her quickly walking towards him, tears streaming down her face, her hair all messed up because of the typical english weather, but to him, she was beautiful.
"Please stop ! please let me explain" Eddi shouted.
He didn't stay to hear her excuses, or to hear her pleas, he needed to get away from the place that was no longer his 'Safe place'
...
The moonlight shone through the roof of his caravan, it was way past midnight, he couldn't help but hope he'd listened to what she had to say, maybe she could of justified what she meant by 'i can't do this' almost like he was forcing her into something she didn't want, she mean't far too much to him to ever hurt her, he loved her for gods sake, the last thing he ever wanted to do was cause her any discomfort or upset.
He was brought back from his thoughts as he looked up and saw Eddi stood infront of him, obviously after letting herself in as usual.
"You should start locking that door .. i .. i could of been anyone" Her voice was already cracking, she tried as hard as she possibly could to keep her emotions in check, but everytime she was around him, he made her stomach do flips, she couldn't bare the thought of him hating her in any kind of way.
"But you wasn't, and what kind of person would see a caravan and think 'oh i think ill go trespass on their premisis' .." Luc said calmy, almost like nothing had happened, he had put his barriers back up again.
"Very funny Luc, i'm not here to argue" She was tired of his questioning and sarcastic remarks, she just wanted to explain herself, to make him understand.
"Oh what a shame, i was looking forward to that" Still as calm as ever, he let his awkward nature take over in situations such as this.
"Stop playing games Luc, i want to talk" Tears had once again began forming in her eyes, she couldn't take it anymore, she needed him to listen.
"Talking's not really my strong point, as you're fully aware of" He could see she was upset, he felt guilty but he couldn't stop himself, he didn't want to get hurt, not again.
"Please .." She finally broke down ..
His eyes softened as he could see tears falling down her elligent face, he stood up and took two steps forward so he was directly infront of her, he placed his hands on her face, forcing her to look up at him, he gently wiped the tears away with his thumbs and gazed at her before whispering "Please don't cry, please ..."
"I love you, you crazy woman" He exclaimed with a smile.
"Oh so now you think i'm crazy?.." He always knew how to make her smile.
"Well, since you're asking ..." He was cut off by eddi.
"Shut up and kiss me" She said seductivly.
He pushed lips against hers and once again put his hands on her waist, bringing her as close to him as possible, tonight he needed her, he needed to show her how much she meant to him.
...
Hours later as the sun rose, Luc awoke first and smiled down at the woman laid against his chest, when he moved to Holby, he had never had the intention of meeting someone he felt so deeply for, he was glad that she was the one to finally break him.
It was only when Eddi started trailing her fingers up is chest did he realise she was awake, she looked at him and smiled before planting a kiss on his lips.
"Morning" she said her face inches from his, all she wanted to do was stay like this, with him, all day everyday.
"Ahh morning Nurse Mckee" He said planting another kiss on her lips, before smiling contently, knowing he had wound her up.
"Please stop calling me that, especially after we've just spent the night together" She exclaimed before placing her head back against his chest where she could hear his heartbeat throbbing fastly against her ear.
"Oh i apologise, i was under the impression that was your name" He said with a smug grin on his face.
"Shut it smart arse"She pulled the covers back up before closing her eyes and savouring the moment.
...
Time had flown by quick and it was already the start of both of their shifts, they had come to the conclusion not to tell anyone about they're relationship, not that they had agreed to such a commitment, whatever they had going on, they preffered if nobody else knew, that way, they could have the private life they both desired.
It was just after dinner time when a heavily pregnant woman got admitted after going into labour, much to Eddi and Lucs dismay, but they couldn't get out of this one, they were stuck with her.
"Can't you deal with this Luc? All the happy family and baby stuff makes me sick"
"Babies make you sick? There was me thinking you wanted one"
"Well do you want kids?.." She said hopeful.
"You mean do i want to create a human being who will eventually use up all the money i've worked so hard for,need constant feeding and changing, and take up the best years of my life? No"
He walked off leaving eddi completely and utterly confused.
Luc delt with the delivery, whilst Eddi pretended to be 'busy' as pay back for him leaving her to deal with it last time, he looked around the ward to try and locate her, in which he failed to do so, she usually told him if she was leaving the ward for a while to help out somewhere else, but this time she hadn't said a word to him, and come to think of it, he hadn't seen his since the whole baby conversation.
He went to the staff room to make himself a coffee before begining his search for Eddi, as he walked in, he saw her sat on the sofa staring out of the window, obviously in deep thought.
"Eddi" He spoke softly whilst making his way towards her and wrapped his arms around her waist and placing his head on her shoulder.
"What .. yeah" She replied tilting her head so she rested against his.
"What's wrong?" He said slightly concerned with her sudden change in mood.
"Nothing .." She felt stupid for even being upset, but she couldn't help it.
"Come on tell me" He pleaded with her, he wanted to help.
"You'll probably think i'm being stupid .." She turned in his arms to face him as their bodies were pushed against eachother.
"I promise, i'll never think that, now come on, tell me"He placed a hand on her chin and lifted it so she was looking at him in the eye.
"Wh ... what you said before about you know ... babies and stuff, did you mean it? I'm not saying i want a family now or anything, but .. but i hoped in the future maybe .. bu" He didn't give her chance to finish
"Of course i want a family with you" He smiled at her.
She crashed her lips against his and carelessly placed her arms around his neck, bringing him as close as humanly possible, even after they had spent the night together, and technically the whole day, she couldn't help but crave his touch and miss his strong arms around her.
She reluctantly pulled away before finally bringing herself to say what she knew he'd been wanting to hear for a long time.
"I love you too, more than you'll ever know, please .. take me home"
There we go ! Please review :)
Lots of Love Gemma xxx
