TRUE FEELINGS
A/N:please avoid grammar mistakes. Read & review.
Hatake kakashi was standing in hokage's office stunned & could not believe his ears. "Sorry, did you say that sakura is getting married in two months." Tsunade just smiles, understanding his feelings for her apprentice, Tsunade says "yes kakashi, you hear me correctly the first time, don't make me repeat & if you no other questions, I have some work to do." indirectly telling kakashi to leave but he had some questions to be answered first. He could not imagine his life without sakura. Without her, his life seemed like a black hole. Only thing he do other than reading his book & missions, is to met & spend some time with her. She is now the centre of his life in konoha. To make sure that, she is engaged with a good guy & will spend her life happily, he asks the hokage "who & how?" it seemed like his ability to talk in full sentences is lost. Tsunade smiles & tell him "kakashi, you know him very well. A rich trader, what was his name, yes Mr. fyuono." Kakashi has been with him on many escort missions. He do know him very well. He is a good man, with a lot of money. Kakashi nods so that Tsunade will continue with the story. "so, he & son were in trouble with some bandits, when a konoha team returning from a mission saw them & helped them. His son was badly injured. He was admitted to hospital, where sakura took care of him. Mr. fyuono was impressed with sakura & asked me for her hand in marriage for son. I told him this would be sakura's decision to make. After thinking for two days, she said yes & here we are, celebrating tonight. Now get lost I have a lot of work to do." Kakashi just bows & leave in the need of a drink. Her story is maybe half baked but if it is true that she is getting married to fyuono's son, she would be happy & that is all he needs.
A pale blue colored genma watches a sad copy ninja going into a bar at 3pm. 'this is going to be interesting' genma thought & moves towards the bar. Entering the bar he sees sad kakashi drinking sake while sitting on a stool near the counter. "hey hatake, when did you return." Continuing to watch his sake, he says "not now genma, I am not in mood to hear your nonsense." Genma just sit beside him & says in his playful tone "man, you are looking like a zombie." Kakashi smiles & says "says a blue colored man." Man this man can hit on the right spot to lighten the mood. Just showing off anger genma says "it is your doing, asshole & why did you put up a poster on every wall in konoha, the next day, stating 'watch a blue genma for free. Just visit his apartment & have fun.' There were more two hundred people outside my apartment building every time for next few days." Unaffected by his accusation kakashi just continue to drink his sake. Genma continuous "let me think, no it is not your time of the month, then why are you so sad, you can tell me & you know that." Kakashi nods & says "well, the thing is" he sighs & continues "sakura is getting married." Genma nods & says "yes I heard about that. This a really a sad news, so that's why you are so sad." Kakashi's eyes narrow dangerously & then genma realizes "you love her, don't you." Kakashi just sighs & order another drink. "well I didn't thought I would be saying this is in million years but here I am saying this, kakashi hatake is in love with a girl. Whoa, pretty awkward to say & think." Kakashi's head move towards his ear & he whispers "if you ever say that loud again, I will turn you into gai's sibling for a month." Genma sweat drops but quickly recovers "ok, kakashi then what is the problem? I am fairly certain she loves you, then just go tell her that you love her and she will break her marriage & you two can live happily ever after." Kakashi sighs & says "if it was that simple, I would have done it already, but village will not allow it." Genma shifts in his stool to get a little more comfortable & says "but that is ridiculous, just because you were once teacher-student it does not means that you can't love her." Kakashi sighs "it does mean that, genma" genma argues "but more than half of village already acknowledge you & sakura as a couple."
"but what about other half & council, they will not allow it & you know it pretty well too." Genma nods & stays silent. Kakashi continues "& anyways, sakura deserves someone better." Genma shakes his head in negative & says "I disagree with that. If you, kakashi hatake, loves her with all your heart then nobody in this world can keep her more happy than you." "but there will be nothing good in this mess." With this both friends get silent. The silence is broken by a exceptionally loud voice "yo, kakashi my eternal rival, why happened to your power of youth, you should be burning in youthhh" he shot youth so loudly so that gaara in suna would have fallen from his chair. "gai, why are you so excited today?" kakashi asks. "well, lee has just mastered hirodora. So I thought of celebrating his success. Now he will finally surpass me." Gai takes the stool next to kakashi "& where is lee?" genma asks as it is his celebration & he is nowhere to be seen. "lee is in hospital, suffering from after effects of opening seven inner gates. But kakashi why are you so sad?" when kakashi do not answers, genma answers "his flower of youth love is going to be plucked by someone else in two months" gai exclaims whereas kakashi just sighs, stands up put his hand to genma's bare arm & leave the bar. After few seconds when gai watches genma's hand & face, he start laughing. There is an itch in genma's arm which explains his laugh. Genma's face turns to horror. He ran towards kakashi shouting something about killing him. Gai sighs and order a glass of sake. Drinking it and thinking about who kakashi is in love with, he asks for bill. Bill was four times what he should be & then he realized that kakashi again dumped bill on him.
