I was still a hostess back then, a less shrewd one though. And back then, I remembered, promising Len I wouldn't trade my physical being for money. Unlike before I met him.

I didn't have much to live for really; a lonely soul on the face of the planet. No family, no friends. Everybody I had given my heart to, just left me. It made my heart even more locked up and complicated.

Then for the fun of it, to spice up my life, I offered: $50 per hour. A good business proposal depending on how you looked at it. And my first customer was Len.

He paid me the money, and I led him to the room, yet he did not pounce on me, like I thought people who exchanged such hands would.

His touch was gentle, and his hands were cold. He undressed me, and I began to look closely at his face. His eyes fierce and a little lifeless, and so clear I felt he could just stare right through me.

"You don't want to do this." His firm voice suddenly whispered into my ear.

He saw. I was scared. Despite wanting what people saw in sex, I was still inexperienced - Without any real knowledge or thought on how to do anything.

He stared right into my eyes. A piercing glance.

A tear began to form and fall.

He got up and laughed, "I'm not the one to force - You can go or whatever, I don't even want my money back. So don't do it again, leading people on."

I wiped the tear, "I- I'm sorry."

He went out to the balcony, seeming like he didn't hear my apology. He looked out to the view of the city, an ugly view really, numerous cars clustered together, the traffic lights constantly blinking, a whole human mess. The lights of the numerous skyscrapers that blocked the starry night sky.

Yet he took them all in with an accepting eye.

The cool breeze accompanied his view and he closed his eyes to the lights and listened to the sound of the cars' honking and the chattering and sometimes the airplane's roar.

I stepped out, placed myself a distance away from him, and did the same too, trying to see what he saw in this ugly view.

But I could only think about him.

He was beautiful.