Jackson :
'' Lonely''
I was annoyed as fuck. Summer was over so i had to get back to Boston and leaving my peaceful life on the Hamtons. We had a house there and i love this house. It was full of memories of my father and i before he decided to leave us like we were nothing more than bugs to him. Maybe we were for him. I will always remember the day when i understand he went away from us. It was christmas morning , i was excited about opening all my gifts so i ran to the pine tree but my surprise was not was i expected. I didn't have any gifts for this chritmas , there was zero gifts under the pine tree. I had five years. When your little and you see this you don't think your dad went fareway from you and what he called his family during all your childhood. No. You simply think that santa is an ass.
After realizing i've been screwed by santa i cried for hours until my mother came to me. I remember how she looked like. She had tears in her eyes , didn't wore any make up and was still in her pajamas , all this was unlike my mom. She always looked so strong and put extra-time to take care of herself. Once she even said to me that looks itself could be enough to win hearts. But this morning she looked like a widow and she became one kind of. I remember she bown over me stroking my shoulders while she was crying a bit. I was kid and i didn't understand why my mom was crying so hard because i didn't have my freaking gift for christmas. She hugged me strongly against her so the naive kid i was wiped his tears and said it was okay. That santa must have forgotten me because of all the other kids and that other kids needed more this toys that i did. I remember she laughed. Then she took a serious face. I've never seen her more serious than this day and she said to me those exact words '' You don't have a dad anymore''.
Later when i was thirteen i discovered that the reason why i didn't have a gifts for this christmas was because Santa didn't exist and it was my father who usually bought me christmas gifts. When i was five he gave me a particularly original gift : his departure. My mom explained to me the reasons of why my dad went away and said it couldn't bear the weight of being an Avery. That's bullshitq. I am sure he lied to her and his leaving a perfect life with a chick twice younger than him on island far away from us. The dick.
My mom didn't stay unmarried a long time. It's been one year since she married Richard Webber , my step-dad. He was a doctor like she was , they make a team i guess. But when she married him she also made me became a brother for his daughter Maggie. He had her with his other dead wife. I didn't bother to ask the details. Of cours my mom wanted us to bound for becoming the perfect family so she sent both of us to our house in the Hamton. Now we were in a plane and i couldn't wait to have time for myself in Boston. Maggie is a kind girl but she talks a lot. She doesn't know how to shut it :
'' You are not listenening to me.'' she complains before sighing.
Jeez. Could this plane land like right now ?:
'' Not the first time. It won't be the last.'' i answer.
She sighs again , if she continues to sigh that much she will end up eating fly. I mean is there are flies in plane ? Is that even possible to begin with ?:
'' I am trying to know you , Jackson !''
I roll my eyes. She really is annoying , i suppose she filled right the part of being a sister. I heard from my friends that sisters were pain in their asses. Well , Maggie was obviously a pain of my ass :
'' Maggie. We spent two months in the same home. I think you know me by now.'' i reply.
'' Not at all ! That's the matter. You spent those two months in the beatch without me and when we were at home you were locked inside room and refused to talk to me.'' she insists.
I sigh. I was really starting to get annoyed but i was trying my best to not snap at her because i knew she would tell Webber who will told my mom and she will kick my ass. Not a good idea. So i was trying to keep my self control which was harder than i thought :
''Okay. So if i didn't talk to you there what's make you think i'll talk to you now ?'' i ask camly.
She frowns before taking a deep breath '' Because you can't go anywhere , it's not like you can fly.'' she says.
'' I wish i could.'' i whisper not to loud.
Suddenly the voice announced we were landing right now and i smirk a little thanking in my head the pilot to end up my torture.
I don't know how but i managed to leave behind Maggie. Well it might be because i was walking faster than ever and now she must still be at the customs. At least i could enjoy some time to smoke a cigaret before having to fake listening to her during one hour until we get back home. Either because i was walking to fast or because i wasn't looking in front of me , i jostled a girl outside the airport. Shit. I bend down immediatly looking at the mess i've just did and helping her to put her clothes back inside her suitcase :
''Fuck'' i curse. '' Sorry. Didn't see you.''
She whispers something about how i didn't have to help her but i wasn't letting her do all the work for something i did . So i insisted to help before i found some funny panties a blue one with a bunny eating a carrot. I furrow my eyebrows surprise i've never seen such a ridiculous panties and coming from me it meant a lot. I slept with a lot of girls but none had those kind of panties , well the bunny is okay a girl who i almost slept with had a panties with written '' Sugar Daddy'' that turned me off immediatly. I was nobody daddy not sleeping with someone who had those creepy underwears. The girl i joslted gives me a funny look wich makes me laugh harder. Then she takes aggresively the panties from my hand still looking me like that i can't help but laugh :
''' Fuck.'' i split '' You really wear that shit ?'' i ask curious.
