If you spend all your time worrying about dying, living isn't going to be much fun. ~From the television show Roseanne.


Thoughts

Memories


~120 BC~

Death.

That was something I was denied for centuries.

In a time where everything was chaotic, bloodshed and death were everywhere... I had lost the person who was most precious to me.

My beloved Adelheid. The light that shown through my darkness... and my hate.

What surprised me about her was that she saw no outward appearances, only what was inside.

My angel with the eyes of the sea, she changed how I thought about the world and about humans.

She was so gentle yet not letting anyone walk all over her. Just as she breezed into our lives, she was taken away.

When she was taken away so cruelly, I never thought that it would hurt like this, in both my lives I've never felt a pain like this.

She made us feel just a bit more human...If only for a while.

When the time comes, we will come out of the dark, and into the new world.

Hopefully everything will be better, and my soul won't cry out in pain anymore.

I remember the first time I met her, I hated her but I was completely intrigued at the human who wasn't afraid of vampires.

~Memory One~

Standing in the shadow of the trees, I watch a dark skinned human woman wearing a white dress wade through a stream, catching fish here and there.

I continue to watch her, then she notices me in the shadows, but she doesn't go running and screaming.

She just looks at me and turns back to what she was doing, which made me curious as no one's ever ignored a vampire before.

Then a human male having the same skin color approach her.

The male calls her name, "Adelheid."

Adelheid, it means noble sort, suits her.

Adelheid glances at the man but continues to do what she was doing before.

"Adelheid!" The man yells at her, and for some strange reason I want to rip him apart.

"What?" Adelheid replies in a calm, soft voice that settled my soul.

"Fishing is a man's job." The man says to her, a look on his face that says he wants her and that he's better than her.

Adelheid just looks at him and says, "Well when you find one, let me know."

My lip twitches as I try not to chuckle at the look on the man's face.

~End Memory 1~

"My King, that woman had no special gift we could've used." (AN: Guess who?).

"Altair brother? Get your ass up!" Sister, I don't want too.

That reminds me of that time, when I had a problem with the council.

~Memory 2, 1 year later~

"The council's being a pain in my ass." I tell Adelheid from sitting in a chair in the corner of the room watching her as she lies in her bed.

"Last time everyone checked you were the king not the council, I believe their job is to lighten the load not add onto it." She tells me.

I blankly look at her and ask, "Just how the hell do you expect me to do that?"

"You make the rules and also enforce those rules, they shouldn't be questioning your authority, but if you're going to kill them at least find competent replacements first." She tells me with a grin at the end.

My lip twitches at her response, and I thought to myself that I should've been expecting an answer like that.

All of a sudden i'm in front of her and give her a kiss, and she kisses back giggling quietly.

~End Memory 2~

Her lips were so soft, and kissable.

I wish she were still here.

"My lord the kingdom is crumbling." Jax one of my greatest companion and friend.

"Jax right now he could careless, and as his guard we should also be taking care of the problem instead of grinding him about it." Dar my other friend.

This reminds me of when Adelheid met Jax and Dar.

~Memory 3~

"Altair am I ever going to meet your friends?" Adelheid asks me as we lean against a tree watching the birds on the lake.

I shrug, then I smell and hear them coming as I say, "You'll meet them now."

Jax and Dar then appear a couple feet away shocked to see with me with a woman and a human woman at that.

"Um... Altair? What are you doing here?" Dar speaks up not moving from his spot, as Jax finishes, "With a human."

"Because I want too, is that a problem now?" I bluntly say to them as Adelheid just watches in silence.

Jax and Dar shake their heads no.

After a moments silence, I demand, "What the hell are you two doing out here anyway?"

Jax and Dar glance at each other and says, "Jorna's at it again."

I twitch and say, "Dar take Adelheid to her house, and don't get caught, Jax you come with me."

~End Memory 3~

Then she met Aro, for some strange reason I didn't trust him around her, even if I did turn him.

Before Aro was calm, understanding and nice, but after a couple century's he changed, only caring for power.

Adelheid told me once that she didn't trust him and that she felt uncomfortable around him.

~Memory 4~

I watch Adelheid walk around the courtyard talking to random vampires, who loved being in her presence.

Especially Tao the bodyguard I assigned to her.

Everyone agreed that her presence and light made them feel more human.

Everyone but me was resistant to her blood, her blood sang to me like no other.

Adelheid never liked being alone in a room with Aro.

