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Emma

Kate stood there on the Castle's door step shell shocked, "No I haven't heard anything from him, is everything okay Alexis?"

"That's weird, dad is in Vegas. He is having what he explained to me and Grams a holiday, but I know it's just an excuse to sleep with different girls. It's been weird with him lately. It's like he has lost his spark."

"That is weird, when is he back?"

"His plane is meant to get in tonight, but I haven't heard anything. I am really worried Detective Beckett. Is everything okay between you two?"

"Yeah, it's fine." Kate said, even she knew she was lying, she was meant to be good at keep a poker face. "Listen, Alexis I have to go. Can you get your dad to call me when he is back?"

"Sure." Alexis replied, slightly confused.

"Bye." Kate said as she swiftly turned on her heel and walked down the corridor and into the elevator. She wasn't going to cry, not here in the elevator at Castle's apartment block.

When she got into her car that is when the tears started flowing, Kate rested her head against the back of her seat and squeezed her eyes shut. Just wanting to forget everything and slip away into her own perfect world. What if he never comes back? Have I blown my only chance? Will I ever get to be with him? These questions were racing through Kate's mind. She would never be able to forgive herself if Castle never spoke to her again.

Kate sat in the car park for five more minutes, trying to compose herself. She wiped her tears away with her sleeve, started up the car engine and began to drive slowly back to her apartment. Along the way she was on the lookout for Castle's red Ferrari. She never saw it. Kate pulled into her apartment block, her whole body felt numb, she felt nothing. She automatically stepped out of the car, locked it and walked up to her apartment.

She unlocked her front door; she automatically walked over to her kitchen to start preparing her dinner. She opened her cupboard then the fridge, Kate decided she didn't feel like eating. She didn't feel tired, either. In fact she didn't feel like doing anything, she walked over to the book shelf and pulled out all her Richard Castle books, took them over to the couch and put them down next to her. She grabbed Naked Heat and fingered the cover, tracing the letters. A tear slipped from her check and hit the book. Kate didn't even realise she was crying.

She just sat there on the couch hugging Naked Heat, crying. This might be the closet to Castle she could get for a while. Kate stayed up like that all night, she couldn't sleep, she tried to go to bed but her body wouldn't function properly. Kate was shaken out of her thoughts when her phone rang; she made a grab at it. Hoping the caller ID would show Castle, it wasn't. It was dispatch saying there was a murder. After Kate scribbled down the address she automatically dialled Castle's number to tell him. Once again there was no answer, Kate had given up hope. She checked the time; it was seven in the morning. She had been up all night.

Kate dragged herself off the couch and started her morning routines. She didn't even both to do her hair, she just threw it back into a pony tail. She didn't feel hungry, but she knew she had to eat to keep up her strength so she grabbed a bagel on the way to the crime scene.

….

Kate had been busy all morning with this case and she was glad. She needed something to take her mind off what was going on between her and Castle. When Kate arrived back from her lunch break she thought she was hallucinating, she thought she heard Castle's voice, then his laugh. When she walked over to her desk Kate's face lit up like a child on Christmas morning, there was Castle sitting next to her desk talking to Ryan and Esposito. Just like old times and he seemed happy enough too.

Ryan and Esposito saw Kate and went back to their work. "Castle hey!" Kate said giving one of her rare tooth and gum grins.

Castle swivelled round, "Beckett, hi. How is my favourite Detective?" Castle asked, handing Kate over a take away coffee.

Kate smiled and blushed a little. "Thanks," She said taking a sip of the hot beverage. "Yeah, I have been pretty good. How have you been? It was like you disappeared from the face of the earth!"

"Yeah, sorry that I didn't call, I just got a little preoccupied and then lost my phone. Alexis said you called round. Now what is happening with this case? The boys were just bringing me up to speed with it."

Kate began to explain; she couldn't help but think this was just like old times. Maybe he had forgiven her. Kate noticed the Castle was texting on his phone and smiling at the replies he got. "Castle!" She said getting his attention back.

"Sorry," He said, slipping his phone back into his pocket.

"Anyway, I was thinking after this maybe we could grab an ice cream then have a catch up. There is something I need to tell you." Kate finished.

"Sure, that sounds good." Castle replied, smiling. "So I see you have all managed to cope well without me."

"Yes we have coped, perfectly fine thank you very much."

"So you didn't even miss me?"

"It's like you really need to know that Castle, I think your ego is big enough already." Kate teased.

"Oh how you wound me Detective!" Castle played along.

"You know what? It is really great to see you Castle." Kate said smiling. This was just like the old Castle and her.

"I knew you missed me."

"I never said that!"

"But that is what you inferred." Castle replied.

Just as Kate was about to reply a blonde girl stepped out of the elevator, she immediately saw Castle, waved and tottered towards him in her big stilettos. When she reached Castle he gave her a peck on the lips. Kate felt like her heart was being torn apart. "What are you doing here?" Castle asked.

"Well I was missing you baby." The blonde replied.

Kate turned her back to them and pretended to be working on the murder board when she was actually listening in to their conversation.

Castle then whispered something to the blonde that Kate couldn't hear. "Well Beckett, I have to go. What were you going to tell me?"

"It's not important Castle, you go."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah, tomorrow?" Kate asked.

But Castle never replied he had his arm draped around the blonde's shoulders as they walked towards the elevator. So this is how it would be…

Kate stood there by the murder board, still trying to process what she had just seen. Kate tried to look calm and collected and get back on with solving the murder. But on the inside, she was hurting and felt like her heart was slowly and painfully, bit by bit being ripped apart.

Hope everyone liked this! I know it is sad now, but it will get better! Please do review, I will try to update again soon!