She rolls her eyes a little and i notice their green colours. Well , she has pretty eyes i guess it's make up for her horrible taste regarding to her panties :
'' None of your business.'' she snaps annoyed.
'' Jeez. Okay grandma , relax.'' i say before standing up while she was closing her suitcase.
When she does the same i can take a good look at her. She was tiny , brunette with freckles over her noses and chicks. She was wearing a simple black jean with a grey hoodie. Yeah she was pretty not what i use to sleep with but pretty stares at me a long moment , her pink lips were open. I guess she was enjoying the view , i smirk at the idea. Even if she seemed annoy by me she couldn't deny my charms. It was a fact i wasn't being a total egostical dick right :
'' You should close your mouth you have spit around your lips.'' i lie smirking.
She shakes her head before wiping the imaginary spit from lips. I giggle. She was truly naive i didnd't know her but she seems fun to hang out with :
'' Sorry...I...I..'' she stammers '' Sorry.'' she repeats.
I lick my lips before noding '' I get it. Don't worry. I am hot.'' i explain.
She furrows her eyebrows and before i have the chance to add something else we are cut off by the annoying voice of my sister Maggie. I roll my eyes at myself before turning to face her :
'' You didn't even wait for me ! '' she complains.
'' Are you truly surprise about that ?'' i ask.
She sighs and when i turn myself to face the stranger i jostled was already gone.
We arrived home in the middle of the afternoon. We lived in penthouse at the center of Boston near my highschool. Maggie was younger than me she'll be a freshman this year when it's suppose to be my last year of highschool. I directly go inside my room. The old guys weren't there yet , they were both work addict. We rearely see them at home. I don't complain it , my mom and i didn't have the best relationship in the world and Webber was trying to hard to be my dad when he was just a random guy whom my mom decided to include in my life. I didn't have much say in the matter like every tiny decisions in my life. She was a control freak.
I jump to my bed appreciating the silence. Maggie must have give up the trying buliding a relationship for the day wich was a good idea. I lay before staring at the ceiling and sleep without even noticing.
When i wake up the day after my arrival it's 12 PM. I lied in i was enjoying my sweet last days of holidays before highschool start again. I had plans this afternoon with the guys : Alex and Mark. I knew both of them since freshman. I hated Karev first , easy because he was a jerk we even fought before we became friends. He was a dick but deep down when you look deeply...You'll found the dickest friend ever. I guess it was his way to show to people he loved them. The only time he was not an asshole was with his girlfriend , Izzie. They meet each other in one of the many parties i organized , they get along pretty well and they never stop until they decided to became a couple. They seemed really in love. I guess it's sweet.
Mark was at college he lived his last year of highschool last year letting me alone with Karev , we tried our best to see each other often but we had our own lifes going on. We meet on the basket team he was captain before i became one after he left highschool. He was a great guy and it wasn't his girlfriend Lexie who will say the contrary. She was one of my ex but no hard feelings she was a kind person. She was still in highschool contrary to her boo.
I stand up before going in the shower. After the shower i direct myself to the kitchen , the old guys was surely already working and there was only Maggie with our housemaid : Irma. She was one my many nanny i had when i was kids and teenager. A great woman. I smile at her kissing her check. She smiles back at me. Irma came of Hungeary with her two kids and husband , Sergio. He worked for us too. Actually he was the driver of the family. I knew him well and if i had to be honest he was my model. He had a lot of values and he learnt them to me trying his best to not overstep. I am pretty sure his the closest exemple i had of a dad. Too bad he isn't :
'' How was your holidays , pumpkin ?'' asks Irma before serving my eggs with bacon.
'' Sucked.'' i sigh sincerely.
Irma and I were closer than i was with my my own mom. Wich kind of makes sense , no matter how much i loved my mom she wasn't really around when i was young and she is still isn't. Of course i knew she had her reasons and i respected that but doesn't change the fact i felt like crap :
'' You are behaving like a rich boy.'' she pretends to scold me.
I chuckle '' Maybe because i am one.''
Maggie wasn't talking wich changed of her usual behaviour. I won't complain about that either , her silence was way too enjoyable. I knew she must had complained to her dad about my shitty behaviour wich meant i will have to listen my mom to scold me later. My mom was a meddler she couldn't stop herself to interfere in any relationship in my life. When she decided that Maggie and I had to have the perfect sis and bro relationship so there is not a chance she gives up until she had what she wanted. But i can't force myself and i won't. I did pretty much everything to her hapiness even accepting a stranger man and his daughter as my family. She wanted us to be a perfect family when we weren't a family to begin with :
'' You can just say it sucked because i was there.'' chaimes Maggie.
I roll my eyes at her. Hamton's sucked because i felt lonely simply as that. Of course it felt nice to had a break from all the dramas at highschool but at least whith the routine and all my friends around , i didn't felt like shit. Like i did all summer. It must be because i had tons of memories with the gost father. It just made me feel sad and lonely :
'' Well , mostly.'' i smirk.