Later that night I asked why and she said, "Something about him is off, and i'm not talking about that he's a vampire, he's calculated, like if I wasn't useful he'd kill me, and he makes me uncomfortable because he doesn't talk to me unless he wants something, and i'm afraid if i'm alone with him... he'll kill me."

~End Memory 4~

Then the time I was out fighting in a battle when I found out she was dead and pregnant, was when my world went crashing down.

~Memory 5~

I calmly observe the leader Viktor, Adelheid's father as I stand before him.

"Give Adelheid back!" He demands

"I won't give her up Viktor." I say to him as I calmly stepping aside as he charges at me.

"Why! Why her!" Viktor demands, panting from fighting me.

I stare at him for moment and say, "Because she sang to me."

Viktor looks shocked, and then Dar appears behind me and says, "Adelheid."

I look at him, confused as I say, "What's wrong with her?"

Dar doesn't say anything and I then knew something was wrong.

I cock my head, "Dar? What's wrong with her?"

Dar glances at Viktor then turns back to me and says, "She's dead."

I stare at him disbelievingly as I say, "What? You're lying!"

Dar just looks at me with a sad expression saying, "I'm not lying."

Quietly, "Where?"

Dar says, "Throne room."

I disappear leaving Dar and Viktor behind as I race towards the throne room.

It doesn't take me long to get there, when I get there, I find Jax, my sister, Amara, Pandora and Xandora, standing there shocked at the scene.

My entrance snaps them back to reality.

Amara and Jax move slowly to the side to show Adelheid lying at the bottom of the Throne stairs, blood was everywhere around her lower body, there also a bloody cloth covered lump right next to her.

I stand there shocked, and it showed on my usually emotionless face.

"Brother?" I hear my sister's voice, but I don't respond as I slowly walk towards Adelheid's body.

Everyone is silent as I kneel at Adelheid's side, and gently sweep her hair out of her face, then I look at the cloth-covered bundle, and say, "What's that?"

No one says anything until my sister speaks up, "It's your baby."

Everyone is shocked at the news, and I lost it.

~End Memory 5~

Lost it is an understatement, I went postal, destroying almost everyone in my rage, effectively bring down my own kingdom.

After my rage passed, I went into a catatonic state not responding to anything, sitting on the throne, staring at the blood stained floor.

My friends and sister would bring an animal in and make me drink.

Adelheid and our baby boy were cremated and buried in our personal meadow in the pond that has a small island in the middle; her grave is surrounded by wild flowers (1).

My sister took over and made a deal with the hunters, ever since Adelheid died I haven't seen Aro, I heard him but I didn't respond.

After a few centuries, I became a marble statue, sleeping until I am needed once more.

~Present Day, 2009~

"Yo! This is Peyton's phone, i'm... not here right now, so leave a message after the beep [snapping sound]... well shi-{BEEP}"

"First Message, Monday, 2: 30 p.m. {Beep}: Hey, it's Lindsay. Um... I guess your busy but anyway, some strange men came by your house earlier looking for you... but you probably know that already, call when you get this please, those men scared me, bye. {Beep}"

"Second Message, Monday, 3:00 p.m. {Beep}: Hey Peyton, it's professor Angela, I got your message about the Lost Castle of Altair, there's barely anything on him, his supposed location is somewhere in Mongolia, but that could be a goose chase... be careful. {Beep}"

"Third Message, Monday, 4:15 p.m. {Beep}: Peyton... It's Carlisle, Aro's gotten a little out of control, you need to find Altair ASAP, it could mean dozens of lives, bye. {Beep}"

"Fourth Message, Monday, 6: 00 p.m. {Beep}: Hey it's Xena, I need to talk to you about Altair, call me back when you get this, Bye! {Beep}"

{End. Of. Messages}

Hmm, seems I have work to do... well damn there goes my vacation time.


Playlist for Chapter:
Bryan Adams- Sound the Bugle Now
Hoobastank- The Reason
Kat-tun- Precious One

Name translation:
AH-del-hiet= Adelheid.

(1):
Amaryllis- Splendid Beauty.
Birds Of Paradise- Joyfulness.
Gladiolus- Strength Of Character.
Hydrangea- Heartfelt.
Asiatic Lily- Majesty.
Statice- Remembrance.
Queen Anne's lace- Sanctuary.
Water lilies- in the pond.

AN: Forgot to put in her other occupation, she's an Agent for the protection of the supernatural; her code name is Agent 47.