Three weeks have passed since kakashi's return & he is continuously ignoring sakura. In his eyes it would be easy for both he & sakura to keep distance so that when the weeding comes, it will not hurt that much. He had always known that she would be gone one day with another man but what he didn't expected was that this day will arrive so soon. Soon she would be married to some wealthy trader's son & he will be all alone again. But he cannot be selfish, he have to let go sakura. Anyways she was never his. Until first two weeks, He was taking all available missions even the d-ranked until hokage kicked him out to take rest & let genin do their job. And now if he sense her chakra nearby or have a glimpse of pink in crowd, he would just teleport somewhere else. Sakura also started to notice that he is avoiding her. So here she is, sitting with the blonde who planned this whole mess. "so according to your plan, I would have been in his arms right now & here I am sitting in front of you, pig & he is ignoring me for more than three weeks." Sakura says to ino. "calm down, forehead. It just didn't go according to the plan. A normal man would not let.." ino was interrupted by senbon sucking shinobi "& he is no normal man." Genma moves to the table & sits beside ino. "what do you mean?" sakura asks. "well, kakashi likes you, even loves you. & He agreed to me when I asked him." Ino & sakura are stunned by the new revelation by genma. There was silence for few moments, digesting the new information, ino finally asked "then why he is ignoring her instead of breaking her marriage & make her his for always." (Well they can't take the name in public because of the fears of rumors.) Genma sips from his coffee & answers the blonde "well he thinks that she would be more happy with some trader's son than with him. So by ignoring her he is distancing himself from her so that she can lead a no tension, prosperous life with her fiancé." Sakura was starting to get angry. Who is he, to take her life's decision. "that coward, I will not…" without completing the sentence she storms out of café to find the said coward. "hey genma, why are you all green. You were supposed to be blue." ino asks. Genma puts a hand on her shoulder & says " it's a long tragic story, sweetheart." Ino shifts away from his grip & asks "did he really agreed when you asked him." "no, but I am fairly certain that he love her & besides it was her uncertainty that was stopping her from meeting him." Satisfied with the answer, ino just sit there & drink her coffee really looking forward in which direction forehead's love story will go.
Sakura searched him everywhere, in his apartment, the memorial stone, training grounds but could not find him. Finally, defeated she goes to the place where she always go to think, the hokage mountain. And there she saw him sitting, near yondaime's ear, viewing the city, so calm like he is a sage not a master assassin. Her blood starts to boil, this man, who she loves more than anything in the world, is treating her like she doesn't exist. "you, why are you sitting here?" sakura asks kakashi to which he softly replies "because I can." Just looking at her, death in her red eyes, he felt his mistake of answering in cold tone. "hey sakura, what are you doing here?" kakashi asks trying to lighten the mood. "why are you ignoring me for last three weeks?" sakura asks angrily.
"I am not ignoring you sakura. I was just busy." Kakashi answered with his same passive cold tone. "busy doing what, walking someone's dog or changing some little boy's diaper" sakura hissed telling kakashi it is not the to mess with her. "no sakura I was busy doing missions & I thought you were busy, preparing for the wedding too." Sakura sighs "there is no wedding kakashi. It was just a stupid plan of pig to make you realize your feelings." Sakura says while looking at her feet. "which feelings are you talking about sakura?" kakashi asks sakura acting oblivious to what she is talking about. " I thought of you many things hatake kakashi & being coward was none of them. Why can't you man up & tell me your feelings like me. I love you." Kakashi just stand there, saying nothing. It was the best thing that has been said to him. "why can't you say the same to me, I know you feel the same." Kakashi finally speaks "what will be the difference if I say the damn thing. We can't be together & you know that. It's easier this way." A tear escapes her eyes after a long struggle. But she could not stop herself from asking "why? Why we can't be together?" kakashi sighs & says "I thought of you many things sakura, but never a fool. Do you really think council will allow this. No they will not & Nor the village will support. Not even Tsunade can change that. Do you really think it do not hurt me, but I can't be with you. They will put me in jail & you to shame. I cannot allow both things to happen. It is best if we let it end here." Kakashi closes his lone visible eye to contain the tears. "so what do you want me to do?"sakura asks in a pained voice. "to forget me. You deserves better than what will come out of this." Kakashi answers flatly, he had thought about it & he can't "what if I don't want better, I want you, only you. Why don't you want to fight for we have." Sakura makes him turn by holding his arm, put her hand on corner of his mask. A hand with strong hold & stop her. "what are you doing, sakura?" "just wanted to see. Is it really so hard to love me? or Is it that I am not worth the trouble?" sakura asks as tears start running through her eyes. Kakashi puts his arms around her & tries to stop her from crying. "why kakashi, why don't you want to fight for this?" she asks sobbing. "I will find a way, sakura. Just give me some time to think."
"you promise." "I do."
A/N: this story will have two more chapters. & still not sure about the happy ending. Please review.