Irma hits me behind the head :
'' Ouch ! It hurted !'' i complain touching my imaginary wound.
'' It was the purpose.'' Irma replied.
'' Thanks , Irma.'' says Maggie a smile on her lips. '' I'll go with my boyfriend all day . So be happy you won't have me behind your back.'' she adds before standing up.
'' Great. Maybe i'll have a good day then.'' i reply before bursting in laughter with Irma.
The guys decided to meet in our favorite fastfood. I love this place but it was really full. I've never seen so many people on a fast food. I sigh not really into that. During our drive to the fasfood. I rebound with my friends. Alex couldn't shut up about the fact his family made him crazy and he had to took care of his little sister all summer wich made him missed a couple of dates with his beloved , Izzie. Mark was the one who drived us here , he said he couldn't understand why Lexie didn't talk to him all summer. They finally fucked but she decided to ghost him wich bored him a lot. I didn't really meet any girls on the Hamton's , i mean. I slept with a couple of girls sure but nothing serious , still the guys knew serious wasn't my thing. I am not into having a girlfriend. Too much work and too much troubles.
When we are inside the fast food i am staring the guys :
'' We should go somewhere else.'' i suggest annoy.
Alex sighs while Mark weren't even listening to us too occupy to sent texts on his phone , i was sure he was talking to Lexie. Well , kind of talking alone since she will not reply. Alex stares the table looking for one with no people when he smirks a bit :
'' Don't worry.'' he says still smirking. ''I've got this.'' he adds touching one my shoulder.
Then he starts walking near a table where a girl was sitting all alone. I couldn't see her well at this distance but she seemed pretty. When Mark turns at me he sighs :
'' She really is ghosting me.'' he realizes eyes lost.
I put one my arm on his shoulder trying my best to support him :
'' It's gonna be alright. I've been ghosted by my own dad and look how fine i am.'' i joke.
He laughs before shaking his head. Then his smiling face disapears and i ask myself why so i turned my head to see what he was staring at. .Shit.
I couldn't believe my eyes , Alex Karev was getting his ass kick by a girl. We decided to run over them before it makes a big scene and separate them. I wa separating the girl by putting my hands around her waist , she was puching him like he was nothing more than a freaking punchingball. Alex nose was bleeding. She was trying her best to fight him again but i hold her too strongly , i am lucky she is light :
'' Do you want more this ?!'' she yells at Alex.
I furrow my brows still holding her waist :
'' Shut up bitch !'' snaps Alex touching his bleeding noose.
Fuck i couldn't have a day without a drama. I make eyes contact with Mark :
'' Take him away from here please !'' i beg him.
Mark nods before takin Alex out. When i am sure they are not here anymore , i let go the girl. She sighs when she sighs loudly then a little pink notebook fall on the floor. I leaned myself to give her back but she did the same and we made eyes contact :
'' Bunny panties ?'' i ask astonished to cross path with her a second time.
She closes her eyes before clenching her lips , i guess she recognized me and by the way her chicks turned red i guess she was embarass as fuck. I smirk still amuse :
'' You are bunny panties i am right ?'' i repeat liking teasing her.
She finally decided to open her eyes giving me a funny look before removing her notebook from my hands. I guess she was already loving removing things from me. Then she stands up trying to arrange her hair wivh was a real mess because of her fight time :
'' You should pay me to always bend over you and get your things back right , Bunny ?'' i overplay to make her angrier than she already was.
She sighs '' Shut up.'' she blurt out eyes staring at the floor before running away from the fastfood.
People were looking. I don't know why but i follow her trying my best to catch her , she is not fareway from the fastfood walking really fast. I should at least apologize on behalf of Alex. I am sure he kind of deserved to had his ass kick. He really could be an asshole. I stand in front of her stopping her escape. She frown trying to wipe her tears. .Fuck. I am not sure what to say when a girl freaking cry in front of me. Gosh. I take a deep breath :
'' Listen...I am sorry...With all the bunny things...'' i try to apologize lamely.
'' It's not that !'' she blurts sobbing.
Fuck. Great now people are looking me like i was a bastard who broke a girl's heart , shit this bunny lady was really making my life difficult when she is not even in my life :
'' Hey...'' i start pating one of her shoulder. '' I am sorry for my friend being is dick okay ? I don't know what he said but i am sure it wasn't nice.'' i explain.
She wipes her tears while sniffing '' Can you move ?'' she says.
I furrow my eyebrows '' What ?''
'' Move please. You're blocking my way.'' she insists not even looking at me.
I put myself aside and she starts walking away. I stare until i can't see her anymore and when i am sure the whirlwind is gone , i get back to my friends : still ignoring that it won't be our last meet.
